One Step at a Time - March 2017

[paulywogg]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2017

Oh Rusty,it was sooo good I had a bit of eggs,a ham and they serve a 1/2 waffle with pralines that's the perfect size for me,then grocery shopping (bleh) then we took Kells car she bought last night over to get it detailed inside cuz the guy she bought it from smoked in it but they wanted $140 so I told hubs to get to scrubbin gonna take Lou to the dinosaur thing later hopefully if its not too crazily busy, was gonna take him last night but with Kells crazy car shopping it got to be too late,Liz,are you feeling better? AG,check in please,waves to all

[Rusty]

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Pauly, you little stinker...you are a horrible influence on me! Haha! After my work out this morning, I decided to go out to breakfast too because I was famished. Your breakfast sounds heavenly...I went with an egg white omelet, hash browns, English muffin and bacon. YUM! I convinced myself I needed fuel to drive to MN. Haha. Hate driving on an empty stomach. ;-)

Have fun at the dinosaur event.

Waves to AG, Liz, Nora, Cowboy, Glassie, Skendall, Red67, dill and everyone else.

[NoraC]

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AG - :hug: Hang in there. I'm glad that you got right back here. Onward! You do what you need to do - if the roll call helps then you hop right back on there. If that isn't a good tool, don't use it. Don't forget to journal this - important to remember this. Also important to replay your worst memory. You are amazing and I'm happy to be with you on this journey.

Rusty - have a safe drive and a good week. Glad you got your breakfast.

Pauly - sounds like you had a good breakfast! I had never seen my 600 lb life until last week.

SK - hope that the antibiotics will help your dizziness. Can you have your daughter text one of us and let us know how the surgeries go? I'm sure you won't feel like it. :heartbeat:

Liz - how are you doing? I've been thinking of you. I did enjoy our little park escape. Hubby & I were going to the grocery store

WF - how many fur babies do you have? I have 2 dogs and 3 cats. We've decided no new animals for awhile. Ha ha

Ne - how are you doing? Are you still taking the bac or did you stop that?

Techie - are you home now for awhile?

Glassie - how did your big event go?!?!

Socali, Cowboy, Red, NS and everyone that I'm missing. Big hellos!!!

[NoraC]

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Mom has had a couple of harder days....confusion. I am so glad that I am home and not up in Oregon. Last night she got up during the night and I must not have set the monitor. She got all the way out in the living room and thank goodness hubby woke up. She wanted to know where everyone was. She kept asking if everyone had gone home. Just very confused and kept saying that something must be wrong with her mind. :sad:
This morning, she is still on that verge of being alert enough to know something is wrong. She just went back to bed to take a nap which she very rarely does. She is so much weaker. I came across a picture of the 2 of us on Facebook that was taken 4 years ago. It was just a little bit after my Dad had died. Such a difference.

So, I have been reading this series by Denise Grover Swank. Totally hooked. I'm on the 4th and last book so guess what I'll be doing today. Not one of my typical reads - this is supernatural. I hope that everyone is having a fantastic day. Back to my book................

[NoraC]

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Don't remember if I mentioned this so if it's a repeat, sorry.

I went out to eat a couple of times with the kids (DS & DIL) while we were in Oregon. She rarely drinks which is wonderful for my son. They might have a beer or glass of wine but that's it. Not often. The first time we went out my son was ordering a beer and my DIL said Mom needs a drink. Let's get Mom a drink. I laughed and said no thanks. She said something and Casey immediately said - no, she doesn't drink. She knew I didn't drink but she didn't realize what an issue it was for me. I'm glad that he saw the new me and realized that I don't drink. I explained to her that it would never be one drink with me. That I would always want more. She said - ok then no drinks for you. :rotlf: And, it was fine. It was absolutely fine. I didn't have a problem explaining it to her and then we moved on to a new topic. It was normal. It was nice for it to be no big deal after consuming my life for so long.

[actiongirl46]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2017

Hi all! Uneventful Sunday here, a good thing. I had to take a nap after all that springing forward.

Thanks for your kind words. I really appreciate it. Maybe I should be harder on myself but at the moment I'm feeling like it would set me back. You are right, Liz, this is going in the journal, thanks for the reminder.

The parents are off to Florida for a month and a half, so plenty of time to process before they get back.

Well, we had a week off from high school sports but now its on to baseball tryouts tomorrow. He should find out by Wednesday if he makes the team. If he doesn't, he will focus on tennis. Never a dull moment around here!!

