Thanks everyone!
I'm feeling very positive, and when I told my daughter her reaction was overwhelming...
She said " Wow mum, I'm so proud of you! Not many kids have a parent brave enough to step up and admit they have a problem and actually do something about it, and it's the best gift you could have ever given me..."
Yes, I screwed up a good proportion of her childhood with my drinking, I had thought I had saved her from the physical, verbal and sexual abuse I had suffered as a kid by being a single mum, but by drinking to numb my emotions, I know now I hurt her just as badly, as I wasn't always there for her, and worried her so much.
I'm so proud of her... She has started her diploma in phsycology, still trying to help me... and as she said in regards to my parents (who are still together???) who still deny that our family was majorly disfunctional, "they'll never admit what they've done to you mum, but having you admit what happened and doing something to get help is all I could ever ask for"
I'm feeling good about that, and determined to get myself better, for me and my daughter, and she is pregnant, so for my grandbaby too...
Thanks again! Love Jas
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