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    #1

    Nichau's back!

    Wow. What a whirlwind life since I last checked in.

    Short story: I've gotta go in for a colonoscopy in a couple o' days, so no drinking a few days prior, which I'm hoping is going to help facilitate my new path to sobriety.

    Long story: I had so many things happen in my life since I was last here...(a year? less? more?)
    • My husband and I split, though we're still pretty tight, love/emotional-wise. 50% of that split was due to alcohol on both of our parts, and 50% was that he had drained me financially. I saw that would never change (for him), and hopefully it will change for me.
    • I got "dumped off in the woods" by a friend who was taking me out West to live with her, and also provided me with job options. Half way through the trip, she/her husband changed his/their mind. I was left without a job, a place to live, a car, etc.
    • I was hospitalized for a week for stress. I couldn't eat. (Which is VERY unusual for me!)
    • Found out I needed surgery for ten out of 24 vertebrae in my back. I'm in chronic pain with the back stuff and the arthritis stuff and the DDD stuff and the stenosis stuff and the fibromyalgia stuff and other stuff.
    • I *do* have a roof over my head, with a roommate who is...insane. Stress level high. More sitting on my butt, more drinking, blood pressure higher, motivation levels low, depression levels high. I spend much of my day with headphones on to drown out his voice ranting and raving over things that most of us would not give a second thought about.

    Plan for the future: I've really got to get some counseling. The state that I'm in (geographically) has EXCELLENT medical care for the indigent, which I now am.

    Started playing music again professionally. I took video of myself last night. I sounded pretty good, but I looked like hell.

    I'm going to be leaning on the MWO group heavily in the days and weeks and months ahead...

    So glad to be back...big hugs for each and every one of you, no matter where your struggles or peace may be with you today!
    "The Pessimist complains about the wind; the Optimist expects it to change; the Realist adjusts the sails."

    —William A. Ward
    Tags: future, job, nichau, split, stress
    #2
    Welcome back. I hope you stick around!
    Outside of a dog a book is mans best friend. Inside of a dog its too dark to read

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      #3
      Nichau, welcome back! What a year....now it's time to start loving yourself again.....
      IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO BE WHAT YOU MIGHT HAVE BEEN
      Relapse starts long before the drink is drunk!!.Fresh Start!

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        #4
        Thanks...it's good to be back.
        "The Pessimist complains about the wind; the Optimist expects it to change; the Realist adjusts the sails."

        —William A. Ward

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          #5
          Soul-suckingly depressed today. Thought I'd pop in to say hi. :-)
          "The Pessimist complains about the wind; the Optimist expects it to change; the Realist adjusts the sails."

          —William A. Ward

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            #6
            why sad man?
            The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.
            Friedrich Nietzsch

            Be at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let every new year find you a better man.
            Benjamin Franklin

            http://www.theendofmyaddiction.org

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              #7
              Hi Nichau, sounds like you have a lot going on right now and my heart aches for you. Jus hang in there and don't let alcohol keep taking from you. U can get out of this.
              Its for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm then and DO NOT let yourself be burdened again by a yoke of slavery. Gal 5:1

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                #8
                Eh...I live with a roommate who is triggering my PTSD. I'm doing better today...thanks for asking, time2quit! :-)
                "The Pessimist complains about the wind; the Optimist expects it to change; the Realist adjusts the sails."

                —William A. Ward

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                  #9
                  Thanks, lizker...
                  "The Pessimist complains about the wind; the Optimist expects it to change; the Realist adjusts the sails."

                  —William A. Ward

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                    #10
                    Hi Nichau,
                    Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate. Why don't you hang out with us on the Newbie's thread. There's so much support there.

                    What are your goals? I know your health is number 1 and quitting drinking will be the best thing for you. Let us help. We all need lotsa support.
                    Sometimes what you're most afraid of doing is the very thing that will set you free.

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                      #11
                      Oh my goodness....you came to right place and we will support you.....
                      I love my family more than alcohol.:h
                      Live in the Solution....not the problem

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