One Step at a Time - December 2015

[mama bear]

YAY NORA!!!! 155 days?? I do believe that's a record!

[fennel]

Rusty, you are so kind. Thank you so much!
I agree with you wholeheartedly about the job...I was just thinking that this morning. All of these last few months while I've been crying at the gym, crying on my walks in the nature preserve, crying while doing my p.t. exercises...Mrs. Fen has simply thrown herself even further into her career and distracted herself. I am really looking forward to getting active and singing show tunes with the seniors, lol! I have a mildly pretty voice and used to sing for my dialysis patients.

That paranoia is something, though...I was dusting yesterday, with the intent to vacuum afterwards. I got to the "weed" area of the living room and immediately worried about tiny THC particles being everywhere, and vacuuming kicking them up and into my pee system. I'm sorry to sound so crazy, but I MUST get a job. Nowadays, nearly every job requires drug testing.

Wow...Mr. G! Do come here and expound a bit on your panty-less situation... (Fanning myself) Rusty here is proposing to you, as well! Come hither, you little man-vixen...:sohappy:

Nora, you are doing so well. I am proud of you. :hug:

We got a lot of snow dumped on us last night...I dug out the bottom of the drive this morning so A could get her car out.

Pauly, geez...a LOT is happening in Vegas these days! Stay safe.

I will report back later, my peeps.

[NoraC]

Fen - I don't blame you for being worried about the weed. But, I'm sure it's fine. :hug: I know that you are going to be ok. Mrs Fen is going to wake up one day and realize what she threw away. This job is going to be GREAT.

Rusty - you are always so upbeat and supportive. Thank you! Fine - I'll just drool over here for Mr G. Yummy.

Liz - I've been thinking about this whole sleeping thing. How old is CJ? If you don't like it, then I think they should respect your wishes. We have a VERY tiny house. A small 2 bedroom, tiny living room. Son & GF have nowhere else to go except his room. They'll sit out with us in the living room but they always end up in his room. It did bother me when he was in his early 20's but doesn't bother me anymore. Probably because I adore her.

Mama - how are things going on the house. Do you have a deadline yet?

Pauly - I missed it. Did something else happen in Vegas?!?

I'm at work and better get to it. I'll be back later. Dottie, Nursie, Techie, Mr G and everyone else that stops by for a read. Pull up a chair and sit a bit. Just jump right in and let us know how things are going with you.

[NoraC]

Oh my gosh - I'm sorry that I'm not a positive, happy person like you all are. :fatigue: I'm trying....I really am. You all have been thru so much and gone thru it with a smile on your face. I am sick of myself complaining so much.
This Prednisone that I'm on is taking it's toll. I am so IRRITABLE. I am just trying to sit here with my head down and not yell at people walking by my desk. I even talked to the Dr about stopping it but I was on a high dosage and you can't stop it cold turkey. Something about adrenal glands or something.
You know what's really funny? I can't even imagine drinking. But, the thought comes into my head. But, when I get past that first thought, my throat starts to close off. Weird, huh? I know that if I would let that first sip down my throat though that I would be right into problems again. So, I need to stay very proactive.
No offense, peeps, but geez I'll be glad when It's Friday morning and the New Year has started and these celebrations are over.
Rant over - (for a few, at least)

[NoraC]

Fen - I'm sure it'll be fine. You don't hang around when they smoke so you will be fine. :hug:

[fennel]

Fen - I'm sure it'll be fine. You don't hang around when they smoke so you will be fine. :hug:

I did hang out upstairs in my early days of living with them...and sometimes, I come up for a can of mineral water or a snack and they've just smoked and it's still hanging in the air...

Dang. I'm so screwed if I don't pass that test.

[NoraC]

Early days - that would be long gone out of your system. You would have to have sat down next them in HEAVY DUTY smoke for HOURS & HOURS. When do you get the results? :hug:

[fennel]

I don't know. I think the lab they send the specimen to releases the results to my place of employment.

[fennel]

Sorry I need to be talked off the ledge so often. It would be so unfair if I failed it because of second hand weed smoke, especially since I have been so squeaky clean. I don't get anywhere near the exposure that you described, Nora. I need to take a chilly pill and focus on other things right now.

[NoraC]

I can totally understand why you are stressing over this, Fen. Deep breaths and just think you'll have your own place soon.

[Lizann]

Off to dinner at Erin's tonight after a long day at work. Just a quick check in to let you know I'm alive and well.
Thanks for all the input on CJ and the bf. I'm just gonna take this one day at a time. Praying she will find someone who loves and respects her. What else can I do? She will be 26 in February. Old enough to know better, one would think. Joe is six months older than her.
Love you all!

[fennel]

I can totally understand why you are stressing over this, Fen. Deep breaths and just think you'll have your own place soon.

That's so true...and I will decorate it up just the way I like. And I can have all my peeps over. :thumbsup:

[fennel]

Off to dinner at Erin's tonight after a long day at work. Just a quick check in to let you know I'm alive and well.
Thanks for all the input on CJ and the bf. I'm just gonna take this one day at a time. Praying she will find someone who loves and respects her. What else can I do? She will be 26 in February. Old enough to know better, one would think. Joe is six months older than her.
Love you all!

I certainly hope CJ finds somebody besides this guy. Keeping my fingers crossed!

Have a great dinner tonight!

[paulywogg]

Hey all,Fen you'll pass the drug test stop worrying! I'm having an emotional day cuz Bobbi went back to Portland this morning plus I'm soooo tired I had to ask Kell to have someone else watch Louie and I feel sad,one of my huge motivators to stay sober is so I can be a good Nan to him and here I am putting him off,I just didn't want him to be here if I'm crabby and tired, also dealing with anxiety, PMS,overly tired makes it worse,no thought of drink(maybe 1 thought in passing) but shit,what would that help,nothing that's what! Nora,something shitty happens in Vegas daily,shootings or something else bizarre, I need to take my tree down all the lights are sagging ho hum, hope we all have a good night and tomorrow is better

[fennel]

Yes, that woman drove her car up on the sidewalk in Vegas and took out a few people...plus there was another violent occurrence there recently.

Pauly, the p.m. s is a real trigger for you. Have you ever spoken to your doctor about HRT? It might help with the symptoms and make you a bit more clear headed. I'm glad you're hanging in there.