Join the Army Against Alcohol-February 2018

[mollyka]

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Yeah I've always been in jobs with the transfer threat over my head- but so far - touch wood in all those years I've never been transferred anywhere without my request - been very lucky - Joe just reckoned i scared HR into submission

[mollyka]

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Morning rusters and jacks - dentist looming for me too - yuck

[JackieClaire]

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I'm on a 3 monthly appointment as there was bit of gum infection.......can be handled by injecting what feels like five litres of some anti-gum disease stuff up there.......doesn't half make you're eyes water even though its done when you're numb.

[Crusader]

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Morning All!

I spend more time reading then posting, but I know that is what I need. I had the comment given recently that I’m a quick learner, and I find some humor in that considering it’s taken so long for certain things to sink in about how I handle some of my issues. Maybe I did learn quickly, but kept up the lies or left the misconceptions to sit sneakily in the corner. It’s as if we have two personalities inside or maybe more. One is trying to reason with you and the other is making all kinds of excuses. This applies to more things than alcohol which is why I’ve found myself tangled up with it for way too long. When I read NoSugar’s post about it not being a fight, I had to think about that for a few moments as to how to differentiate how I was feeling about it ALL. It’s not just a fight with alcohol, it’s a fight to change all the issues or behaviors that cause the alcohol abuse as well. That for me is a hard fight. It has many tentacles. I do absolutely understand your ‘beautiful surrender’ concept, and I can see the simplicity in the pure acceptance. It’s what I need to learn to do both intellectually and emotionally with things outside my control which applies beyond the walls of ‘the first to the grave’. It’s just too bad it took the loss of two people who meant more to me in this world than anything that kept me going in life when things got tough. It was my love for them that made me want to live beyond whatever came my way. I never wanted to hurt them and yet coping with alcohol did. The loss of their lives pushed me into a drinking spiral that made me so ill, I really was going to die or stop. How ironic, I find that I want to live even without them now. Life has a funny sense of humor when it teaches us lessons. For me, I feel my head was so stuck in some other reality, that God had to give me a good smackdown to wake me up. That’s how I’m feeling now as that seems to be how he always gets my attention back. So quick learner? I hear laughter.

More to come later.

P.S. Thank you for the additional nice comments. Mollyka, your wisdom/words penetrate my ears. We gain something as we say goodbye to our youth; albeit, some of us take longer than others or to actually follow the wisdom and reason. You are all great people here, even if 'effin bonkers' as RunningCourage says. At times in my life, Bonkers may not cut it. There's a good bonkers and a bad one. It comes down to the cost, I suppose. For now my sense of humor is dulled here, so forgive me that.

P.S.S. 'Keeping up Appearances' was the Brit humor I found on my television every Saturday night for a maybe two years. Sometimes, it made me cry...in a great way!

(I post things in two places because I'm not sure who reads what.)

[mollyka]

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Oh Crusader - indeed we were all 'fast learners' --- only took me about 10 years to realise that I MAY have a slightly troubled relationship with alcohol and another about 5 years of slightly MORE troubled relationship while attempting to get sober... jeez... ridiculous - I can see that now - but not at the time - I just COULDN'T imagine a life without booze - I saw all my friends and social life would dissolve -- well -- yes - that is what happened - so the expression 'friend' then is extraordinarily suspect n'est pas??

Keeping up Appearances is indeed Brit humour - lots of us here are Irish tho.. hence our loving of Father Ted - we are close neighbours but very different senses of humour... tho there is plenty of overlap...

Keep reading and posting wherever and whenever you want - that's the beauty of MWO -- everyone is on the same page... just different stages.
you're doing great indeed

Evening all else. Just in from work

[RunningCourage]

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Evening troopers,

Good post crusader - AL is so often just the cover for, as you say, tentacles worth of other issues - little or big, common and uncommon - writhing underneath, not dealt with, abandoned, left to fester.

Don;t worry about sense of humour being dulled. Heck, I was in work - THAT school - today and my sense of humour was AWOL. The HT seemed to hardly want to engage with me whenever we passed in the corridor, but it may just have been my silent seething vibes emanating from my body keeping her at arms length. I should;t be bitchy, need to mind my karma, but sometimes the actions of others just make me wish i was the devil incarnate :haha:

Warning alert (to self and to army!): when i gave up in 2013, a few weeks/months in I felt depressed. Not clinically depressed, just endless apathy, missed with lethargy, mixed with a what's-the-point in much of anything and disengaging. I'm feeling the same thing again. Just not sure what it is. Sure, the job front and the flat problems likely exacerbate these feelings. But I'm not sure if I've felt this specific kind of negativity since 2013.

Alert over. Let's party :hahaha:

On a positive note - the singing / am dram group i go to (the one i wings about cos its on when I like to be curling up to a book in bed) asked me if I'd like to be considered for directing their next show. So that's nice. I said yes. It is good to get out, even if that will have its own stressed - but it's not school... and it's a return to my home territory of the theatre boards i suppose. I am NOT a DRAMA QUEEN. OK?!

[mollyka]

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Alert away! Do you think mebbe you're missing the grog? The 'escape'?

[JackieClaire]

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[MENTION=18049]RunningCourage[/MENTION]........well Dr Arsey or now you're in the theatre should we now call you dahling or luvvie?.........its normal.......you're 50/60 days in (correct me if I'm wrong.........at your peril) and that super energy we get when we first give up has drained away. Be kind to yourself.....be proud of yourself......after all you're going through some crap at the moment and keeping out of the bottle and your head out of water. Try distraction.......think of something you wouldn't normally do (not drinking btw).....bit of yoga, a spin class, fishing something you wouldn't dream of doing.

[MENTION=24140]Crusader[/MENTION]..........lovely post and so good to see you sharing your feelings.

I have finally after 5 weeks managed to crochet a granny square........back to class tomorrow. Its a sort of show and tell for the Granny Square Mafia.......although the rest of the beggars will have probably crocheted a replica of Buckingham Palace in half term.........I rather pleased with myself.........because I didn't give up. :congratulatory:

[IamMary]

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A director!! that's v impressive.. keep going at this pace and you'll be Dr Director in a couple of years!

Yes, I too was a bit flat in the early months, I suppose when the all consuming activity of planning to drink and actually drinking (ref back to the interesting statistic earlier this week, was it from Tony - 40% drinking 60% thinking about it), of course there is a void. I filled it by obsessively reading everything I could on peoples experiences, here and anywhere else.

That was very presumptions of me Molly! my closest buddy and I have moved to different floors recently in work, its not the same. Think Id be a bit devastated if it was further.

That's a great story [MENTION=7008]JackieClaire[/MENTION]. Funny how that thing we dread, always works out in the end. Worrying is a completely unnecessary emotion, I wish I could delete it :happy2:
Speaking of, wonder if Tabbers has heard anything more about his job??

Joined a running club tonight, at last. Hurray. Held my old.. lovely lively motivated group that don't look like they're going home to down a bottle of wine..

Off to bed on my wobbly legs. Night all..

[IamMary]

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I have finally after 5 weeks managed to crochet a granny square........back to class tomorrow. Its a sort of show and tell for the Granny Square Mafia.......although the rest of the beggars will have probably crocheted a replica of Buckingham Palace in half term.........I rather pleased with myself.........because I didn't give up. :congratulatory:

[mollyka]

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Morning!!

[JackieClaire]

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Daft as it sounds that was just about my reaction. :applouse:

Morning!!

Morning yerself.

Just a quickie as I'm heading out the door clutching my granny square......

[rustop59]

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Morning. Another one heading off with her crochet. Love ❤️ my Friday mornings.

[Rusty]

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Morning! 4:09 AM Here! Happy POETS' Day! :yay:

[satz123]

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Morning Army Alkos

Mr D'Arcy lots of great advice from the ladies there.
I can't add any more - only a shaggin cliche : This too will pass .....

Preachy Preachy Alert :egad:
I say this to myself as much as you.......... You are homing in on all that is wrong with life.
List all of the good things in life that you have - a gratitude list if you will :wink-new:.... it's amazing how we get bogged down in the negative.

My working now with the sick, old disabled and yes the downright MAD (sorry) has changed me a bit. I am SO GRATEFUL to walk out of there in the evening. They can't. Some are my age and sit in a chair all day - it's an eye opener.
I'm discovering a lot of the 'issues' are due to earlier lifestyle and alcohol is high up there with smoking.

Get over to Cowboy's 'Grateful' thread. It makes us have to think about what we already have..... when other things get us down.

Now tell me to :shutup: