October Army 2016

[questeroo]

Day one, brand new start. I sick of fighting with it ..... I'd love to get that many days....that's freedom to me :newhere::hug:

[starty]

Day one, brand new start. I sick of fighting with it ..... I'd love to get that many days....that's freedom to me :newhere::hug:

Good for you!! You will do this. Stay close, keep reading and posting. The mistake I made was not keeping sobriety in the forefront of my mind. You will soon be racking the days up. I post each day on the roll call and that really helps. How are you feeling ? :hug:

[questeroo]

I'm OK, feeling quite positive. But I'm dreading tomorrow. I know I'll cave, cos its Friday and that means drinking. Its this constant fight in my head that I'm fed up of :hug:

[starty]

Put a plan in place questy. You still have time. My plan was solitude, catch up TV, cake and my dogs and reading up on successful sober stories. The others will be around soon to give you much better advice Im sure :hug:

[satz123]

Hi Questydrawers :hug:
Welcome back - put on the big girl pants - and get going !
You need a plan to get through tomorrow ....... it is afterall just another day.
Stick here and we'll help you through it.

[satz123]

Put a plan in place questy. You still have time. My plan was solitude, catch up TV, cake and my dogs and reading up on successful sober stories. The others will be around soon to give you much better advice Im sure :hug:

Best advice Starts !!!!

[starty]

Hows your studies going Satzy?

[questeroo]

Satzy !!! Thanks so much to you and starty xxx you're both right, I need a plan....and to check in lots xx how are you Satzy ?? Xx

[IamMary]

Welcome back Questo!
Im here since July, but still feel new. Completely get where your head is at.. Ive a date with my sofa tomorrow night, so stock up on some goodies and come back and chat.

How are you managing you kids, Mers. Although I worked part-time it was a nightmare when they started going to different schools. Had to drop Jenny off at her middle school and then drive at about 8 squillion miles an hour to get to the S&H's school about 4 miles away.

In fact there was one day after I'd thrown Jenny over the road to her school dashed back to the car......and got in the back seat and sat there...............little voice to the right says.............Aren't you supposed to be in the front driving :egad:

.. A learning curve week. Few adjustments to be made but mostly all fine. As MrS explained to me on the phone this morning, nuclear war will not break out if No.3 is wearing the wrong white t shirt. (He does the mornings).
Next year the eldest changes schools, so the fun will start then.

[Roadside]

So I am once again barely in the double digits and a night like tonight reminds me why I drink; kids were literally punching each other in the back seat and I pulled over into a parking lot, pulled one out of the car and put him in the front seat while I had an onlooker continually ask me "hey, are you ok? is everything ok?" Sure. call my tag into the police. I assume you haven't had kids and I am doubly sure you don't have to take care of two kids solely by yourself. But go ahead and call that tag in, if it makes you feel like you are doing your citizen duty. Continuing on in the car I have the front passenger giving me lip non stop and so I slapped him. I thought that would stop the lip. It didn't. It just got worse, filled with silly threats. So this is a night that reminds myself why I drink.

But I didn't drink, at least not this time and I don't plan on drinking but what I do want is to stop feeling like this. Feeling like I give and give and give to other people (egocentric of me, probably. I am not a heavenly saint) but at least I don't take from others and I am so tired of feeling shitty and being treated shitty by others and have that exacerbated by disrespectful kids. Life sucks for me right now. I have dubbed the summer of 2016 as the worst summer of my life. But summer is over. So why isn't it getting any better?

Thanks for letting me divulge on October Army. Because ultimately, I want to soldier my way through this month. This is my short term goal.

[starty]

So I am once again barely in the double digits and a night like tonight reminds me why I drink; kids were literally punching each other in the back seat and I pulled over into a parking lot, pulled one out of the car and put him in the front seat while I had an onlooker continually ask me "hey, are you ok? is everything ok?" Sure. call my tag into the police. I assume you haven't had kids and I am doubly sure you don't have to take care of two kids solely by yourself. But go ahead and call that tag in, if it makes you feel like you are doing your citizen duty. Continuing on in the car I have the front passenger giving me lip non stop and so I slapped him. I thought that would stop the lip. It didn't. It just got worse, filled with silly threats. So this is a night that reminds myself why I drink.

