Hi Tony, sorry you are feeling this way. I can only speak personally and my years of failures have taught me a few things that seem to be working and have me believing things are different this time around. I am only a couple of weeks ahead of you so it is all very fresh and raw still and I can't afford to take my eye off of the ball for a minute. Now personally I have found that counting days has proven a hinderance to me in the past, it is a reminder rather than an incentive so I just mark the weeks and hopefully then it will progress to months, month 4 has just begun. Last week I had a wobble too, one minute I am full of strength and resolve and the next it hits home out of nowhere that I really want a drink but that is the nature of the beast and to understand that is helpful, none of this is unique to any off us but I am told it gets easier and less frequent with time. I am quite a visual person and I think of these massive cravings as my standing on a beach and seeing in the distance a high wave approaching, I stand there and let it come, it hits then washes over me but quickly passes. If I try to run away or fight it I could drown so I don't, I accept it for what it is and let it pass over, and it does. It is only in my head, it is an impulse and I don't need to act on it. I don't ever want to go back to drowning now I have a life jacket. Keeping busy is imperative, sitting and dwelling on the negative aspects will only lead us to the f**k it moment and back to square one and the aftermath that any instant hit that first drink brings. So maybe stop counting days and look no further forward or back than today, for the day will come when life gets back to something resembling normality or else why do we all bother?
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Hi Tony, sorry you are feeling this way. I can only speak personally and my years of failures have taught me a few things that seem to be working and have me believing things are different this time around. I am only a couple of weeks ahead of you so it is all very fresh and raw still and I can't afford to take my eye off of the ball for a minute. Now personally I have found that counting days has proven a hinderance to me in the past, it is a reminder rather than an incentive so I just mark the weeks and hopefully then it will progress to months, month 4 has just begun. Last week I had a wobble too, one minute I am full of strength and resolve and the next it hits home out of nowhere that I really want a drink but that is the nature of the beast and to understand that is helpful, none of this is unique to any off us but I am told it gets easier and less frequent with time. I am quite a visual person and I think of these massive cravings as my standing on a beach and seeing in the distance a high wave approaching, I stand there and let it come, it hits then washes over me but quickly passes. If I try to run away or fight it I could drown so I don't, I accept it for what it is and let it pass over, and it does. It is only in my head, it is an impulse and I don't need to act on it. I don't ever want to go back to drowning now I have a life jacket. Keeping busy is imperative, sitting and dwelling on the negative aspects will only lead us to the f**k it moment and back to square one and the aftermath that any instant hit that first drink brings. So maybe stop counting days and look no further forward or back than today, for the day will come when life gets back to something resembling normality or else why do we all bother?Ethanol is a toxic chemical, why would I drink it?
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Tony,I was that gross person who would go around the table and finish peoples leftover drinks,totally cringeworthy now,I am interested in hearing from peeps about the getting past certain humps,for a loooong time I couldn't get past day 17 weird and then I'd make it to 30 drink,now it seems like 90&100 I self sabotage, I still wonder whyI have too much shit to do today and tomorrow to drink:sohappy:
I'm taking care of the "tomorrow me":thumbsup:
Drinkin won't help a damn thing! Will only make me sick for DAYS and that ugly, spacey dumb feeling-no thanks!
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Tony - get that nonsense out of your head quicksmart !
Were you thirsty or hungry?
Stop counting days and be grateful you had the Ab in your system to help surf the wave , to use Tabbs analogy. .
This will get easier .... to a time when you won't even see the alcohol - promise.
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Evening,
Tony, glad you told us. Today is a new day..............firstly please don't dwell on the what if you had.............you didn't........you gritted your teeth, cleared up and got through............not easy but you did it. Give yourself some credit.
Thoughts are just thoughts don't let them manifest themselves into actions.
Each day you wake up sober and clear headed is precious.........however we do it. I'm not sure what keeps me sober these days but in the early days it was counting days......later memories of how awful I could be.........how sad I made the lovely Mr JC..........we talk........he's interested in addiction as much as I am now (fascinating subject).
Tonight after you clear up...........go home and look in the mirror.........and give yourself a smile ...........make a cup of tea and know without a doubt in the world a sober head will hit the pillow tonight.It could be worse, I could be filing.
AF since 7/7/2009
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Originally posted by tonyniceday View PostHas anyone found any way to just stop that urge from building and nipping it in the bud earlier.
That was my emergency trick in the early days.AF - July 19th 2015 :happy2:
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Note to self.............do not watch Homeland followed by catch up of the first episode of In the Line of Duty..........my heart's pounding......I'll never sleep tonight.....some pretty good dramas about at the moment.It could be worse, I could be filing.
AF since 7/7/2009
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Good morning rustop & all who drop in
:congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:
Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
I know enough to know that I don't know enough.
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Morning Jc, you to late me running out de door, have a nice day everyone.
:congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:
Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
I know enough to know that I don't know enough.
This signature has been typed in front of a live studio audience.
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Morning folks, off to work soon. I am looking forward to my spring week off new week. Not going away but I have enough things on my 'to get done around the place' list to take a month. Where did I ever find the time to drink every night and be on half speed most days and stuck to the sofa unable to move with a hangover some days? It's one of life's great unsolved mysteries me thinks.Ethanol is a toxic chemical, why would I drink it?
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Originally posted by JackieClaire View PostNote to self.............do not watch Homeland followed by catch up of the first episode of In the Line of Duty..........my heart's pounding......I'll never sleep tonight.....some pretty good dramas about at the moment.
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Originally posted by Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB) View PostMorning folks, off to work soon. I am looking forward to my spring week off new week. Not going away but I have enough things on my 'to get done around the place' list to take a month. Where did I ever find the time to drink every night and be on half speed most days and stuck to the sofa unable to move with a hangover some days? It's one of life's great unsolved mysteries me thinks.
I can only think that the calories / sugar from the day before kept us going until we could top up next day
And we were always on edge to 'act normal' and overcompensated on everything.
Now I don't care about the things I used to care about :haha:
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Morning.
I think I spent many days just gritting my teeth, cross, feeling sorry for myself. Yes, overcompensating but paranoid too. Not every day mind you, but it was getting closer to every day.
Good drama lists there. Last episode of suits tonight so line them up please!!
Later.Last edited by IamMary; April 3, 2017, 03:19 AM.AF - July 19th 2015 :happy2:
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