One Step at a Time - April 2017

[NoraC]

Re: One Step at a Time - April 2017

Home again. UTI that they are treating with antibiotics. They are just saying it was another syncope episode. Follow up with primary.

[Rusty]

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Nora, if it were not 3:00 AM in California right now, I would give you a call....you poor dear!! :hug: I hope the antibiotics work quickly and there are no annoying side effects. Antibiotics can wreak havoc on a person's digestive system.

A cheery hello to all my friends here and those MIA: NE and Glassie...please check in!

Techie-what did the doctor say? What will your course of therapy be now??? We here all love you and want the best for you.

Hey Gang, sorry I won't be able to post much until my class is over on April 27th.

I hope we all have a drama/illness AF Thursday!

[Lizann]

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Nora, I hope all is ok with your mom! One of my coworkers passed out behind the wheel of her car. Thankfully she was still in her parking lot and hit a curb and pole with minimal damage. She had a UTI and had no other symptoms. Kind of scary, but glad it was diagnosed! I'm sure the antibiotics will take care of it. please take time to do something for you today. :hug:

Rusty, love the huge print. Didn't need my glasses to read it

Wishing us all a terrific AF Thursday!

[actiongirl46]

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Hi Steppers! Nora, glad your mom is ok, wow, scary!

Liz, I honestly don't know how people work in the medical field, I would be a hot mess, but I'm so glad others aren't!

I am doing well. Things are better with hubs, at least he is talking so much more. I am wondering if he was just down a few months ago, it may not have been me at all. Of course, I internalized it. Good lesson to think about.

I had a conversation with a friend yesterday. We are both pretty bored with our jobs but they pay the bills and allow for the flexibility our families need. She said, yep, even though I'm bored I'm just going to keep doing this job until my head spins off!! Ha! I'm kind of feeling that way too but I need to watch it as boredom is a HUGE trigger for me.

Have a great Thursday all! Onward! AG

[techie]

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Good morning all you wonderful Steppers. Today marks seven years of clarity and gratitude for me. My goal for the next year is to minimize self judgement. My plan is to take little steps. Three foot tosses. Have a great day xoxo

[Rusty]

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:thumbsup::sohappy:HAPPY ANNIVERSARY AND HUGE CONGRATULATIONS, SWEET TECHIE!!!! I am delighted for you! Thank you for being such a positive presence on our thread!!

Lots of love,

Rusty

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Oh my gosh, you guys. I've been so remiss. I'm sorry. All well here. I'm around 70+ days sober now (!!!) and plugging along. I won't bore you with a long detailed excuse as to why I haven't been online, just the long whine-y version.
My computer is old and it's slow. I loaned my friend a computer I was given last fall, for her business, when hers died. It's MUCH faster/better/shinier. I still don't have it back. grrrr.

I volunteer at a place where I generally do organization-type stuff, but was given a computer-based project that completely consumes me. And is dreadfully annoying and boring. So now I hate computers, and mine in particular.

I have SO MUCH GD WORK to do in my yard. The gardeners will understand that this is very time sensitive work. If it isn't done now, it quickly becomes a jungle and completely overwhelming. Add to it that I started a HUGE (no shock, since I tend to over-do everything) garden project right before I got sick 2 years ago. It was a complete waste of time and lots of $$$$ if I don't get it under control/sorted/organized. Not only do I want the two years back, I'm impatient to have it presentable.

Which brings me to the more important point, which is that I'm pretty involved with friends from the rehab I went to who live nearby, and friends I've made in meetings, and friends that I've ignored for the last two years. I want to have people over to my house. I'm embarrassed by my house, especially the outside space, which looks like Sanford's yard.


It's full of half-done projects and deteriorating tarps covering (among other things) high-dollar-compost made from only the best organic chicken poop, the supplies for two decks we planned on building three years ago and a gazebo. Not to mention the plants, y'all. Damn things didn't die and just keep growing and growing and GROWING.

