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    #241
    Re: Paulysville

    Pauly - we have all been thinking of you during this hard weekend. :heartbeat:
    "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
    ..........
    AF - 7-27-15

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      #242
      Re: Paulysville

      Day 7 off the grog...Went to my hometown this past weekend for Jon's celebration of life,it was emotional for me,especially the native american drum prayer they started with,Jon's music and pictures on the screen after,I just cried through it all,I still can't believe he did that to himself!! My two oldest brothers who I don't really get along with were in town for the service, drunk already and going out to their truck to top off during the whole thing, I know all the tricks they weren't fooling me, had a good visit with my dad and the next step is he has to go meet with a specialist in SLC to see what approach they'll take for his cancer,he's gonna sell his house for sure and that makes me sad I hate change and its gonna be weird to not go there anymore, I asked if I could go over cuz I wanted to look for a necklace Kell gave Jon when they were here in Nov but he said he didn't want anyone over there,I understand but I still wish I could have poked around, Christina seems pretty stable but she seems to have lost some of her shine,her happiness,,had a good visit with my other brothers just talking in my brothers front yard,our tribe was having its pow-wow that weekend so we went to that for a bit,even dad went I was surprised, I think thats the first time he's gone in a long time,I didn't stay long cuz I was exhausted by 7 pm,the next day was a yuck day cuz everyone wanted to go to the lake with the drunk brothers,I threw a fit and took off! I didn't want to upset my mom so I didn't let her know I didn't want to be around drunk brothers so I just text her throughout the day telling her about going to feed some horses at the corrals,taking Lou to the play park,going to the lake just to walk around,, at the lake I broke down again cuz thats where I spent 80% of my time with Jon throughout the years,such memories, I went off by myself and I told Jon I loved him and a huge gust of wind enveloped me, I really hope it was his spirit telling me he's ok,,just a whirlwind of emotions and I'm going through a lot right now,not sure I'll be too active in posting on the threads,I'll definitely check into the café on a daily basis but as far as elsewhere I just can't keep up right now,bless all of you who took the time to reach out to me and actually care,thank you all,thats it in Paulysville for now
      I have too much shit to do today and tomorrow to drink:sohappy:

      I'm taking care of the "tomorrow me":thumbsup:
      Drinkin won't help a damn thing! Will only make me sick for DAYS and that ugly, spacey dumb feeling-no thanks!

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        #243
        Re: Paulysville

        You're very brave Pauly. Do whatever it takes to look after yourself for now. We're all thinking of you. :hug::heartbeat::hug:
        There's two ways of looking at the holes in your shoes
        You can dig the ventilation... or you can sing the blues

        I didn't come this far to only come this far.

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          #244
          Re: Paulysville

          Pauly, good to see you checking in, my thoughts are with you.

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            #245
            Last edited by abcowboy; August 1, 2017, 07:45 AM.
            Quitting and staying quit isn't easy, its learning a whole new way of thinking. It's accepting a new way of life, and not just accepting it, embracing it...
            Worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. Just get through today. Tomorrow will look after itself when it becomes today, because today is all we have to think about.
            Friendship is not about how many friends you have or who you've known the longest. It's about who walked into your life, said "I'm here for you", and proved it.

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              #246
              Re: Paulysville

              Hey Pauly. Do what you think is best for you. :heartbeat::heartbeat:
              Enlightened by MWO

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                #247
                Re: Paulysville

                You honored Jon in being truly present for his celebration. Take care of yourself. You are one
                strong, courageous woman:hug:

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                  #248
                  Re: Paulysville

                  That was a lovely but sad post Pauly. Please come back to the Daily Abs thread - we need you!

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                    #249
                    Re: Paulysville

                    Congrats on 7 days + Pauly! :thumbsup:
                    Last edited by Guitarista; August 1, 2017, 06:40 PM.

                    'I am part of all that I have met, yet all experience is an arch wherethro', gleams that untravelled world whose margins fade, forever and forever when I move'

                    Zen soul Warrior. Freedom today-

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                      #250
                      Re: Paulysville

                      Hey Pauly, thinking of you.
                      Ethanol is a toxic chemical, why would I drink it?

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                        #251
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                        I'm sorry for all your sufferings Paully! :hug: Happy to read your back on the sober train. I believe in you...

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                          #252
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                          :hug:

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                            #253
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                            Great,now my sleep is effed up again! My stomach still isn't back to normal and I'm getting headaches I had everything on an even keel while AF,now its basically resetting the time clock again with the physical and mental side effects of quitting drinking,if you have a quit just keep it! Whatever it takes,,go to bed at 7 pm,go for a run,pop an antabuse if you have it,eat some ice cream,,,lots of ice cream! I've been here too long for this horseshit too continue, the healing takes too long,its all a mind game and I'm done playing.
                            I have too much shit to do today and tomorrow to drink:sohappy:

                            I'm taking care of the "tomorrow me":thumbsup:
                            Drinkin won't help a damn thing! Will only make me sick for DAYS and that ugly, spacey dumb feeling-no thanks!

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                              #254
                              Re: Paulysville

                              My brother and his wife had their little son this morning yay! 8.5 lbs a big little guy,named him Liam which I'm not crazy about but I'm sure it'll grow on me,so some good news from my neck of the desert
                              I have too much shit to do today and tomorrow to drink:sohappy:

                              I'm taking care of the "tomorrow me":thumbsup:
                              Drinkin won't help a damn thing! Will only make me sick for DAYS and that ugly, spacey dumb feeling-no thanks!

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                                #255
                                Re: Paulysville

                                Happy news! Congratulations. :yay:
                                "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
                                ..........
                                AF - 7-27-15

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