Hi I just thought I'd check in. I have 4 glorious sober years under my belt. Even though my life has changed beyond belief and it has thrown the biggest challenges at me.
I am going through the Mother of all divorces where he is punishing me beyond belief. I have not had a drink. The last 4 years has tested my sobriety beyond belief. From walking past the off-licence every day in tears and despair (and resisting) to hallucinating that I was seeing vodka bottles everywhere calling to me. But I stayed strong. Being drunk would of been far worse than my crappy reality. I have left him and I now live on my own, and there is still no temptation to drink, as my sobriety is my core strength.
I wake up clear headed and able to process my day. I am overwhelmed some days, but I am sober. The Ex throws me another suckerpunch, and I can deal with it and ride it. And more importantly, Alcohol doesn’t control me anymore. It doesn’t haunt my every waking moment or thought. I am finally free and it is amazing. The Voices has stopped bothering me. I took away their voice. I stopped listening. I pulled rank !
I have found the most incredible spirituality through my sobriety and the Universe delivers the most amazing miracles daily, (Abraham Hicks) life is just Divine. I have gotten here by putting in the hard work and protecting my sobriety over everything else. My marriage threatened my sobriety so it had end. Friends had to go and I had to find me again. And I had to forgive myself too.
Being a desperate drunk was a sad existence. Now I can literally manifest miracles and I have never been happier. Life is literally fizzing in Sobriety and is amazing.
For those who dont know me, I struggled beyond belief for years and it had me gripped and intoxicated so badly. My life imploded and I nearly died twice in one week through drinking. But I had 2 choices. Drink and die or sober up and work at it, as if your life depended on it. Because it really did!
I hope if you are struggling you can reach for your toolbox and dig deep. Throw everything you have at it and don’t stop. Yes it’s hard, but being drunk is so much harder. I finally feel so free and it was worth every tear
I am going through the Mother of all divorces where he is punishing me beyond belief. I have not had a drink. The last 4 years has tested my sobriety beyond belief. From walking past the off-licence every day in tears and despair (and resisting) to hallucinating that I was seeing vodka bottles everywhere calling to me. But I stayed strong. Being drunk would of been far worse than my crappy reality. I have left him and I now live on my own, and there is still no temptation to drink, as my sobriety is my core strength.
I wake up clear headed and able to process my day. I am overwhelmed some days, but I am sober. The Ex throws me another suckerpunch, and I can deal with it and ride it. And more importantly, Alcohol doesn’t control me anymore. It doesn’t haunt my every waking moment or thought. I am finally free and it is amazing. The Voices has stopped bothering me. I took away their voice. I stopped listening. I pulled rank !
I have found the most incredible spirituality through my sobriety and the Universe delivers the most amazing miracles daily, (Abraham Hicks) life is just Divine. I have gotten here by putting in the hard work and protecting my sobriety over everything else. My marriage threatened my sobriety so it had end. Friends had to go and I had to find me again. And I had to forgive myself too.
Being a desperate drunk was a sad existence. Now I can literally manifest miracles and I have never been happier. Life is literally fizzing in Sobriety and is amazing.
For those who dont know me, I struggled beyond belief for years and it had me gripped and intoxicated so badly. My life imploded and I nearly died twice in one week through drinking. But I had 2 choices. Drink and die or sober up and work at it, as if your life depended on it. Because it really did!
I hope if you are struggling you can reach for your toolbox and dig deep. Throw everything you have at it and don’t stop. Yes it’s hard, but being drunk is so much harder. I finally feel so free and it was worth every tear
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