SK, sending healing vibes your way. I hope the surgeries go smoothly and that you can get some relief.

Have a wonderful un-hungover Monday everyone! I will too.

[NoraC]

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Happy Monday.

[Rusty]

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Happy Monday, Gang!

Nora-I loved seeing your post about your son telling your DIL that you don't drink and no one made an issue out of it. Hooray! I am ashamed to say that I was a drink-pusher in the day...I was convinced that other people could have a couple of drinks and stop...it was all about self-control. UGH! NOT! I said this obviously before my drinking got out of control. MWO has taught me a lot. Sorry to hear your Mom was so confused the other day...glad hubs was there to help. Sending big hugs of support your way.

AG-you sound so strong and determined. Good for you!

[paulywogg]

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Crabby- will post when I'm human-ish,much love and happy AF Monday

[NoraC]

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:rant::rant:Sorry Pauly. Boy, do I get it. This is when I warn hubby to back away.

[Wildflowers]

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Nora, What I took away, is that your DIL never saw or knew the depth of your alcohol problem. If so, that's a good thing. Glad through all these life struggles, changes your remaining AF. It's OK to feel life, to live without escaping, numbing, or rewarding.

SK, :hug:

Waves to everyone. :heartbeat:

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Pauly, you make me smile. Sorry you're crabby, but you're funny because of it.
Rusty, I don't do egg whites. I eat whole eggs almost everyday... When I work out I eat a ton. Unfortunately, I gained a bunch of weight on an antidepressant a couple of years ago. 25lbs on top of the 15 or 20 I put on when I stopped lifting weights! I've lost 20lbs since then, without trying. But I haven't been able to get into the swing of anything and start sweating again. I can't diet, at all, ever. When I deny myself something, I crave it obsessively. Plus, husband's a chef, so very unlikely to accept rabbit food as a way of life. I have to work off the weight instead.

AG, I think one of the most destructive things about recovery is when people blast themselves, or others do it for them, when they slip. I love your attitude, and think it's the only way to really 'get it' when it comes to long term recovery and contentedness. Does that make sense? I mean, we beat ourselves up relentlessly, with shame and guilt and resentment and self-pity. None of that stuff does anything but drive me back into a bottle. I struggle with it daily right now. It kinda sucks. So anyway, good for you!
Liz, thanks. All well here. Hope you're feeling better.
Nora, others have said this, but I think your care for your mother is amazing. What're you reading? I looked her up on Amazon, and need something good to read. Sort of. I have lots to read, and shouldn't add another escape mechanism, but whatever. It's what I do.
So much more I wanted to say, but I can't remember now and I've read the thread like 3 times. My poor brain.
I need to get a part time job, I think. Something fun and not stressful. I'm thinking about the garden center near me. How much fun would that be? The last thing I need to do is buy more plants, and I'm a little worried I'd spend all the money I made on new ones, but it might be worth the risk. Then I feel like I should get a 'real' job. I'm just not there, yet, though. I think. I dunno.
Started spring cleaning yesterday with hubs. Which was awesome. This place feels filthy-ish, after so much neglect. Cleaned the kitchen from ceiling to floor. It's shiny now.
See you tomorrow! Sorry for everyone I didn't mention. My brain isn't working yet. Seriously.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Oh, Skendall! Meant to mention that I'm flabbergasted it's taken so damn long, and so happy you're ~2 weeks away from solutions and being pain free!

[Lizann]

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Hello all! Sounds like everyone is plugging along.
Spent the day with family yesterday and it was a totally pleasant day. I was out all day. Went to my parents in the afternoon. The day just got away from me. Today was spent with storm preparation. I am dealing with a great deal of anxiety over it. My dad will be 88 on Friday and he insists he will do what he can shoveling his own snow! We tried to get someone local to shovel them out, but so far no success. I told them to wait until we can get there to dig them out. We live about 12 miles which is far in 24+ inches of snow. So now we wait. I feel like we get more than our share of "super storms" here and I've about had it.
Pauly, you're not the only one who's crabby and I am sorry!

[NoraC]

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Liz - I have been thinking about you all day. Scary storm. No wonder you have anxiety knowing that it will take you awhile to get to your parents. :hug: Hang in there.

Pauly - did your day get any better?

Ok Folks, Blankie Fort is officially up.