One Step at a Time - July 20016

[SKendall]

Thanks Mama, I can't engage at her level. She was on somebody's balcony last night and started taunting me and I just told her to knock it off, she then started imitating me, who does that?

I lost my wallet and I'm depressed, want the blankie fort. I am going to do a self-imposed block on the news, the whole world has problems right now.

[NoraC]

SK - that is just bizarre behavior! A friend of mine had a neighbor in his condo that weirded out on him & his wife. And it started with something about her dogs. I think that she played with them really early on weekend mornings in the room that shared the same wall as their bedroom. They told her about the issue in a friendly manner. Thought things were ok and then issues started. Same type of behavior.

Mama - so happy to see you!

I called in sick today and am having a nice day off. I have been so sore and achy. Situation at work is not a good one anyway. I decided that I wasn't feeling well and stayed home! So there! :hahaha:
And since I'm so sick, I went to get a pedicure and a threading. :egad: I'm going to the rheumatologist tomorrow morning. In addition to the list of things I want to discuss with her, I'm going to talk to her about going off the Lexapro. I know I'll get a huge lecture (which I deserve) about going off cold turkey. I started crying a few minutes ago because I couldn't figure something out on Instagram. :indecisiveness: lol
I was getting my eyebrows threaded and the young woman kept sniffing. My eyes are closed and I said - oh, are you sick? She was crying! Poor thing. I jumped up and hugged her and said it's ok - don't worry. She said she was sad. So, something had obviously happened. I told her that I would come back later but she insisted on finishing.
Came home and was able to talk Mom into letting me freshen her up. (It's a real struggle sometimes to convince her) I was able to wash her hair in the kitchen sink and then give her a sponge bath on the bed. She admitted that it felt good.

I was cruising around on amazon today looking at worry rings. They actually are selling Stainless Steel 9mm Exotic Man & Woman Sex Ring . Now, seriously, where could you wear this thing? To work? Out to dinner with family?

[NoraC]

HALT!!!!
I need to clarify something. Liz attended a funeral of a young 24 year old man recently. Very sad.

When Liz posted about it, she said that she lost it at the wake. So, I mentioned that I understood because in the past, I had to attend a couple of funerals for young men.

Well - somehow, I worded it wrong and made it sound like it was recent. I apologize. These were about 4 and 5 years ago.

Sorry for the confusion.

[paulywogg]

That rings awesome!! Haha,told you I was ghetto SK,sounds like a horrible neighbor,ugh,Nora,enjoy your hooky day,I don't want to take any of those meds,my healthcare is kinda wonky anyways and I don't want to be dependent on a med when my moods only shitty/anxious during TOM,there's more I could do such as eat better, exercise harder,lay off the gosh darn caffeine,etc

[NoraC]

That rings awesome!! Haha,told you I was ghetto SK,sounds like a horrible neighbor,ugh,Nora,enjoy your hooky day,I don't want to take any of those meds,my healthcare is kinda wonky anyways and I don't want to be dependent on a med when my moods only shitty/anxious during TOM,there's more I could do such as eat better, exercise harder,lay off the gosh darn caffeine,etc

osteroops::hanging: Good point - no kidding - take better care of myself. I should have thought of that.

[Lizann]

Nora, never heard of the worry rings, so I googled it. Interesting. Let me know if it works. Good for you taking a sick day. I think I see one in my not too distant future

Pauly, I was hesitant too taking the lexapro so I started with a very low dose and then halved it. Gradually increased it and had no side effects. I am now taking 5 mgs and doing ok.

Mama, you looked like you were having fun at the lake. I'll bet it's nice to get away. Do you have alligators there. We may have talked about it, I forget.

SK, I was watching Dr. Phil today and there was a neighborhood feud on. Sounds similar to what your dealing with. Crazy people out there. Be careful. I hope you find your wallet. I will be joining you in the blankie fort tonight. BIL did not get the job again and sissy is beyond upset. Don't know what they're going to do. Of course that's got me thinking of drinking cause I got a knot in my stomach. I need to take a ride in my car and scream /cry.

[NoraC]

Oh Liz - :hug: blankie fort is up and ready. I am sure that your anxiety is thru the roof. Hang in there. I'm serious that just screaming helped me calm down. I'm not kidding. It didn't make everything all better but it let some of the tension out in a way that wasn't harmful (except my throat hurt )
Hang in there friend. We've got popcorn, ice-cream, cookies and also when we get sick of those, we've got the healthy fruit & veggies on this side. :hug:

[Lizann]

Thanks Nora, your always there when I need you.:love:

[NoraC]

Liz - I'm truly sorry for what your sister's family is going thru. That has to be such a dark cloud hanging over everything.
Please come here and talk about things - as you can see from me, I moan & complain all the time and it does help just to get it out.

[paulywogg]

I'm diving head first into the blankie fort tonight! I'm irritated with myself, sometimes being sober just isn't fun,this shit is hard work some days damn,after all I've been through I should be done and rationally I am but emotionally I miss it sometimes, I'm freaked out thinking about it all the time,maybe it's PAWS,maybe it's TOM maybe I'm just a Fuck up I don't know and I gave advice to a newbie that I shouldn't have,just keep my mouth shut when I'm not even qualified to say a damn thing, soo ready for this day to be over it shouldn't be like this

[Lizann]

:hug: come on in the blankie fort Pauly. You are being very hard on yourself. You are not a Fuck up, you're just having a bad day and we all do. I'm tired of thinking about drinking too and does it ever go away? Like Nora says let's just come here and vent.

[NoraC]

Ok - everyone get in this tent. I just found the most helpful information that I am about to share with you.........

Hurry up everyone - get in and get comfortable. Pull up a big pillow. Grab some junk or healthy food and check this out.

101 Ways to take care of yourself when the world feels overwhelming

I have only read about 6 hints so far and they are excellent. Pauly - there is an anxiety breathing thing in there that's really good. You should check it out.

1. Have a good long, body-shaking cry (maybe I should do that instead of tearing up over every little thing?)
2. Call a trusted friend or family member and talk it out (come to MWO & get in the fort & vent)
3. Call in sick. Take comp time if you can. Take a mental health day (yep, did that today)
4. Say no to extra obligations......(like going to a housewarming party)
5.............

And the list goes on & on. But, it's great. We need to learn to take care of ourselves.

Pauly - hang in there. Please check out these tips. And you did not give bad advise to anyone. :hug:

[NoraC]

Where is everyone?!?!? This site is amazing with the 101 tips. I realize that I have already been doing some of them. I am learning to take care of myself!!!!!

I am putting this in my personal toolbox right now. :heartbeat:

[paulywogg]

I did though Nora,it was medical and I just shouldn't have even gone there,it's just I had an experience similar to hers and spoke before I thought and I did cry hard earlier over a pig for crying out loud! Kell has a hook up for a little pig and I told hubs I wanted to get it he said no and I understand cuz I have no experience taking care of a pig and what if it's mean to Louie and Winslow hates it etc,I just feel overwhelmed and weird this week

[paulywogg]

Gosh that post looks dumb haha,off to bed early for this grumpass! Thank you Nora and Liz