Wow, what I woke up to here should be Recommended Reading for anyone who makes their way to a How Do I Quit Drinking? website! What an inspiring group of people you all are. Thank you.
There were many Day Ones before I joined MWO and in fact, some periods of apparent success during 2012. But - losing those stretches of weeks and even a couple months was devastating and made me hate/give up on myself even more. Because I knew I would never go to a meeting or rehab (unless court-ordered), I truly believed that joining MWO (an act that was very out of character and felt scary) was my "last chance". I was determined to make it work. I didn't realize it at the time, but my thinking had changed. I had already decided to no longer drink. But I needed an external support - like you said, I'd disappointed myself too many times to believe in myself.
I no longer think it was my "last chance" - I could have changed my thinking at any time. But, I'm glad I felt that way at the time because it inspired me to use the heck out of MWO. I read and posted constantly and "changed my brain". I did think about not drinking all the time - but drinking had dominated my life before so that didn't really bother me and I felt good about the relationships I developed here (I'd cut off so many people in my real life).
Coming back immediately and not letting this blow up into weeks or months of drinking shows you can trust yourself - you want to be healthy again. Now you just need to put systems in place so that you won't pay attention to the thoughts that lead you in the direction you don't want to take - eat the way that is best for you, use supplements, ask those around you to help, and speak up before you drink. People here will help you focus your attention where you want it to be.
I used it as needed, not at a certain time daily - 500 mg capsule allowed to dissolve under the tongue. Repeat as needed. I still use it occasionally because like Kuya confessed :wink:, all of us have our thinking get off track from time to time. It doesn't occur to me to post about it when it happens because deep down, I'm confident that I won't drink. But maybe we all should - it reminds us that in this, we're all the same and thinking about drinking doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you or that you will do it. It's just a thought to to chuckle at, dismiss, and move on.
:heart: NS
Originally posted by starty
View Post
I no longer think it was my "last chance" - I could have changed my thinking at any time. But, I'm glad I felt that way at the time because it inspired me to use the heck out of MWO. I read and posted constantly and "changed my brain". I did think about not drinking all the time - but drinking had dominated my life before so that didn't really bother me and I felt good about the relationships I developed here (I'd cut off so many people in my real life).
Coming back immediately and not letting this blow up into weeks or months of drinking shows you can trust yourself - you want to be healthy again. Now you just need to put systems in place so that you won't pay attention to the thoughts that lead you in the direction you don't want to take - eat the way that is best for you, use supplements, ask those around you to help, and speak up before you drink. People here will help you focus your attention where you want it to be.
Originally posted by starty
View Post
:heart: NS
Comment