Join the Army Against Alcohol-February 2018

[JackieClaire]

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[MENTION=23019]tonyniceday[/MENTION]..........I do the vaping. Yep I'm one of those sad sacks that stands outside with me cloud of vapour............but my vape pens are ever so pretty.............I haven't got those monster ones that produce mahoosive clouds of stuff. I gave up smoking March 2017. Had to because I'm early stages COPD...........hangs head in shame.
Surprisingly these days well approved by the medical profession.....although vaping could be thought of by some diehards as the alcohol free beer and wine to alcoholism( I am one of those that cannot abide, see the point of and not willing to pay for alcohol free booze)..........and vaping's not full of sugar. In all honesty give your drinking quit a way bit longer...........they do say no huge decisions in the first or second year (its one or the other can't remember) and you've had some real buggers of decisions to make since Christmas. Go a little easy on your self.

[satz123]

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[MENTION=23019]tonyniceday[/MENTION]..........I do the vaping. Yep I'm one of those sad sacks that stands outside with me cloud of vapour............but my vape pens are ever so pretty.............I haven't got those monster ones that produce mahoosive clouds of stuff. I gave up smoking March 2017. Had to because I'm early stages COPD...........hangs head in shame.
Surprisingly these days well approved by the medical profession.....although vaping could be thought of by some diehards as the alcohol free beer and wine to alcoholism( I am one of those that cannot abide, see the point of and not willing to pay for alcohol free booze)..........and vaping's not full of sugar. In all honesty give your drinking quit a way bit longer...........they do say no huge decisions in the first or second year (its one or the other can't remember) and you've had some real buggers of decisions to make since Christmas. Go a little easy on your self.

Wot JAcks says - only she said it best

[mollyka]

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Evening! Just home - the little family are heading off to Sligo for Jilly to do her work placement so next adventure in their lives - hopefully the other granny will be up to the child-minding -- wouldn't be good for that myself tbh.. done it once etc etc.. but yeah - it'll be strange without them in the house will enjoy the weekend tho - literally a free house cos Joey and partner and Eabha are heading away too. sitting for her tonight but she's no bother - always smiling bless her!

there's a school of thought of getting it all over and done with - (quitting ) -- in one go - I loved the fall back of the ciggies for a while but the time came.... but I s'pose each of us know what we can do..

talk in a bit... bit chaotic here at the min xxx

[JackieClaire]

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Done it once, Molls, you did it four times with your own.
S&H and his GF popped round to borrow a waterproof jacket. They're off to the Lake District for the night. He's fine, a little hacked off but that's to be expected.
Spoke to Jenny, she's sounding good.

Weird thing is I keep getting waves of anxiety. They're getting a bit frequent and also very random so I'm going to have to see what's triggering them.........will be getting the notebook out.

[mollyka]

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Well you know what you've to do missus - assess is the bit of strife the sprogs are having and is it 'normal' stress - or get thee to the doc... I feel stressed to the Nth degree - but it is normal under the circumstances - a lot going on here for sure. Little one is asleep now - bizarrely decided to make strange with Joe tonight - he's usually her hero - adores him -- so tricky getting her off - but all good - so will say goodnight and talk tomorrow xx

[JackieClaire]

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Well you know what you've to do missus - assess is the bit of strife the sprogs are having and is it 'normal' stress - or get thee to the doc... I feel stressed to the Nth degree - but it is normal under the circumstances - a lot going on here for sure. Little one is asleep now - bizarrely decided to make strange with Joe tonight - he's usually her hero - adores him -- so tricky getting her off - but all good - so will say goodnight and talk tomorrow xx

Thanks love. Not sure yet. I'm accustomed to blooming stress with Jenny, she was born with a hazard warning sticker on her arse.

The little one is testing her womanly wiles on Joe, she'll be all over him tomorrow.

[RunningCourage]

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Evening troopers

Tony - see wot JC said. Agree with taking one thing at a time... though the way my mind works is I then try to do everything all at once... fail... then feel shit/pathetic for not succeeding. Get a handle on the booze side of stuff (yer doing a feckin ace job so far), then tackle the smokes is my advice.

Tonight was the night of the pub and dinner... and it started shite. Didn't want to be there. Was looking for a way out. Or for a way to drink. I'll be honest, i was thinking, fuck it, let's just drink and be done with it. But something in me stayed the course. Not sure what. Perhaps something to do with getting a kinda of rhythm of not drinking that i wasn't wanting to break... even though i do think about it. After some grub the evening got better. Felt less thin-skinned/prickly/moody and good laughs were had. As the first few left, made a sharp exit also.

Part of my moodiness was to do with issues of control I have. And, previously, these issues disappeared when I drank... So felt I was having a double fight - saying no to the booze and fighting another issue about control. Sorry - being vague/cryptic there. Just not wanting to splurge some personal things on the board.

So, bright side is i got through it.

And now to bed

[satz123]

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Evening troopers

Tony - see wot JC said. Agree with taking one thing at a time... though the way my mind works is I then try to do everything all at once... fail... then feel shit/pathetic for not succeeding. Get a handle on the booze side of stuff (yer doing a feckin ace job so far), then tackle the smokes is my advice.

Tonight was the night of the pub and dinner... and it started shite. Didn't want to be there. Was looking for a way out. Or for a way to drink. I'll be honest, i was thinking, fuck it, let's just drink and be done with it. But something in me stayed the course. Not sure what. Perhaps something to do with getting a kinda of rhythm of not drinking that i wasn't wanting to break... even though i do think about it. After some grub the evening got better. Felt less thin-skinned/prickly/moody and good laughs were had. As the first few left, made a sharp exit also.

Part of my moodiness was to do with issues of control I have. And, previously, these issues disappeared when I drank... So felt I was having a double fight - saying no to the booze and fighting another issue about control. Sorry - being vague/cryptic there. Just not wanting to splurge some personal things on the board.

So, bright side is i got through it.

And now to bed

Well done Mr D'Arcy.
You've piqued my nosiness being all vague/ cryptic imp:
But some things are best left unsaid. Probably some dodgy fetish -:haha:
Only joshing RC - yer a lovely feller and I'm so glad you managed to stay off the sauce.

Of course the night was difficult. Our default for years, when socialising, is to drink alcohol to see us through.
So a few more nights out you'll get used to it :thumbsup:

[satz123]

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Little one is asleep now - bizarrely decided to make strange with Joe tonight - he's usually her hero - adores him -- so tricky getting her off - but all good

Ah lovely - I wish I had a grandchild

[satz123]

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Thanks love. Not sure yet. I'm accustomed to blooming stress with Jenny, she was born with a hazard warning sticker on her arse.

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Poor Jacks. It's both of them now causing you to worry ..... keep the diary see whats triggering it.
My guess is motherly instinct to worry - even subconsciously when we don't even know we're doing it. :hug:
Only raiding the biscuit tin (last night) or eating half a box of chocolates (tonight) is the warning sign these days.

[RunningCourage]

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Morning troopers

Well done Mr D'Arcy.
You've piqued my nosiness being all vague/ cryptic
But some things are best left unsaid. Probably some dodgy fetish -
Only joshing RC - yer a lovely feller and I'm so glad you managed to stay off the sauce.

Of course the night was difficult. Our default for years, when socialising, is to drink alcohol to see us through.
So a few more nights out you'll get used to it :thumbsup:

Thanks Doc Sorry for the vagueness... (will let you into my bizarre fetishtic ways in due course :haha

Debate this morning is whether to run or not to run. Weather looking grim out east, but paid for the race and I'm thinking that I'll be back home by...6pm latest and can chill... and i do think it is good getting out and being among people. I can spend whole weekend by myself quite easily (don't mind it as such) but know that company is good for the soul. Even for misanthropic souls

JC - Doc's keep the diary note is a good one. Sometimes do this in hindsight... but think it better to note down stuff in the moment. Tho' don't do this as much as I used to - used to keep an ad-hoc journal of thoughts and words and scrawling of my inner world back in my 20s. ... though my muse tended to be the sauce.

Off to read - have a grand Saturday folks.

[JackieClaire]

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Morning,
Arsey, I had one of those diaries from my drinking days...........found it again when I was a few years in...........an eye opener for sure and tbh I wondered who this self pitying lump was......and it was me. :egad: Got a lovely diary for Crimbo so will use that.

I'm in charge of the birthday cake for the Ma-in-Law.............Mr JC's in charge of the present. I've got the easy job. Just a chocolate one with double cream and strawberries.

Was just thinking back in the dark days I wanted to be left alone so I could wallow in my unhappiness and gallons of booze.............now I'm quite happy to be by myself........I can find all sorts of things to do.

[tonyniceday]

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Morning troops
JC when you look at what's going on.... it's not surprising you're feeling stressed...that crochet has a lot to answer for...give it up, I say!

Seriously, though, I'm sure it's Mum stress.

Got the late shifts again today and tomorrow...oh the bliss of a Saturday night in a city centre...

[rustop59]

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Evening troops. Quick check in as House full of visitors. Don’t listen to him JC, crochet will give you hours of entertainment and you can zone out the family, some of my lot hate me having my nose stuck in it. Think I’ll take up embroidery as well :happy2:

[mollyka]

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Evening all!! Them granny squares sound a step too far!!! life is complicated enough! ;-)

Today - all day... there has been NO ONE here except Joe and me... no builders - babies - boyfriends - grown children who think they are teenagers - NO ONE -- just me and him - and a beautiful dinner - loads of rugby - cricket this morning - my book - a big fire... and it is HEAVEN -- there is no other word.. now I probably wouldn't like it every day (or would I???) but yup -- just today!
Wonder did Arsey go on the run - and Tony survives the late shifts - and Rusters all the visitors.... and howdy everyone else what is missing... loads achully ---