ARMY WEEK,,,,,,,,,26th October 2015

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

What a question :happy2: how long have you got haha?
Happy, in general yes pretty much. I have always been a glass half full sorta guy if you pardon the pun. Unhappy with my drinking, which is what I assume you are asking, then yes very much so, it's rotting me from the inside out, body and soul.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

And that was my problem tabs - thought I was committed - nah there was ALWAYS an excuse - many wud consider my going to rehab as gratuitous - I didn't do those classic brown bag dui things but in the heel of the hunt it was the only way to get me to want this more than anything

Tums grand starts

Well maybe that is the crux of it, I just dont want it badly enough, I can never ever see myself going down the rehab road.

[starty]

Tabbers (bleeding spell check keeps changing that to jabbers !!! ) that doesn't make sense. How can you feel happy if there is such a huge aspect of your life that is overwhelming you and rotting your body and mind?

I told myself I was happy too with drinking, taking drugs etc. But really I was covering up my real feelings and just kidding myself. Bloody horrible to admit though and very scary

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Anyway food for thought and speaking of food I need coffee and breakfast, off to work soon. Talk later dear ladies.

[starty]

Have a good one Tabbers. I have just had cold pizza and ginger beer

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Tabbers (bleeding spell check keeps changing that to jabbers !!! ) that doesn't make sense. How can you feel happy if there is such a huge aspect of your life that is overwhelming you and rotting your body and mind?

I told myself I was happy too with drinking, taking drugs etc. But really I was covering up my real feelings and just kidding myself. Bloody horrible to admit though and very scary

I also answer to the name of Jabbers haha.
I suppose it is all relative Starty, the first drink doesn't make me unhappy because I dont think about it too much and I can't go around unhappy all the time, it's way too much hard work. Maybe those close to me would say I am different when I have AL in my system, not such a happy person perhaps.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Have a good one Tabbers. I have just had cold pizza and ginger beer

That's gross but I always thought squirrels have odd tastes.

[starty]

I also answer to the name of Jabbers haha.
I suppose it is all relative Starty, the first drink doesn't make me unhappy because I dont think about it too much and I can't go around unhappy all the time, it's way too much hard work. Maybe those close to me would say I am different when I have AL in my system, not such a happy person perhaps.

Oh it wasn't the first drink for me either jabbers Nor the second or the third. It was long lasting toll on my mental health that lasted long after that and continued to get worse. Oh and no one knew I was struggling either. I can put on a very brave face when I need to

[JackieClaire]

Morning all,
Ahh slapping the happy face on when inside you brain its like a shattered mirror............still guilty of that from time to time I'm afraid.

[JackieClaire]

Defo got a real and genuine happy face today.............got a message from my little brother that he's getting married next year to his long term partner..............all here in JC Mansions are deeeeeeeeelighted to the nth degree as she lovely. Told the son & heir he was getting a new Aunt last night...........took him ages for the penny to drop and I get a new sister in law.:congratulatory:

[satz123]

Great refreshing open chat Starty & Tabbs. :hug:

Morning all,
Ahh slapping the happy face on when inside you brain its like a shattered mirror............still guilty of that from time to time I'm afraid.

Funny I was thinking about that yesterday as I worked from home . The thought of putting on actual slap and heading to the office made me cringe. I feel it's a false me that goes in there everyday - and I am starting to tire of the facade.

[JackieClaire]

Ahh Satz,love :hug: Gets to be a chore. ...........just remember you're good at your job.

[starty]

Lovely news on the Wedding JC

Satz mebbe time for a change?

[IamMary]

Satz, I know that feeling of taking baby steps into the office. Have you ever thought about doing something different, taking that leap? Or have you options to cut back on your hours, even a 4 day week could make a massive difference.

Keep hearing stories, some too close for comfort, about people getting sick, tumors, breast cancers.. so im trying to adopt the 'life is too short' philosophy - then again, cant be wreckless either and wake up one day and Im 70, living on fresh air!

[IamMary]

Crossed Posts there Starty! Great minds:happy2: