It seems that life has got so busy (out 'n about with people... imagine that!) that I only check in here once or twice a year. Generally, it's around my anniversary... this year, it's a bit earlier.
Like so many others here, I struggled for years with first admitting that there was something seriously wrong with the way I was living my life, then with doing something about it and sticking to it. It's hard, I know. It becomes a lot easier once you do realize, admit, and truly believe that you have a drinking problem. Once you hit that rock bottom, that point, where you are sick and tired of the merry-go-round. Jump off. Do it.
If I could, so can you. I was pretty hard core at the end, and a master at lying to myself and those around me.
I just went through one of the most horrific and saddest times in one's life possible... losing my 2 year old grand daughter. And, watching her parents (my son and ex g/f) trying to work through that devastation and grief. And, standing by, helplessly. I got through it, sober. In fact, I believe the only reason WHY I got through it as well (I use that term loosely) as I did, is BECAUSE I was sober. The thought to drink actually never occurred to me. Whew.
My son still has addiction issues, my daughter does, too (among many other medical problems). Life isn't ever going to be all rainbows and butterflies.... but, at least, now I can deal with things in the APPROPRIATE manner. Not overly emotional, not making things about me when they aren't, not adding to chaos and destruction.
So, for anyone wondering if it's worth it... you know.. the struggle, the pain, the sleepless nights, etc... I would like to offer you a resounding YESSSSSSS!!!!!!! And yes, you CAN do it. There's NO DOUBT, you can.
Wishing you well on your journey and beyond...
xo Sunni-G
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