Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

[satz123]

Re: Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

:yay: SF inkele:

HOW BIG & ROUNDY ???

[satz123]

Re: Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

[MENTION=24080]Jude58[/MENTION]

Judy think it through to the end when you get that urge - you'll quickly see it just not worth it. We CANNOT just have one or two - we know that from experience!
All we need to do is re-live the last time we drank ! That is what keeps me sober.... yuk !!

[Jude58]

Re: Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

[MENTION=9094]satz123[/MENTION].....Thanks for the reminder, and normally that's what I would do, but lately all that I seem to remember is the pleasant buzz that I had with the first one or two drinks. My brain completely forgets the blackouts, hangovers and shame. Gotta change my thinking again. Thanks so much for the advice!

[NoSugar]

Re: Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

@satz123.....Thanks for the reminder, and normally that's what I would do, but lately all that I seem to remember is the pleasant buzz that I had with the first one or two drinks. My brain completely forgets the blackouts, hangovers and shame. Gotta change my thinking again. Thanks so much for the advice!

I can't really feel how awful it was anymore, Jude, so I deliberately remind myself of all the sneaking around to get and dispose of bottles and I picture what I must have looked like drinking directly out of the spigot of cheap boxed wine in the darkened kitchen. Pathetic! No way am I going to risk going back to that by choosing the temporary hit from a drink. We're in our "right minds" now so can make the necessary decision. At this point it really is no different to avoiding any substance or behavior that harms you. You'll be ok :hug:.

[Jude58]

Re: Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

I can't really feel how awful it was anymore, Jude, so I deliberately remind myself of all the sneaking around to get and dispose of bottles and I picture what I must have looked like drinking directly out of the spigot of cheap boxed wine in the darkened kitchen. Pathetic! No way am I going to risk going back to that by choosing the temporary hit from a drink. We're in our "right minds" now so can make the necessary decision. At this point it really is no different to avoiding any substance or behavior that harms you. You'll be ok :hug:.

Thanks NS....I was doing really well, and for the most part, not even thinking about the booze. As soon as the weather warmed up, Boom! The desire to drink came back with a vengeance. I know that I am just romanticizing the booze, but am struggling nearly as much as when I first quit 8 months ago. Nothing worthwhile comes easy I guess, and losing all that I've worked for would be such a waste and a tragedy. As you may know, I had a previous quit of nine years, and after awhile, rarely thought about having a drink. I know that if I hang in there, I will reach that point again.

Did you really drink directly out of the spigot of the wine box? I don't believe that I've ever done that...probably because I always added vodka to my cheap wine for a faster buzz. :exclaim:

As always, thank you for your support!

[satz123]

Re: Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

I can't really feel how awful it was anymore, Jude, so I deliberately remind myself of all the sneaking around to get and dispose of bottles and I picture what I must have looked like drinking directly out of the spigot of cheap boxed wine in the darkened kitchen. Pathetic! .

[MENTION=18725]NoSugar[/MENTION] Yes - that - and I documented the last hangover I had in 2013 - terrible.
I also have young Satz to remind me daily of how I was - I see him doing exactly the same things.
I seem to know EXACTLY where to look for the bottles of alcohol & the empties.

He sat at the table today & cried.
I had to harden my heart to the pity party and explain AGAIN that we are not able to have 'just one or two'
One or two leads to a binge - he should know that by now.

[satz123]

Re: Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

Did you really drink directly out of the spigot of the wine box? I don't believe that I've ever done that...probably because I always added vodka to my cheap wine for a faster buzz. :exclaim:

[MENTION=24080]Jude58[/MENTION] :shocked:
Jeez you were a REAL HARD CORE ALKIE :haha:
It's all relative - if what we're doing involves secrets and lies & feels 'wrong' then it is wrong I suppose ..... if we've chosen to live in society and live healthy happy lives.
If we don't care about those things then we should carry on boozing 'till we die.

[NoSugar]

Re: Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

It's all relative - if what we're doing involves secrets and lies & feels 'wrong' then it is wrong I suppose ....

This is how nutso I was by the end, [MENTION=9094]satz123[/MENTION]: it occurred to me that if it turned out that all the heaven business was really true, I sure wanted to have stopped before my parents died because of the mortifying thought of them "seeing" me do things like drain the spigot into my mouth!! I don't even actually think all those who have passed away are sitting somewhere up there keeping tabs on the rest of us, but I managed to obsess about that idea for months and months, worrying about how disappointed they would be when they found out the truth.

Here's a challenge for your son that might help drive home the point: For 30 days he must have exactly one (no more, no less) standard serving of his favorite alcoholic beverage at his 'witching hour'. Point out that for a non-addict, this would be as trivial as eating exactly one carrot each day at 5 p.m. I think that sounds so much harder than 30 days of abstinence!! All the best to both of you. xx

[YouKayBee]

Re: Super Sober Shout Out Sunday 13th May 2018

Hey I'm still here, still AF!!!!!