One Step at a Time - January 2018

[allswell]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Hi everyone, AG let it out if you want to.

Feeling out of place and uncertain right now, the usual feelings I have moving back into non-drinking. I hate this feeling but deep down appreciate it beyond words because it is absolutely the right thing to do.

[Lizann]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Happy hump day.

AG and allswell, glad you guys are getting through. It's hard, I know. AG glad that journal was helpful, maybe that's something I should try.
Hoping tomorrow is easier.

I worked today, so I didn't see the baby or Erin for that matter. The baby is so sweet. Mark said he was making faces at the baby and the baby was hysterically laughing! It just brings so much joy, it really does!
Nora, Erin went for genetic counseling too. I think it's pretty standard now, unless there is some reason you think they were told to go? Hopefully it will be alright. Erin had a bad stomach virus when she was about 9 or 10 weeks pregnant. I'm sure I mentioned it here, she went to the drugstore to pick up some Gatorade and ended up passing out in the store. She got a ride in an ambulance to the hospital. Scared us all, but everything was fine. Did she mention it to the doctor?
Wishing you all a quiet AF night.

[NoraC]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Liz - I totally forgot about that when she was pregnant. I think today was just the standard testing. They told the kids that they wouldn't hear from them unless there's a problem. Are you working longer hours?
Allswell - that feeling is awful I know. Hang in there.

[Lizann]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

No I am not working longer hours, Nora. I just start later and end later than I did at the hospital. I love the later hours.
How's everyone doing today? I'm watching the special on Tonya Harding. I didn't realize his difficult her life was. Very interesting.
Not much new here today, as Nora would say life was just "lifey", but I'm dealing.

[NoraC]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Hey - thought I would check in too. I just don't have anything much to say. Actually, I have too much to say. LOL Lots of stuff going on - hubby in pain, I'm trying to get things settled for the trip, found out today that there is a huge pile of trash in the RV garage. I had forgot that my brother wouldn't get a dumpster brought in when his son & DIL helped him move. Lots of stuff to take care of in the next week to make sure everything is set for when we get up there.

Anyway, I hope that everyone was able to find a happy moment in their day. My happy moment was coming home and having Mom be totally aware. Pretty great to have her smile and hold her arms up for a hug when I got home from work.

[actiongirl46]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Day 5 is done! Next up, the weekend. Luckily, we don't have any plans and I'll have to keep it that way. Hubs is being super sweet, but I can't really feel happy around him or reciprocate.. He is a nice roommate, but refuses to have any physical contact. Not even a hug. (This has gone on for years, for the most part.) He blames his lack of affection on the drinking. Even when he is drinking or we've just had a nice evening with friends. Anyway, I'm just feeling really done with rejection.

I'm not planning on making any decisions for awhile, obviously, but the last time I quit nothing much changed. So, I'm not optimistic.

Ok, enough of that! I hope everyone is stays safe on the ice or the mud, depending on your part of the country, and has a good day tomorrow! AG

[NoraC]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

AG - are you still seeing a therapist? Did you change jobs?

[Rusty]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Good Morning, Friends!

I got home from Canada early!!! Whoo Hoo!

I am under the gun to get a report done for a client by noon so I just wanted to pop in and say that I am SO glad that [MENTION=11419]allswell[/MENTION] and [MENTION=21990]actiongirl46[/MENTION] are posting and feel at home on our wonderful thread. :-)

AG-I feel so badly that nothing has changed with your hubs.:hug: Therapy might be a good idea for you. Vent here all you want.

Ok I've got to start writing this report so big hellos to everyone else.

[Lizann]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Good morning!
AG, I'm sorry hubby is acting this way with you. Would he go to therapy with you? I am sad that things are difficult there for you, but am happy that you're not drinking over it. Can you find some "happy" in your day inspite of him. Life is just so hard sometimes.

Rusty, glad you got home early. Are you getting all the snow I'm hearing about?

Nora, how sweet your mom is! Yes we need to find the happy things!

Wishing you all a great AF Friday! Time to go feed Logan, he just woke up from a 20 minute power nap:congratulatory:

[paulywogg]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Morning friends,AG,sorry about the situation with hubs I'm sure it'll work out the way its supposed to though(hopefully) Liz,that's a quick nap for a little guy haha,Rusty,glad you made it home safe and sound,Nora,glad your mom had some clarity,that's awesome! Kell will be being induced at 2 am on Sunday so the baby will be here sometime Monday,I'm nervous but excited wishing all of us an AF fabulous Friday

[actiongirl46]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Thanks all! Liz and Pauly, what fun! Grandbabies!!! I'm coming into the right age but we had kids later in life. You don't want to be a grandma when you're boys are 16 and 17! :egad:

Nora, yes, I did change jobs. I am now out of the house about 10 hours a day. Its a great job, I really like it and it keeps me busy. Unfortunately, I don't have any time right now to go back to my wonderful therapist, although you guys are right, that would be really helpful. I will go back and read my journal from when I worked with her . . . that will be the next best thing as the issues are pretty much the same, except for making a move into a new job.

Day 6 here. More later - AG

[NoraC]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Great job AG. One step at a time.

Just hanging out tonight. I'll probably be back later to talk you ears off.

[Lizann]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

AG, glad you are adding up some days! I think it's great that you are working away from home now, although 10 hours a day is a lot, especially since you still have the two boys at home. I have changed jobs as well. I have have cut down my commute significantly and my hours aren't that early in the am, which I happen to love. I do have to work tomorrow and they are calling for icy roads.
Nora, love it when you are chatty? How is daughter in law feeling? Are they telling anyone yet?
Pauly I am so excited for you all. Is Louie excited? I will be thinking of you all on Monday.
Allswell how are things going by you? Are you managing ok?
Rusty, hope you're not working too hard.
Waves to you all

[Rusty]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Good Morning, Friends,

Pauly-we are anxiously awaiting the birth of your grandchild-so happy for you.

AG-Congratulations on all your AF Days!
[MENTION=11419]allswell[/MENTION]-How are you doing?

Liz-do you have to work every Saturday? I didn't work yesterday which gave me a well-needed respite.

@GlassHalfEmpty-come out, come out, wherever you are.

TBH-yesterday I didn't do much at all because I was really, really sad. I talked to my Mom early in the a.m. and she and my sister decided that it's time for her to go to assisted-living. I asked if she were sad about it, and she said, "no, I've been declining fast this last year.":sad: I know that is the right move her but I still feel this enormous grief. My mom is still in a lot of pain and when I talked to her yesterday, she just sounded so defeated!

I don't mean to be a Debby Downer, dear friends, but I just need some space. I may not be posting for a bit. I don't feel like drinking but I don't feel like doing anything else, either. I am going to make myself go grocery shopping and work out today. I have been working long hours and not taking enough time to exercise, and exercising does make me feel better.

Thanks for listening.:heartbeat:

[paulywogg]

Re: One Step at a Time - January 2018

Morning friends,((hugs)) Rusty I'm sorry about your mom,you take all the time you need and know we're thinking of you both Liz,I like my early shift so I can get in and get out! Louie is excited,I'm pretty sure he's thought Kell's been pregnant for forever cuz he knew about the baby she lost before this one but just assumed its the same pregnancy I think haha,Kell is a nervous wreck,I am too its sooo much easier just having things happen out of the blue,this scheduled labor just gets you anticipating too much,Nora,when do you leave for Oregon? AG,must be day 6? Good for you hello Allswell,Glassy and all the readers,have a great AF Saturday