But I didn't drink, at least not this time and I don't plan on drinking but what I do want is to stop feeling like this. Feeling like I give and give and give to other people (egocentric of me, probably. I am not a heavenly saint) but at least I don't take from others and I am so tired of feeling shitty and being treated shitty by others and have that exacerbated by disrespectful kids. Life sucks for me right now. I have dubbed the summer of 2016 as the worst summer of my life. But summer is over. So why isn't it getting any better?

Thanks for letting me divulge on October Army. Because ultimately, I want to soldier my way through this month. This is my short term goal.

Hi Roady, yes that does seem really awful to deal with especially if it is not a one off. It must wear you down. It must be even worse with a hangover though. How long have you got ? The first few weeks are so challenging and can feel as if everyone is against us sometimes. Can you give yourself a break tonight? Perhaps the kids can go to friends so you could have some time to yourself?

I know for me that no matter how awful things were or how bad I felt, drinking never helped those situations but just added another dimension of awfulness but it did take a few weeks of sobriety to make me realise that.

Come and vent, chat or just share whenever you like, it really does help

[Mick]

yo peeps ..just thought Id jump in and wake yizall up...obviously not ..there are a few here who either dont need a lot of sleep or pee the bed!!how is the army this morning?Friday it is....Starty well done you ..those numbers are getting higher n higher..how goes it with attychewed?are you still at nope cant have a drink musnt ,or have you moved on to dont want one cant be bothered?
Mornin angel of the norf....hows you today?loikewise satz...(I spelt that wrong but it looks kind of Irishy )hows school doing?you keep away from them bike sheds at play time!!
hiya Iam all good?
big shout to everyone..dentist pour moi this aft..15.30..what kind of time is that on a Friday??
have a great day

[starty]

yo peeps ..just thought Id jump in and wake yizall up...obviously not ..there are a few here who either dont need a lot of sleep or pee the bed!!how is the army this morning?Friday it is....Starty well done you ..those numbers are getting higher n higher..how goes it with attychewed?are you still at nope cant have a drink musnt ,or have you moved on to dont want one cant be bothered?
Mornin angel of the norf....hows you today?loikewise satz...(I spelt that wrong but it looks kind of Irishy )hows school doing?you keep away from them bike sheds at play time!!
hiya Iam all good?
big shout to everyone..dentist pour moi this aft..15.30..what kind of time is that on a Friday??
have a great day

Hiya Mickerooney! I need loads of sleep but I am an early morning waker. (that is WAKER :egad: Do you know I have never craved or wanted a drink since 3/9. Really dont get it cos over the past 2 years I have craved, fought, white knuckled and felt every other emotion going. No pink cloud this time either, just kinda solid.

Good luck at the dentist, I do hope it is not too painful

[JackieClaire]

Morning,
Got a few minutes before going to work. First will you all keep your fingers crossed for the temp we have gets taken on full time.............she's a whirl wind, funny, kind and soooooooooo efficient you could positively dislike her but you can't.

Big :welcome: to Roadie.........we'll talk more later I hope. Even if its just a chat about your day anything that keeps your hand off a drink. Divulge away

And a welcome back to Questeroo.

Starty, you do sound different, perhaps its all the dogging and waking early you do.

Mick, its always lovely to see you.

Mers, you've got the right attitude.

Satzuma, :hug:

If I've missed anyone I'm sorry.

[Mick]

so glad you can spell...was wondering what that wubble you word was gonna say!!good for you re the feelings and drinkypoos...yep your on the trail this time girl!

Jacs saw your post fingers crossed re the temp...thought wots she going on aboot ..its raining here!!and then I read on...enjoy arbeit