One Step at a Time April

[paulywogg]

Hey all,Nora,glad mom's ok,I was worried,Liz,I'm ok,thanks for asking hon Ifeel happy,I feel happy because I'm sober and I'm gonna continue to value each sober day like a beautiful diamond,of course some days I'm left holding a piece of shit and not a diamond but I know it will shift back again you guys I was soooo depressed on this last drinking spell,usually I can drink myself into a semi-happy place but this one made me feel like if I died during it,I wouldn't have cared,I felt helpless,dirty,defeated,just totally not myself,even my family was baffled by my sadness,shoot even Winslow sat at the stairs when I went to bed and whined cuz he was worried,hubs said he kept glancing at my door if even my dog could sense it,you know it was bad! Mama,I hope cigars and seafood was good,odd combo haha! Hubs and I were gonna go to breakfast but we may take a ride to Boulder City later and pick up something fun(greasy) for lunch,much love to all,enjoy this Sunday my peeps!

[Lizann]

Pauly, you sound great!

[Glass Half Empty]

Thanks Rusty - you're a sweetheart! :heartbeat:

Pauly - so glad to hear you sounding better.

Nora - is Mom still improving?

[NoraC]

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOU THOUGHTS & PRAYERS!!!!

First thing I thought of was that I needed my friends here so I texted Mama and asked her to post it. :heartbeat:

Isn't it an amazing thing the love that we have for each other even though we might never meet. :hug:

[NoraC]

I haven't had a chance to read back but wanted to give you an update. I'm sorry that it took me so long......

Here is what happened:
I was giving mom a shower. She did not want to take one but I insisted (yes, I have kicked myself but have forgiven myself). It went fine but when we were done, she just wasn't right. I put her robe on her and she just sat in the shower chair. Then I called for my son to come help me get her out of the tub because she was so weak. Then suddenly she was out of it. Eyes wide open but unresponsive, drooling, grunting noises. Called 911. She was breathing but completely out of it. We couldn't lift her out of the tub and had to wait for the paramedics. She vomited once after about 10 minutes. For about 20 minutes she was completely out of it, eyes wide open but unable to respond.
She finally began to come out of it, but her speech was very slurred and she was disoriented of course. They took her to the hospital where they ran a cat scan, blood tests and x-rays. Everything came back normal. No sign of brain bleed. After several hours, her speech went back to normal. She was not dehydrated but it seemed that after the IV drip, she perked up?? I don't know.
Anyway, they were planning on moving her to a hospital in our network. Of course, I had just been able to get her insurance changed from Oregon to California effective 4-1-16 and they couldn't find her in the system, etc. After about 8 hours, that part was worked out but then they couldn't find her a bed at the other hospital.
I spoke to the Dr and and a nurse about just leaving. The Dr was really nice about it but be he had already diagnosed having her admitted so we would leaving against medical advise. He had no problem with it and said if she got worse to just bring her back in. But, I didn't want to leave AMA so we stayed for a few more hours. We were at the hospital for 13 hours. I finally signed her out AMA. The nurse that was helping us told us that he agreed completely. Mom would be much more comfortable at home in her own bed. We got home about 3:30 this morning I think.
Mom is not feeling well today. She never says she doesn't feel well, ever. And today she has said it a couple of times. But, it's more like an all-over type of not feeling well so I think it's just the aftereffects of yesterday. She seems to have an upset stomach so I'm going to make some sup. Plus DIL made Mom a wonderful chicken dish that was spicy which mom loves but maybe it was too much?
Anyway, she is dozing right here beside me. I am so thankful that it wasn't a stroke. I will get her into her Doctor this week and go from there.

Oh the funny thing about this - always has to be something funny. Yesterday morning I woke up with an irritated eye, all red and hurting. Had used eye wash and was debating going to urgent care. Anyway, all this happened so I must have been quite a site talking to the doctors and nurses, etc. My eye blood red and half closed with tears coming out of it. LMAO - they were all too polite to say anything though. LOL

[SKendall]

Well that was a very eventful day for you Nora and had to be very scary. You are a very strong and sober lady and you seem to have dealt with it smoothly. Let's hope she feels better tomorrow.

[NoraC]

SK - thanks. Mama Bear texted me yesterday and said thank heavens I was sober and how proud she was. I told her that 9 months ago would have been a different story. Again, I just feel like things have fallen into place the way they were meant to be. :wings:

[NoSugar]

Hi, Nora. I don't think they fell into place - I think you were able to stop paying attention to all the thoughts about why you needed to drink, listen to the wisdom we all were born with, and let the healthy, real you emerge. Somehow you knew it was time. I had a similar, though less dramatic, experience. I'm very happy for you :hug:.

[Lizann]

Wow, Nora! I didn't think your mom new you drank. Could she shed any light on how she felt yesterday when all this happened? Had a little episode with my dad today. Mom said he just wasn't feeling well. He couldn't put his finger on it. He just layed down and slept a bit. Mom said she was watching him to make sure he didn't stop breathing. I was pretty upset about it but he seems fine. This parent thing is tough!

[NoraC]

Liz - sorry about your dad. It is tough.

No my mom never knew I drank.
Mama Bear texted me yesterday and told me how great I was sober. I'll go back and correct that.

[aihfl]

Hi Nora, hope you and your family are holding up. I worry about my mother having a stroke. One of our more recent arguments have been over my psych meds. She said I only go see the psychiatrist "to get more pills." She doesn't "believe in medication" and although her blood pressure is on the edge of being dangerously high (160/100) she won't take blood pressure medications because she "doesn't believe in medication." When I pointed out to her that her BP was getting up toward stroke range she just retorted, "Well that would make you happy, wouldn't it."

And people wonder why I drank... That's a joke... Kind of, sort of.

[actiongirl46]

Hi all - I'm back from vacation. Long trip to San Francisco and Seattle. More tomorrow!

[NoraC]

AG - can't wait to hear all about it. Welcome home!!

[NoraC]

Aihfl - Sorry to hear that about your mom. That is scary that she won't even consider med for her bp if necessary. I know that statement to you had to really hurt.

[Lizann]

Good morning my friends. I drank last night. I'm up early feeling ok physically but not emotionally. I'm so upset with myself. Hubby and my son know I had been drinking and although they were kind I know I disappointed them. Mark even commented on how well I was doing. What set this one off, things mom said to me yesterday. I'm just weepy today and my thoughts woke me up early, sorry guys.. I could really use a hug.