Paulysville

[NoraC]

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Pauly - :hug: You are not unworthy. Remember that. Have you been able to stop yet?

[NoraC]

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This is an e-mail that I received from Belle

I’d like to go into your head for just a minute
and re-program something, if you don’t mind.
I’ll just slip in one ear and come back out the other.
And while I’m inside, I want to change one thing.

This is worth doing
because you are worth it.
Being sober is worth doing
because you are worth it.

Any shitty sober day
is better than a new Day 1.
And any improvement that you can make
to the quality of your life
is worth it for you.

You don’t have to do it for your family
you don’t have to do it for your kids
you don’t have to do it for anybody

you doing it for you is enough.

I go in one ear and I say:
This is worth doing
because you are worth it —
and then I come out the other ear
and I leave you.

[paulywogg]

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Thanks Nora,I haven't been able to stop,that's why hubs is pissed,I honestly don't blame him! We're going to California on Friday I can't be a drunk during the trip

[NoraC]

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Ok kiddo - you don't want to ruin your California vacation. I can tell you from lots & lots of experience. It's not going to be any easier to quit tomorrow. Get rid of it and no more. Even if you have to go and spend the rest of the day in bed. Just stop the drinking. Big hugs to you. :hug:

[NoraC]

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Oh and make sure that you are starting to drink lots of water. 2 waters for a beer? Just try to keep hydrated. I love you friend.

[Lavande]

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Pauly, you do know how to close the door.
Just make the choice & do it. That's all you have to do.

Every day you have the opportunity to make a choice, make the right one for you :hug:
I know you can do this!

[NoraC]

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[MENTION=17650]paulywogg[/MENTION] - how's it going this morning???? :heartbeat:

[NoraC]

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Have a happy day today friend. :hug:

[abcowboy]

Ahhhh Pauly, I don’t know whether to kick your butt all the way to California, or give you my shoulder to lean on!

You have so many people here rooting for you, offering their help and support, yet when you need it most you turn away, why? It’s almost like you don’t care one way or another otherwise you’d reach out when you get to thinking those drinking thoughts.

I know you want to get a quit that sticks because you keep coming back, but you’ve got to open up and ask for help, you can’t do this on your own, no one can.

Maybe counselling is your best option for now. Deal with all the extra emotions you’re carrying around with you. Something has to work, there is a way out for everyone if they open themselves up to it. Try anything and everything, and keep trying. You can close that door, lock it, and throw away the key, but you need a bit of help getting that deadbolt turned for good! Please let us help you...

[Lavande]

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How's it going Pauly?
C'mon & check in with us, please.

[SKendall]

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Hi Pauly, there are many stages of grief; shock, anger and it takes a while before acceptance is achieved. I wish I could get the guilt of shame and grief out of your head, you are an outstanding person.

My daughter was very emotional at her step-dad's funeral yesterday and is so very sad to see. There is a book on the stages of grief and it very much helped me me when my mom died. When I saw a doctor about it he reckoned 9 months (same as a pregnancy) to grieve for a family member. In your case suicide is very difficult because we somehow feel very betrayed. You know what you need to do.

[paulywogg]

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I know the saying is "1 is to many and 100 isn't enough" but I've changed it to 1 is too many and 10 isn't enough cuz it's more realistic and got me thinking about how I feel 10 beers in,buzzed but still looking,a real eye opener that 10 beers would make most people ripped but for me barely does anything,don't really have much to update really just getting through and living I guess.

[abcowboy]

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Pretty much the same as me Pauly, a six pack was just the appetizer!

[paulywogg]

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Oh bloody hell,I fell off the wagon hard as a mofo! In the hospital waiting room right now,Kell got I'm a car accident and they're monitoring her and the baby,she's gonna be ok I hope but what a fucking year this has been..

[Guitarista]

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Hi Pauly.

Sheesh! I hope Kell and baby are okay. Please take care of you too my friend. 'Keep your head up and power through'.

Keep us posted buddy.