One Step at a Time - January 2017

[Glass Half Empty]

Nora - I'm so sorry the depression is getting to you right now. A saying that often helps me is "when you're going through hell just keep going". Sometimes that's all you can do until things get better. Just put your head down and know that things will be a lot better in a short time - maybe even a day or two.

And also know that you are a beautiful person and we all love you. :heartbeat:

[NoraC]

Glassie - thanks for that. That is what I am trying to do and it helped to 'hear' you say it too. Things will be better SOON.
The truth is that things aren't even bad (I just need to get that thru my thick head.)

[Wildflowers]

Nora,

Nothing wrong with spending time alone in jammies, in bed watching Net flex. Especially, since you've been sick. Being patient with yourself, taking care of your needs. Which is something many of us have a hard time with. You've had many challenges, exhausting ones. They often zap physical & mental energy!... Leading to extra fatigue & depression. Depression isn't always easy to manage 100% of the time. Feelings of hopelessness, helplessness. Sorry, your having to deal with so much!... Maybe later you'll find one thing that makes you smile. :hug:

As far as your brother, men are from mars, woman are from venus. Sometimes, different communications styles. Glad you stood by your boundaries. He still loves you, just like you love him. You will get through this. People admire your courage in face of your life's challenges.

Avoiding social media, saying serenity prayer over many life challenges, struggles, may help. Hopefully, tom will be a better day.

I was going to post last night. Depressed too. Have struggled most my life. Traditional SSRI's don't help. I don't like being vulnerable, have walls built up. Know of risks & rewards. Sometimes, not sure where I need to place my boundaries. I understand in part, it's my need to control. Feels safer this way.

I was feeling more positive Liz & it will return. Thank you. Sometimes just offering, asking if someone needs help, is help in it self. Have a hard time sharing. Maybe I'm an introvert. Tho, I've been told I'm both.

Our youngest daughter's co-worker committed suicide, he was 25 & day before a girl she went to HS, suicide. She's heartbroken!, bawling. I can't hug her as she lives in another state. I struggled with comforting words. She knows were praying. I just feel gutted today. She went to church yesterday & was going hiking today.

Need to shower, make dinner. I don't know what else to say, except I wished I wouldn't have watched latest episode of Vikings as it made me feel sick.

Football isn't cutting it today. If your a fan, hope your team wins. Hope everyone is doing well!...

[NoraC]

Well - I did promise to be windy.

It is so worth it to be alcohol free. Like I said, I've been sick & depressed. But, grabbing a bottle just isn't the answer anymore. And, that makes me happy. Sometimes life is hard. Ok - not hard but not all rainbows. :flowerspop: And that is ok.

[NoraC]

WF - thanks. Sorry you are feeling depressed. Such a hard feeling and no words to describe it.
I am sorry to hear about your daughter's friend. That is just heartbreaking.
Please take your advise to me and give it right back to you. Be patient with yourself. :hug:

Regarding my brother, yep - it will be ok. Just not today. When I was so upset yesterday, I called my niece (his daughter) in tears. She was great. She knows how he is and understood how it just spiraled out of control. So, I will give it a few days. If I don't hear from him, I'll try again then. Baby steps.

[Wildflowers]

Thank you... Yes, baby steps.

Grateful, I have no desire to drink. I was sober for 19 months. Then again for three. Know what I need to do.

[NoraC]

Ok - this is embarrassing but I'm going to tell you.
It is POURING rain - didn't want to cook at all. I ordered food thru Ubereats and had it delivered. :rotlf: :haha:

[Wildflowers]

Lol. Think your kidding? I didn't want to cook. Didn't want to throw out soba noodles. Have thrown out food, suppose like most folks. Tho, don't like too, feel bad. So stir fry it is. Think I won't shower, still in jammies. I don't care.

Hubs yelling at football.

United airlines domestic flights ~ grounded due to IT problems. A truck in IN, lost control of its trailor, spilled 32,000 lbs (16-tons) of marbles. No body was hurt. Since nobody was hurt, trooper announced truck driver loses his marbles. I can re-late :egad: Can't imagine the clean up.

PS. Glad you guys are getting rain. Environmentally, needed.

[NoraC]

I'm still in my jammies too! :rotlf:

[Glass Half Empty]

Ok - this is embarrassing but I'm going to tell you.
It is POURING rain - didn't want to cook at all. I ordered food thru Ubereats and had it delivered. :rotlf: :haha:

Why is that embarrassing? Sounds totally sensible to me! And you're helping the micro economy, so it's basically philanthropy.

[Glass Half Empty]

So my kidlings aren't quite ready to have the grandbaby babysat yet, but last night was the closest they've come. We went out for dinner and they sat at the other side of the table and I looked after the little one while they ate. Apparently this was date night!

Baby steps - literally. LOL

[NoraC]

Poor Glassie. Still can't get the baby alone.osteroops:

[Lizann]

Hello guys! Glad to see so many posts!
Nora, I am sorry you are depressed and I so understand wanting to fix things. Yes, baby steps. It sounds like you're feeling better physically and ordering über eats is a splendid idea. You need to take care of yourself and find things that make up happy!

Wildflower. Yo are sounding good, too! Stir fry sounds delicious! My daughter CJ wanted steak today and I haven't cooked on a Sunday in a long time, so I made it. Steak corn and frenchfries. Think I will be cooking on Sundays a lot more from now on. Don't know how I go away from it.

Glassy, I'm glad you got some hands on with the grandbaby! When they see how wonderful you are with her, I'm sure you'll be on speed dial for babysitting. New parents, you know how overprotective they are:eek-new:

I did enjoy the football games today, wildflower! Go Patriots! On to the Super Bowl!

Hello rusty, Pauly, techie Skendall. Wishing everyone a peaceful AF night!

[Lizann]

Wildflower as sad as it is about the tractor trailer and the marbles, I did get a good laugh out of that one.

Red, hello to you too:heartbeat:

[actiongirl46]

Hi. Here. NOT doing well, so sorry friends. I think i need to go to rehab. Any suggestions? I am feeling so alone.