Brand new here. Hello everyone

[Wildflowers]

Welcome Carrie, :welcome:

If you want to be sober-clean more then drinking/drugging you can-will do it!... Being sick isn't fun nor positive. Ethanol is poison. It's great that you recognise this. It's half the battle.

Drink lots of water, preferably with fresh squeezed lemon (natural liver) detox. Milk thistle with dandelion root is also a liver detox. Be gentle-kind with yourself. :hug: Your absolutely worth living a happier, healthy life!... Free without ethanol's negative effects.

[Lost Soul]

Hi Carrie, Welcome to MWOF :welcome:
Knowing you are drinking more than you would like & are struggling to cut down is really difficult to acknowledge & it is very brave of you to reach out & ask for help :hug:
I have found it a great help, knowing I am not struggling alone & it makes the journey ahead easier x
Wishing you all the best
Take care
LS

[Orimus]

Welcome Carrie, great to see you making the first step towards a better life. Draw that picture in your mind of the better days ahead and keep putting one foot in front of the other. We're all here for you, all rooting for you.

[CarrieJ]

Thanks everyone. Starting over today - failed miserably this weekend ��

[Wildflowers]

Thanks everyone. Starting over today - failed miserably this weekend ��

Your no failure Carrie!... :hug: Many of us have had numerous starts & stops. Glad you have the desire to start again. You can do this!...

[CarrieJ]

Thank you !,,,, it is a brand new day and. So far going well. But still green from last night. Taking it one day at a time. The way I feel right now I never want to touch another drop. I have to keep reminding myself about how I feel right now the next time I get those urges

[CarrieJ]

AND I have to also tell myself that I CANT just have a couple and stop. Cause I don't stop until the 12 pack is drank and I can barely walk

[Lost Soul]

Hi Carrie,
Sorry that you drank last night. Your right - it's a new day & try not to be too hard on yourself for last night. Be kind to yourself & good luck. You sound like many of us & that is that once you have a drink its hard to stop & you just keep going. The first week is really hard but it does get easier x
Take care
LS

[Wildflowers]

Thank you !,,,, it is a brand new day and. So far going well. But still green from last night. Taking it one day at a time. The way I feel right now I never want to touch another drop. I have to keep reminding myself about how I feel right now the next time I get those urges

Remember my skin looking sallow-grayish-green. Took selfie to remind self. ODAT works for many of us. Playing the tape to the end. Yep, have it in my recovery tool box too. Yep, it's a brand new day. :thumbsup:

AND I have to also tell myself that I CANT just have a couple and stop. Cause I don't stop until the 12 pack is drank and I can barely walk

Me too. Last time I purposely left two beers in fridge for a few days. Usually there'd be one. Which I'd tell myself I need to go buy more. For some odd reason leaving two in there, seem to change my perspective. Every time I opened fridge, I'd say two isn't enough, well three wouldn't be either. Some how it cemented in my thick head. Then I remembered this: "Who said one is too many and one thousand is never enough" Bingo!... You got this Carrie. :hug:

[CarrieJ]

Thank you lost soul - I think maybe it will be easier starting on Monday rather than quitting on a Friday (at least that is what I am trying to believe)

[CarrieJ]

Thank u wildfire. A pic is a great idea. Cause today I do look horrible. Skin feels so rough and I feel so bloated and bloodshot eyes and a nice bruise on my nose from last night when I slipped and fell going up the steps in my drunken stuper. I feel so gross. So ashamed and do dirty. Even though I had a nice long shower this morning when I woke up on the couch still in yesterday clothes and makeup yyyeeech.
I like the two beer idea. If I don't have my supply (and lately it's been 12 pack a day) then I immediately panick and have to make sure I have a full 12 and an entire pack of smokes before the binging began . I don't have any in the fridge now cause I drank them all but when the after work cravings start tomorrow I will have to fight back. I'm still too sick today so no drinking today. Now tomorrow I will crave again that's the worst!!

[Wildflowers]

Thank u wildfire. A pic is a great idea. Cause today I do look horrible. Skin feels so rough and I feel so bloated and bloodshot eyes and a nice bruise on my nose from last night when I slipped and fell going up the steps in my drunken stuper. I feel so gross. So ashamed and do dirty. Even though I had a nice long shower this morning when I woke up on the couch still in yesterday clothes and makeup yyyeeech.
I like the two beer idea. If I don't have my supply (and lately it's been 12 pack a day) then I immediately panick and have to make sure I have a full 12 and an entire pack of smokes before the binging began . I don't have any in the fridge now cause I drank them all but when the after work cravings start tomorrow I will have to fight back. I'm still too sick today so no drinking today. Now tomorrow I will crave again that's the worst!!

Most of us are familiar with those awful feelings of shame, guilt and remorse. Then even more anxiety and panic after a bender, then obsessing, planning on how and when to buy more. Many of us have fallen, ended up with bruises and even broken bones. The good news is you can get well and feel better. Not great all the time, but that's life. Tho, surely better then being drunk!...

In just a few days, the bloating will subside and your outlook will be more positive. Today just pamper yourself. Maybe a nice soft warm wash cloth over your eyes-face. If you can drink water. You may be dehydrated. Tomorrow, can you drive a different way home from work? Maybe buy some chocolate, it can help with cravings. I've also worn a pony tail holder around my wrist and snapped it (not too hard), sorta shocks me back to reality that I'm unable to control my drinking after I ingest it. Please come here and post before you drink. We will encourage you, help you. You can do this Carrie!... Your so worth it!... :hug: Even if you do choose to drink, your welcomed and wanted here!...

[CarrieJ]

Thank you SO much. It's so nice to talk to someone that can totally relate. It's getting easier to open up and feeling better today - it's day2 yay!!!!

[Wildflowers]

Thank you SO much. It's so nice to talk to someone that can totally relate. It's getting easier to open up and feeling better today - it's day2 yay!!!!

MWO says your :welcome: Yes it is. This addiction problem can be quite lonely at times. Glad we don't have to do this alone!... I have a hard time opening up and feeling vulnerable. It get's easier when you see others do it. So glad your feeling better Carrie!... :hug: Congrats on day two!.. Hope your day is going well. Keep checking in. :smile:

[Lost Soul]

Congratulations Carrie on your day 2 :happy2: Its great to hear that sharing what your going through is helping x I know posting on busy threads can seem daunting so like Wildflowers said keep checking in here! As you build AF days you will feel stronger & more confident and in the meantime if you feel wobbly checking in is really helpful & we'll be here cheering you on!
Take care
LS