One Step at a Time - January 2017

[actiongirl46]

I am crying reading all of this. Thank you.

All AL is out of the house. I don't know what he did with it and I don't care. He will not drink in front of me. Despite that !@#$ episode over saving a few pennies, now that I've said get it out he will not bring it in.

I need to do this. I almost killed myself with red wine in my own house. I woke up at 2am passed out leaning on my island. Even though I was conscious, it still took me awhile to move as my system was probably shutting down. What if I would have fallen? I definitely would have hit my head, not a lot of room in there. What if the boys had seen me (they didn't . . .thank God)?

Nora, I will post on the check-in thread. Also am giving myself permission to take it easy, you are right, that does not come naturally to me. Neo, check on good food and AL out. Calling doctor today. Emailed therapist as well. A friend recommended "Under the Influence" and I am reading that, good information in the first two chapters about the physiology of alcoholism. I am very sick and need to get better. !@#$

I am forcing myself to go to yoga... will check back in later.

[NoraC]

AG - so glad to hear from you.
Congratulations on Day 2. You are DOING it. :goodjob:

[NoraC]

Looking forward to hearing how yoga was today

[paulywogg]

AG,I know you can do this hon((hugs)) just keep checking in often,stay focused we're here for you Nora,great post to AG yesterday, loved it! Techie,you take care,waves to all

[Lizann]

Hey guys, how was everyone's day? Rainy and windy here today. Right now it's sleeting outside. Nice to be inside tucked under my fleece throw. Not much to report here.

AG, hope you're doing ok tonight. Good you got all the al out of the house. Baby steps. I'm glad the kids didn't see you, that for me was always the worst part of the drinking. You can do this! Just stay close here and read a lot!:hug:

Nora, I hope you guys are all feeling better over there today! Are you back to work yet?

Wishing you all a peaceful AF night!

[NoraC]

Hi all

AG - how was yoga?

Liz - I went back to work yesterday. I'm finally beginning to feel like I might be getting over this.
Sounds like you have our weather now. We really had a rainstorm yesterday. Even had hail for a bit.

Well - I just got home and I've got to take care of some things. But, I had to log on first to tell NoSugar congratulations.

Be back in a bit.......

[NoraC]

AG - I forgot to mention something else that I do that is important to me.
I have an ongoing word document on my computer that is my journal. I put anything & everything in there.
If I read a post here that hits home, I copy it and paste in my journal. When I read a blog and it has something that touches me somehow, it's pasted in my journal.
It helps to have it written down. Because some days are harder than others. And having motivation/encouragement right there helps so much.

I wish that I had written down more of my own thoughts & feelings. I think I have changed and hopefully for the better. But, it would have been nice to read back and see the change in my attitude.

Sending you good thoughts :hug:

PS - Don't forget to log on as often as you can. It will help you feel more connected

[actiongirl46]

Nora, that is a great idea, thank you so much. There are many things that I'd like to easily read later on.

Yoga was good, once I got into it. And you always feel good afterwards. My son had a game and then I had music rehearsal. Kept busy.

If the wine was here tonight, I would have had some when I got home. So glad its out. My spirit is better today but I'm having waves of (small) anxiety and just melancholy. I think I can plan on more of that as I physically feel better being away from alcohol.

One Day At A Time. Day 2 is done.

[actiongirl46]

Oh, one more thing, a BIG shout out to Liz today for spending some extra time listening and helping me problem solve today. I can't thank you enough, you were my bright spot in a tough day.

[NoraC]

I stopped feeling guilty and started concentrating on getting better.
I have a very vivid (drunk) vision that I keep in my brain. Not in a part of my brain that I use very often. But, when I start to think about that glass of champagne........I reach into that little part of my brain & I roll that tape - my husband banging his head against the door when he found my 'water' bottle (straight tequila by that time). And then it doesn't sound nice at all.
Rarely happens now.
But, at the beginning, I had to remember that every couple of days and sometimes I had to think about other horrible events. Not to make myself feel guilty but just to remind myself of the reality.

[NoraC]

Liz is wonderful :heartbeat: Always there for us. :hug:

[paulywogg]

Morning all,yes we love Liz ugh woke up at 3 am and I'm not sure I fell back asleep? All I know is I rolled out ta bed at 4 and headed straight to the coffee maker,I feel OK though not too zombieish,AG,way to go on getting through day 2 waves to everyone and I hope we all have a great AF Wednesday

[NoraC]

Pauly - sounds like me this morning. I'm scared to look into the mirror :egad:

[Lizann]

He guys! AG, you are sounding in much better spirits today and I am relieved. You were the bright spot in my day yesterday too! Sometimes it's just nice to know we're not alone:hug: I am here for you anytime.

Nora, I am so glad you are on the mend, finally! As far as me always being here for you guys, I am really just paying it forward. You're always here for me and have helped me through many a pickle:heartbeat:

Pauly, the puppy Louie was holding in that picture the other day was just soo cute! Up since 4 am, not good. Hope tonight is a better night for you. I love my coffee in the morning too!

Techie, his are your treatments going? You feeling OK?

Hope everyone else is doing ok. Bit of a tougher day at work today emotionally, makes me grateful for all I do have. Wishing you all a peaceful AF night.

[techie]

He guys! AG, you are sounding in much better spirits today and I am relieved. You were the bright spot in my day yesterday too! Sometimes it's just nice to know we're not alone:hug: I am here for you anytime.

Nora, I am so glad you are on the mend, finally! As far as me always being here for you guys, I am really just paying it forward. You're always here for me and have helped me through many a pickle:heartbeat:

Pauly, the puppy Louie was holding in that picture the other day was just soo cute! Up since 4 am, not good. Hope tonight is a better night for you. I love my coffee in the morning too!

Techie, his are your treatments going? You feeling OK?

Hope everyone else is doing ok. Bit of a tougher day at work today emotionally, makes me grateful for all I do have. Wishing you all a peaceful AF night.

My treatments are going well. Thanks so much for thinking of me. The Steppers are the best. Thanks again, Liz!