~cattleman cafe~ & another 24...

[Slo]

You are right, Jude, that I have to watch for resentment triggering drinking. My baby brother was Mother’s last victim (to become her scapegoat) in my family of origin, and he is just eaten up with anger, resentment, and pain towards her; and is busy drinking himself to death. So if I am going to choose the sober path, I have to watch the resentment flares.

I will have to be like Rava, and say “She is what she is.” I am sure you don’t miss your mother, Rava. It must be such a relief to be done with all of the drama, favoritism, pot-stirring, gossiping, manipulation, -just all of it that they do.

Ginger, what a great idea to participate in the lunch part, but then enjoy nature and creativity! Like, you do you! I have found over all the years that I dislike gambling and casinos, and am not at all addicted to gambling.

The diamond painting looks a lot like needlepoint to me. Thank you for sharing. I just bought a paint-by-number type of kit, to see if it will be relaxing.

One reason that I do not like the new window treatments is that now I am even more freezing cold in this condo.

Another day of freedom for all of us, please.

[Mulburry]

I mention it here because Rava will get it -she had a NPD-disordered mother too.

Might not be exactly the same having had an NPD father (he passed last year) but i think I can relate a little bit. When he was still at home I had hard time spending more than week there at a time, he would just get on my nerves too much. Thankfully my mother is a saint pretty much, so it's a joy spending time with her (which I've been doing a lot more of these days). I can't say I really consciously blamed my drinking on my dad but it's probably likely that an upbringing with an NPD parent had something to do with that desire to to always want to numb myself. As he became older and more infirm, and ended up in a care home, I found it lot easier to let go of resentment, as he became more an object of pity.

It was -25C (-13F) here yesterday morning and it's -5C (23F) here this morning, I'll take the warmer temps for sure! Supposed to be well above freezing tomorrow so it'll be a good time to change out the opener.

Wow, that's pretty cold, here we're up to 10C now and all the snow is gone. Temps are starting to feel springlike but we're just getting inundated with rain storm after rain storm now, so it hasn't been too pleasant either.