One Step at a Time - October 2016

[SKendall]

Liz, I love Whole Foods too, as well as Trader Joe's and there will be one of each close to me.

I have to get on with my to-do list.

I miss Mama too, but respect her decision to be private at this difficult time for her.

AIFL, my bank opened up a new account for me (without my knowledge) and suddenly none of my debit cards worked. They had some dumb promotion on and I raised holy heck. They then issued a new debit card - to my husband's account and I received a choice text from him! I will be transferring my money to my Investment Account, who acts like a bank. I hate big banks.

Love to Nora and everyone else.

[aihfl]

I ended up doing my shopping at Costco. I don't like buying perishable food items in bulk, but I did need stuff like coffee beans and breakfast cereal, which I tend to go through a lot of. I did avoid buying meat and produce, except for blueberries, with the intention of baking a cobbler soon. As a bachelor, I just don't go to a lot of trouble to cook for myself, even though I enjoy cooking for others.

I dislike the big banks too. I had accounts at both Regions and Bank of America. BOA still has some of my IRAs. I thought I would avoid these kinds of issues when I started banking at the teachers' credit union, but I've had major problems with them too over the years.

[Nursie]

Hi all,
Nursie checking in here! I haven't been on in forever. I miss all of you guys.
I'm climbing through a web of depression and profound sadness. Partly because I can't seem to feel back to normal since Cancer, and still needing so many doctor's appointments, etc. partly because I don't have the energy I need, and I'm not where I thought I would be at the age I am.
I kept doing some "research" on whether I could drink normally (hysterical, I know) and of course I came crashing to the conclusion that I am utterly powerless.
I also came to the conclusion that for me, there is NO BOTTOM. I can hit multiple bottoms and keep digging.
Under there is hot lava just waiting to devour me. LAVA guys.
I don't want to see any more lava.
I am powerless and I need to stay focused on my program.
Going to AA and doing step work.
Sending all my love and of course, sprinkling sober dust for all!

[Rusty]

Nurse! SO, so good to see you!!!! Big hugs to you! So sorry you are battling depression, hon. Are you still undergoing cancer treatment? October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month and I Will be thinking of you and our dear Mama Bear, who battled breast cancer years ago.

Is AA working for you? Please know how we can help you. We have missed you!!'

[paulywogg]

Hey Nursie,great to see you please sprinkle that sober dust over my way

[Rusty]

Nursie my lovely, you will also get phenomenal support on The Army Thread. All the Army thread generals are sleeping right now but copy and paste your post so they will see it while you are having sober dreams tonight. We all care about you here.

How well I know about the Bottomless Bottom! Ugh! Been there, done that, too many times to count.

[Lizann]

Nursie, so sorry to hear that you are so depressed. I'm sure I would be too, having gone through what you have been through! I'm with Rusty, let us know if there is anything we can do to help :hug:

[NoraC]

Nursie - wonderful to see you. I hope you'll stop by often. I am sorry about the depression. Certainly understandable with everything you have been and are going thru. :hug:

[NoraC]

Pauly - hang in there. You know how long it has taken me to get to this point. You are doing much better than I ever did until this last Day 1 for me. So, don't lose heart - you are going to get this.

Liz - thanks for asking about me........my anxiety has been bad but I'm fine. So, are they waiting to pick the venue before the pick a wedding date or do they already have a date?

Glassie - how are things going?

Rusty - how are you doing? You have seemed quiet too.

aihfl - I'm glad you got the debit card issue taken care of. Sounds like you had a good day.

Well, the kids got home from Puerto Vallarta last night. I still haven't seen their pics. They are over at her Dads doing all their laundry. :rotlf: His machines are bigger so they can do more clothes.

[NoraC]

I've been thinking. For some reason, alcohol has been in my head more lately. Don't know how to explain it. Not like a craving. Not like I think I'm going to drink but just the thought hovering around in my brain.
From the first time I ever drank, I drank to get buzzed. It was never a glass of wine with dinner unless we were out with other people. No wonder I developed a problem with alcohol.
Don't know why I thought of it or what it means. But, just a random thought that I had the other day.

[Pavati]

Hi, Nursie! Glad you're checking in. Sorry about your depression, and happy you're sober. xo

Hi, Steppers. Just poking in!

Pav

[actiongirl46]

Hi All! I have been absent. No reason, really. Just busy busy life, which I know you have too. I have MISSED ALL OF YOU so much and it was so nice to read back tonight.

Well, not much has changed with me. I'm still taking the Naltrexone faithfully, every day at 3:30pm. Benefits that I see are still mixed.

Just checking in, I'll try to be here on a more consistent basis. You guys are the BEST!! AG

[NoraC]

Been missing you, AG:heartbeat:

[paulywogg]

Great to see you AG,maybe we don't talk about this alcohol stuff enough? That's what we're here for right? I'm so sad right now I have everything I ever wanted, yet still I'm still searching for something..

[Nursie]

morning!
Boy I have missed this lot!
To answer, I am finished with treatments, but need several more surgeries. My body is completely different and I have foreign bodies on my chest that do not look or feel real to me. I have ongoing side effects from surgeries, chemo and radiation. Boo!!!
Anyway, it all takes time. Not feeling sorry for myself, just explaining where I'm at.
Yes our Dear Mama helped me tremendously and still does. She's a special gal.

I did not drink yesterday and I will not drink today!