Finally, I had this really bizarre experience of not being heard for a couple of weeks. No matter what I said, or didn't say, or wrote, I could not communicate effectively. It was really, really weird. Once my husband stood up and walked out of the room when I was in mid-thought. (He can be a pain, but he's not without basic manners!) It was pervasive, too. My parents (but they barely count), my therapist (which is still an issue), and friends from online and in person. I'm telling you, it was weird. I decided that I needed to stop communicating for awhile. At least about things that I was having a hard time navigating. I was tired of having my feelings hurt. I was tired of not being heard. And I knew it was me, not them.

I'm still there, in a way.

Oh, and I hurt my back which made sitting really uncomfortable. Still is, but I finally got some meds today and while I'm a little copacetic from the muscle relaxers, I figured I'd just let it all hang out here.

I have some more work as a day-laborer to do in the yard today and tomorrow in preparation for the husband-time this weekend. (That's when he's home and I can put his muscles to good use! I try to get everything set up so he can move from one back-breaking task to another. Poor guy.)

Which reminds me, part of our fence came down. So there was that, and so many other trifling little tedious life things it'd be annoying to even read about them. It's VERY annoying to think about them.

But I love you guys and I appreciate the messages. Sorry that I haven't been participating, and sorry, too, that I didn't read back. And so, so sorry it's all about me and (as usual) way too long. xx

[Rusty]

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NE!:yay: Thanks for posting your update and HUGE CONGRATS on your 7+ days sober!!:thumbsup: I am delighted that you have made some new friends from the rehab you went to and AA. I laughed when you talked about your house being from Sanford and Son! :-). I have to tell you, and I hope I don't offend anyone here....outside of planting flowers in my flower boxes on my two big decks and outside my garage, I HATE GARDENING. I do not like pulling weeds AT ALL. Here's why: when I was growing up, we lived on a lake and we had 3.5 acres of property. In order to have spending money, I would mow the lawn and do the weeding. When I moved out to go to college, I told myself I would never pull another weed as long as I lived and I've kept my promise. LOL. Good for you for wanting to improve your outdoor space so you can feel free to entertain. :-)

[NoraC]

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Techie - CONGRATULATIONS! You are such a positive person and I am grateful to know you. :heartbeat:

[NoraC]

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:checkin: everyone. At work but thanks for all the good thoughts. (Rusty, I was probably awake LOL)
Mom is doing ok today. Sleepy but we were awake a great deal of the night.
Catch you all tonight.

PS - How wonderful that I am HERE for my mom and not drunk. What a fantastic life I have

[NoraC]

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Wow. Been quiet lately. Ne, good to see you. Rusty, been thinking of you and your class.


On my kindle so more later.

[NoraC]

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Pauly - how did everything go? How are they feeling?

[NoraC]

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Liz - are you ok? You've been on my mind.

SK - how are you feeling?

AG - you are sounding really positive. Good job

Techie - just so happy for you

[Lizann]

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Busy today just I'll just post quickly. Erin was here today. She is so mellow and taking it easy. Really not like her at all. So what we did today we took our time doing. It was nice being with her. Of course all my other chores were put aside for this evening, that's fine, I am content and tired. I did read back! Techie huge congratulations to you! :sohappy:
Wishing you all a quiet AF night!

[actiongirl46]

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Techie, 7 years, wow. And just look at all the positive things you have done in that time. I don't know of too many actively drinking alkies that can run a marathon, ski, hike, etc. You are living life to the fullest. So inspiring!

Speaking of exercise, I have given myself the gift of yoga twice this week. It feels really good to be back into it. Now to layer on the cardio . . . and lay off the ice cream/sweets. Hmmm . . . maybe after Easter as jelly beans are my favorite candy.

Ne, I seem to recall you not going out or socializing much at all last year. I'm so happy you have some solid new friends. I work so much behind a computer or in meetings that I love to do something physical (for a little while) when I'm off work.

Rusty, you crack me up, as usual. Do NOT pull another weed!!

Liz and Nora, so glad your peeps are feeling better. I was chatting with a friend today who is a cancer survivor. He really reinforced for me how important our health is to our well-being. I take that for granted sometimes.

Take care Steppers! Onward - AG