Dear All,
I wrote a post a while back about the BBQ we were having for my partners Birthday and how I was worried about having drink in the house after just having thrown my lost drop away the previous week as I couldn`t trust myself to not drink it in a crisis! Well the BBQ was this weekend just gone and I`m happy to say that I`m still smiling and am now 31 days AF yipee but I hated every single minute of the party and I can`t even imagine ever enjoying one again without my old buddy in my hand, please let this not be true guys! When I used to drink partiy nights would fly by but this was 6hrs long which in my time took 100 years, everyone had arrived by 7pm and I was willing them out the door by 8 oh dear. I would normally be in with all the fun but no I took it upon myself to keep busy as I just couldn`t bear to watch everbody having a drink so i spent half the night in the kitchen washing and tidying up after everyone which just isn`t me, the only good thing about that was I didn`t have to do it in morming!! I`m also ashamed to say that I became unhealthily facsinated about other peoples drinking habits and there were several people who had more visits to the brandy bottle than was nescessary, oh my god did people watch me do that how embarrassing. I so didn`t want people to leave their drinks behind and really tried to make them take the bottles and cans that they had left over but no they insisted that we could use them so I now have 8 bottles of white wine, 2 bottles of red, 36 bottles of beer and my partner was given 16 litres of spirits as presents HELP ME lol. I have whisked them away to the wardbrobe upstairs so I shall not have to look at them but what a temptation to have. If its any help to newbies I think things are starting to get a bit better, I am not taking the mickey saying that after only 31 days but I can pour my partner a drink in the evening without the need to kill myself and I only think about drink half of my time instead of all of it and thats serious. I have noticed though that I suffer with headaches more than I ever did and I really hated taking tablets and wouldn`t but I use more now than I ever did but if thats all I get then thats great, anyway I`ll expect to see all your party invites in my inbox then from the biggest party pooper in town!!!!! x
I wrote a post a while back about the BBQ we were having for my partners Birthday and how I was worried about having drink in the house after just having thrown my lost drop away the previous week as I couldn`t trust myself to not drink it in a crisis! Well the BBQ was this weekend just gone and I`m happy to say that I`m still smiling and am now 31 days AF yipee but I hated every single minute of the party and I can`t even imagine ever enjoying one again without my old buddy in my hand, please let this not be true guys! When I used to drink partiy nights would fly by but this was 6hrs long which in my time took 100 years, everyone had arrived by 7pm and I was willing them out the door by 8 oh dear. I would normally be in with all the fun but no I took it upon myself to keep busy as I just couldn`t bear to watch everbody having a drink so i spent half the night in the kitchen washing and tidying up after everyone which just isn`t me, the only good thing about that was I didn`t have to do it in morming!! I`m also ashamed to say that I became unhealthily facsinated about other peoples drinking habits and there were several people who had more visits to the brandy bottle than was nescessary, oh my god did people watch me do that how embarrassing. I so didn`t want people to leave their drinks behind and really tried to make them take the bottles and cans that they had left over but no they insisted that we could use them so I now have 8 bottles of white wine, 2 bottles of red, 36 bottles of beer and my partner was given 16 litres of spirits as presents HELP ME lol. I have whisked them away to the wardbrobe upstairs so I shall not have to look at them but what a temptation to have. If its any help to newbies I think things are starting to get a bit better, I am not taking the mickey saying that after only 31 days but I can pour my partner a drink in the evening without the need to kill myself and I only think about drink half of my time instead of all of it and thats serious. I have noticed though that I suffer with headaches more than I ever did and I really hated taking tablets and wouldn`t but I use more now than I ever did but if thats all I get then thats great, anyway I`ll expect to see all your party invites in my inbox then from the biggest party pooper in town!!!!! x
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