I drank. Hope you don't.

[Wildflowers]

I drank last night at my GF's house. It was a celebration for the birth of their first grandchild. I tried saying no. This is no excuse, but her hubs kept insisting. Have been friends with them for decades. Was in their wedding. I'm so disappointed in myself!.. My husband is very upset with me!.. I eventually gave in.

Drank two glasses of champagne. Then a Mimosa. Then I left and went to the liquor store and bought Rum. The cravings, the dragon has been awoken. Then I texted hubby and asked him to bring home a 12 rack of beer. He replied asking if I'm sure. He had no idea that I'd already been drinking. I don't remember much from last night. Hadn't eat much yesterday. I fell on my back in family rm. Remember getting into an argument. Not sure really what about. Can't remember. Made a huge mess in kitchen, trying to cook while intoxicated.

I was suppose to go to a job early this AM. I cancelled. I dumped the remaining rum out. The beer is still in the garage. I texted hubs, apologizied profusely. Told him I dumped hard liquor out. Asked if he wanted beer or should I dump the rest out. Haven't heard back. Frankly, I'm not surprised. Who can blame him. They suffer too!..

I'm so ashamed and disappointed in myself! I'm now drinking a beer. Had crackers earlier. I shouldn't have tried to quit smoking so early in my AF quit. I think it also triggered me. I've blown it once again. I heard that voice saying don't do it. You'll be sorry. Still I put myself in a tempting situation. There are never any good reasons for an alcoholic to pick up that first drink. I'll never forget years ago, Marioman said, he drank for as many reasons as trees have leaves. Ain't that the truth! Hope one day this nasty cycle of addiction will be broke. It causes nothing but pain and remorse. I hope I can stop again. I really hate addiction!....

I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news!.. Please, I beg you to not pick up that first drink!... Am hating myself now! I should have been stronger and said no. If it wasn't for MWO, I'm not sure I could try again. I know I'm an alcoholic. Still, I do this. May try a meeting tom. Maybe I need therapy again. Seriously, don't believe I have many more chances at this. As embarrassing as this, I hope it might help someone. Reinforce why not to drink.

Thank you for listening. I'll be back when I can get myself together.

[JackieClaire]

Re: I drank. Hope you don't.

Oh WF, not sure whether to hug you or give you a clip round the ear..........anyway what's done is done.

Reckon we're into to damage control now if you've already started drinking. Get some water down you, lots and lots of water. I could say stop drinking now and throw the rest down the toilet as if you're anything like I used to be I would make all the right noises, promise the earth and then ignore it all...........so I'm not. It is your decision whether to get rid of the booze.

Tomorrow is a whole new day...........review your plan. Forget about the smokes for now.

Together we'll work to get some good AF time for you and then think of some major changes.

Get some rest, like I said get plenty of fluids down you (of the non-alcoholic variety) and I'll pop back later to see how you are.

And remember we all understand, we really do.

[available]

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WF we all understand the power of al over us and its addiction.

As JC says get rid of the grog and tomorrow is another day. Dont let al win, its not your friend, its not there to comfort you but to only give you pain and shame and destroy you and all around you.

You came on MWO and talked, you want sobriety and you are here. you can do this again.

Take care x

[paulywogg]

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:hug:Wildflowers

[JackieClaire]

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As I said I'm popping back to see how you're doing WF. :hug: Promise me you'll get some rest and treat yourself kindly the next few days.
After midnight this side of the pond so we'll see you tomorrow.

[techie]

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The details of last night do not matter. It is all about how you take lessons learned, and move forward. My heart goes out to you. Now, get back to work, WF. The life you want is not out of reach. It's right in front of you. Xoxo

[ssd858]

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We've all been through this. Take care of yourself and begin fresh tomorrow. We are here for you.
We'll all be looking for you tomorrow.
:hug:

[Lavande]

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It's never too late to start your quit again WF!
Glad you came & broke the news & now it's time to begin again :hug:

[NoraC]

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WF - you know what to do and we're all here with you. :hug:

[treetops]

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Hope you have a long sleep and start refreshed. Then it's time to work out a way forward and to make sure you do not do this again. Strong little baby steps.

[Neo]

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Hey WF, I wouldn't beat yourself up. The alcohol is doing that. Just get back on the bandwagon . 8 days ago I was blind drunk and having anxiety attacks in the morn feeling sorry for myself.The last couple of months were stop start for me. It is now Day 7 AL & NF for me and it doesn't take long to get momentum back.

[dill]

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[MENTION=16893]Wildflowers[/MENTION], get back to business! I hope to see you at the Café today! And back to the Gratitude thread, too!

[Mr Vervill]

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Sending you strength [MENTION=16893]Wildflowers[/MENTION] please stick around

[abcowboy]

Well, as the old saying goes "sh*t happens, wipe your butt and move on" Today is a brand new day [MENTION=16893]Wildflowers[/MENTION], don't let what happened be a waste of time! Learn from it, make a plan for what you're going to do when a situation like that happens to you again, and then stick to your plan! Rome wasn't built in a day, but they did build it one day at a time! You can do this!

[Sunbeam]

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We have all been there, and are here for you.