One Step at a Time April

[Lizann]

Yay, rusty on the weight loss and being pain free! Are you taking any meds for it?
Enjoy your walk. It's beautiful here today too.

Skendall, I must admit, you meet the most interesting people. As scary as that could have me, I did have me chuckling. Any progress on the house sale?

Happy Sunday guys!

[Rusty]

Liz:heartbeat: I am down to only Gabapentin at night. Thank you for asking, you sweetheart. Skendall does meet the most interesting people, and I am so impressed with how she writes books for her granddaughter. What a lovely legacy. Off to work out!!

[SKendall]

For enquiring minds: He had lower right leg amputated last September because he had 2 aneurisms in his ankle and the ankle was not working and dangerous to have it. Unfortunately it doesn't was to heal and he's had 2 ops shaving more off and is looking at a 3rd op. I feel very bad for him.

Since we re selling the property we now have to hire house cleaners and guys to maintain those 10 acres.

[SKendall]

Forgot the girlfriend. She was there for the aneurism (as was I) and she just went away in 2013. I hope it wasn't the email I wrote to her telling her she was trespassing in my home and the next time she used my jetted tub, would she please think of me who designed it, lol.:welldone:

[NoraC]

Hello everyone....

Rusty - glad that you are having (hopefully still are) a pain free or less pain day. :hug:

Pauly - how are you doing?

Liz - how are you doing?

SK - I am sorry to hear about your ex. But, I'm really sorry for what you are going thru.

Mama - did you have date night last night?

Techie - have you got most of your mom's stuff ready to move?

Ne - sorry that you didn't feel well yesterday. I hope that you do feel better today.

AG - how are you doing? Did you start the nal?

Red - where have you been?

I have seen Sunshinedaisies posted on JC's birthday thread. I need to go look her up. Plus, I need to go find Pauly and see how she is.

Hope everyone is having a fantastic day. I slept with my husband last night for the first time since the beginning of November! :kisses: Just kidding....it wasn't that exciting. LMAO My 16 year old great niece runs track and she had a race about 20 minutes away. So, she came over to spend the night because it's close to a 2 hour drive back to her home. So, she slept in bed with Grandma. I slept on the futon in the living room with hubby.

[Lizann]

Skendall, sorry about your ex hubby. That's really a tough situation. I am sure is remorseful at this point, no?

Ne, I hope you are in a better mood today. I am so sorry about the willow tree. We currently have no trees on our property. Not necessarily a bad thing when it comes to raking. The town cut down three trees in front of our house last year and planted two new little trees. We have shade from our neighbors trees.

Nora, I'm ok, thanks for asking. I'm still licking my wounds and upset with myself but keeping busy seems key for me. Erin came over today and honestly I miss having her here all the time. We would always walk together. She was always busy doing stuff and would often ask me to come along. We took a long walk and just talked. CJ wasn't around but we talked about her. We compared notes. They (her and joe) are planning to get married and have a ton of details to work out. She would like it to be soon as she isn't getting any younger. I believe she will use my MIL diamond for her ring, which I still have, so not sure how quickly this will all move. Lots to digest and think about. It causes me a great deal of aniexty. But I did not drink!
How are you doing Nora? Is it getting any easier for you? I get tired of thinking about it all the time! Sleeping with hubby, you got me all excited there.

Pauly, I hope you are ok. I have missed you.

Mama, I guess your at nanas for dinner. Does she cook or do you guys all help out? It looks like yesterday was fun. I just love how happy you always are in your pictures!

Hello to everyone else. Hope everyone had a good AF weekend.

[NoraC]

Liz - I have been thinking about things (alcohol) quite a bit lately. Not from a craving stand point at all. I don't know how to describe it which is why I haven't brought it up. I actually have been making little notes and might put it all together on that old thread of mine.

I am in a very good place regarding alcohol. I honestly can not even imagine drinking. I do not want to drink. Never thought I would be able to say that.
It would be wonderful if I always felt like this. But, I am trying to be very honest with myself in the fact that the feeling can change in an instant. So, I am trying to make little notes, write things down that resonate with me. Just my own personal tool box, I guess.
I just preordered a book 'Tired of Thinking about Drinking'.

This is a preview that really, really hit home with me.......

THIS IS WHAT I THOUGHT: There isn’t enough to drink.
I should go to the liquor store now. I’m not sure what we have planned for tonight and I won’t want to go out again. One bottle won’t be enough. Two would be cutting it close. There isn’t enough.
I will put our glasses side by side on the counter when I pour the wine each evening. I will line the glasses up to
make sure that you don’t get more. There isn’t enough.
And this really happened to me. I was alone in a hotel room, and looked into the mini bar, and saw:
~ one tiny Toblerone bar
~ one KitKat bar
~ one bottle of water
~ two tiny cans of beer
~ two tiny airplane-sized bottles of red wine
and I thought, I can’t start drinking now, there isn’t enough.
Not enough for what?
To fade out. To be numb.
Because despite what I may have said, I never wanted one glass of wine with dinner. I wanted three glasses. What’s the point in one glass?
And despite what I may have said, I never drank because I liked the taste. I romanticized expensive wines, but they are all basically the same. Alcohol is a vehicle, and I didn’t care which vehicle I used to travel. When the fancy stuff was gone, I was content to drink boxed white. I didn’t let a room-temperature light beer stop me.

This is how I lived my life for way too many years. I never want to do that again.
So, I don't dwell on drinking or not drinking. But, I have at least one daily check in here at MWO to keep me grounded. I have a couple other sites that send some inspirational e-mails. Just little things that I have tried to implement into my life.

[SKendall]

Nora, that is such a good thread and the tools you are using are powerful (tool box?). I am so happy for you. The inspirational msgs were great for me too. May I ask who/what sites you use? You can pm me if you prefer. The portion of that book really resonates and if you're like me I ask myself what took so long? It doesn't matter how, we are "here".

A busy sleeping arrangement, lol.

[Rusty]

Excellent post, Nora...so powerful!!! You have helped MANY people tonight! I admire your perseverance, determination, and honesty. Thank you.:heartbeat::hug::thumbsup:

[Rusty]

Sorry Skendall....cross post! I want to get that book, too. I ask myself what took so long, too. You're right, Skendall...all that matters is that we ARE here.

I marvel at the wisdom, resources, and life experiences people on this thread bring to MWO. We really look out for each other and take a true interest in each others' journeys. It's fantastic!

[Lizann]

Great post Nora! Thank you for sharing. I would love to read that thread if you ever to decide to post it.

Sweet dreams guys!

[actiongirl46]

Thanks Nora, great post!!

Ne - I hope you are feeling better. I don't recall you being down very often so I hope it was just a brief phase.

I haven't started the Nal yet . . . why, I don't know. I want to and don't have any reason not to. Hubs went away this weekend so of course I took the opportunity to indulge. Nothing over the top but I don't feel great about it.

Thanks for your patience with me. I'm here and going to keep fighting.

[Rusty]

AG-for some reason, I was the same way with NAL. It sat in my bathroom cabinet for months. Take that first step...make sure you have an ample amount of food in your stomach....make half a sandwich (something with carbs works), raw veggies with dip...and then try maybe 10-15 mg. of NAL. You won't regret it...I promise. Good for you for not giving up. Start the new week off with new resolve to get in as many consecutive AF days as possible. Baby steps work for people like you and me.:hug: We love having you here so please stick around.

[Lizann]

Good morning! AG I was like that with Antdepressants. I resisted a long time. I don't know why. Rusty knows what she's talking about, we love having you here. Please stick around. We can do this!

I slept fabulously last night! It occurs to me my sleep has gotten much better. I woke up this morning and hit the ground running. Hubby has decided to cut back on his caffeine intake, so we are drinking half caf now. I hope I don't poop out. It's going to be warm here today and I'm making a roast for dinner. Turning the oven on probably isn't the best today but I'm making dinner for the kids (Erin and Dan too).
Just wanted to wish everyone a happy Monday. :congratulatory:

[SKendall]

Ugh! I don't get irritated very often, but today I am. I started the day with an MRI and for 25 minutes listened to the clacking, horn sounds, buzzers, etc. It just set my nerves on edge and being in that coffin like structure. I think that's a torture method right there! My man who took me from the dressing room to the mri room was staring at my boobs because you have to take the bra off. Honestly I was within 2 seconds of flashing him and now I'm regretting I didn't.

My internet went out yesterday and wouldn't accept the network security key, I called for another one and that was bogus too. I turned on the tv and got that no video signal and it wouldn't turn off. Now remember I have no cell phone reception in my living room so I was running in and out and then the call dropped. I need something to eat before I try again. Obviously my internet is back on.