October Army 2016

[satz123]

Good girl Questy - as Mers said we'll take care of you.
Remember what you are doing is a GOOD thing..... you will see that very soon - promise.
You never need to feel as shit as you feel today ever again ...
Reward yourself with food - just for next few days.

Mary was our latest recruit and just passed 1 year - she is in a similar situation family-wise - so she will help you over the difficult first days.
We are very proud of her ... she was like a sponge and listened to everything and acted on the advice .... :hug:

[satz123]

Evening all.

I wish they would check in. No matter what the situation just check in and say hi! Also Tony doesnt seem to be posting anymore. I see he is racking up the days but would be nice to see him

Come on guys we worry about ya!

Apart from worrying folks are investing their time and really want to help .....
Just disappearing is a pain is the arse to be honest .............

[Roadside]

Hi, Army. I have been missing for a little more than 24 hours, but all is generally well on my end. Just taking it day by day . . .

For the monthly Army threads, it was easy for me to jump in, figure things out and find out where I fit in because the thread was new and relatively short. It seemed easier for me to integrate myself.

I am far from an expert on all the technicalities (hyperlink, new thread, etc.) but just want to be able to ring visitors into staying. Maybe that could be a purpose of mine.

I like the Army, I like the 'War on AL' or 'Healing Souls one Sobriety at a Time' (<-maybe too cheesy / soft)

Good Day, Day Shift Soldiers.

Good Sleep, Night Shift Soldiers.

[Roadside]

:egad::egad::sad::sad:Thanks JC and Molls.....I knew yesterday it was gonna go wrong....I should have eaten. I do hate it, but feel hopeless. 10years of day ones. Pitiful, just pitiful

I felt hopeless on Day 15 (to include day 4, 6, 9, and maybe some in between) but Day 16, I felt okay. Not that this means anything, because I am not sure I believe in 'it gets better with time' just quite yet, but what other choice do we have? Our choices include continuing to destroy our brain and affect our ability to be who our loved ones need us to be or rebuild our brain and fight for our lives.

Mentioning eating, yes, that has been advised here and I have a hard time doing that myself because of another battle with distorted body image. But as my brain gets clearer, I can rationally think about my choices; eat and feel better about myself or don't eat, drink, then end up eating crap to try to prevent getting sick. So if this is a struggle for you also, rationally think about the benefits of treating your body properly, eat good, wholesome food because your body needs and deserves it. Don't drink because your body and mind deserve not to drink. Tell that devil on your shoulder to take a hike. Questeroo is in control, not that stupid self doubt.

[Roadside]

Oh and by the way, ice cream can be good and wholesome. I ate a whole pint today and it was exactly what my body needed.

[starty]

Ahh Questy and Roadie, great to see you. Questy it was brave of you to post and even though you had drank you still did it. That must tell you something? Something that helped me was to write a list of why I did not want to drink/drug (the list was LONG) and why I did want to do those things (the list was much shorter and rather stupid really) Early days are really just getting through and what Jax says is so true. We feel a bit better after a day or 2 and decide to test it. Is it possible that you can take a few days off work just to look after you?

Roadie good point about the monthly thread. If it makes it easier for folks to jump in then that is the way to go.

[questeroo]

Good morning Army .... Had a read through and thank-you all for your kind words of wisdom. It means a lot. I'm on a course for work today. So I'll check in when I can, but my aim, because it's wine Wednesday, is not to drink today. I will not drink today. Xxxx

[starty]

Good on you Questy. Maybe ODAT is better way of thinking for you? One day at a time?

[starty]

While I was out dogging this morning I was thinking of previous mornings with the battle to actually get myself out and the effort it took feeling shabby, headaches and dreading the day ahead. This was minimised by a handful of pills to an extent and a slug of vino but then the guilt would set in. What a totally miserable existence it was.....

[starty]

Morning Molls. Yes the guilt and the worry about the damage we are doing. I was constantly worried about 2 major organs kidneys and liver. My kidneys were definitely affected and not sure about my liver but even now when someone mentions kidney damage I flinch. Which is good really as it is a constant reminder

[JackieClaire]

Just a quickie, morning all. Off to work. Don't think I've done a Wednesday before.

[Roadside]

hi and bye jacks -- yes indeed Starty -- and despite a lorra lorra drinking I sort of thought I was indestructible so irregular liver function results shocked the shit outta me -- crikey.... anyway -- must go get ready for work -- laters xx

Mollyka, I recently had my first blood tests for liver and I too was like 'oh heck no, not me, no wayyyy' so let's brave through the withdrawals so we can get our minds somewhere solid on the stance against AL.

[satz123]

Good morning Army .... Had a read through and thank-you all for your kind words of wisdom. It means a lot. I'm on a course for work today. So I'll check in when I can, but my aim, because it's wine Wednesday, is not to drink today. I will not drink today. Xxxx

What the feck is 'wine Wednesday' Questy ?
Is Wednesday different to any other day ? Has Friday moved to Wednesday when I wasn't looking ?
No matter what we call today or what you do - we want you checking in this eve....... :thumbsup:

[satz123]

please

[lifechange]

Love you all here in the Army! Such a great source of support for each other and for so many just checking in but not posting.. like me!:happy2:
I'm grateful for this thread..
I can't remember her name, but I often wonder about her.. from South Africa.. the lovely lady who always began the day with a delicious cup of coffee..?

Great job coming right back, Questy..