July Army Manoeuvres

[RunningCourage]

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Hello troopers,

Swirly - great wee post that. Aye, i recognise that all too well. Especially the looking forward to it, the highlight of the day, when i felt i could relax. And when it was a single beer, it was. But when it was 6 single beers... and then thinking that a top up of a whisky might be rare fine... then things look decidedly muggled, sore and pitiful the following morning. Waking up rueing the night before... alleviating guilt with running a few extra miles (@satz123 ... think young satz does all his running and cycling to alleviate guilt, help rid himself of the hangover quicker?... suppose it's kinda what i have done)... and then knowing, knowing, knowing, how easy it could happen again, but equally hoping upon hope that the next evening might be different.

I remember saying to a friend once that it's as if I wake up with God but go to bed with the Devil.

Actually...no.

Better to have said that...

I go to bed with the devil and wake up looking for god.

(Im not a religious type, i use these terms in a kind of archetypal way )

JC - I think yer tears of joy and relief at those boys being rescued are MORE than appropriate. Horrendous as it must have been, and a situation I'd never want anyone to go through, it was, oddly, so good to hear news that was, in the end, GOOD and that could bring happiness, joy, gratitude to anyone.

Aiming for an early night. late last night, up early birds and been on my arse most of the day fighting with the dissertation...

[JackieClaire]

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Because rich men like big boobs. Duh.

:harhar:

Trouble is there's more big boobs than rich men.

I keep trying to chat with my granddaughter, who lives with us these days, and realize she usually can't hear a thing I am saying because of the ear buds. sigh.

A big shout out to all. So many people here that I knew before. So much sobriety. It is wonderful.

Bridge, Just be good to yourself for a while. Gentle. Things get so much better.

My Granny used to say you should never put anything smaller than your elbow in your ear........have a try

[JackieClaire]

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Cross-post there, Arsey.
I did that much praying when I was drinking I could have been a nun.

I'm finding out through Jenny that teaching is not for sissies.

[rustop59]

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Evening all, wonderful to see the thread so active and fantastic reading today. Welcome Bridget and Cinders. Great they got all those boys out, don’t blame you for crying JC. I feel teaching is a vocation. Going to Netflix now for a while, night everyone.

[mollyka]

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Evening all! Just in from work - hot tired and sweaty -- ffs - I'm still moaning:victorious:
Hey Cindi!!! so good to see you from way back!
Two things I've been thinking - Starty - re. the starting over with the days again - I used to feel SO shite going back to Day 1 after sometimes many months of sobriety - until this time - this time I KNEW I wouldn't drink again so it seemed somehow irrelevant... not completely - I loved clocking up my days - but it didn't matter as much cos there wasn't an 'end' --- this was IT and I knew it...

Liver function Bridge -- mm first time sober - like Jackie - got the all clear and woops -- off I went - if you're not drinking - far better not knowing for a while - keep you on your toes ;-)

Jackie and Arsey -- dunno that I prayed - don't do that -- but it was as close to looking for 'something' as I was ever going to get - felt trapped in a cycle that I could not - and for that matter -- didn't really want to - get out of - I just wanted everyone to leave me alone.. but I didn't - if you get my drift - I know you all do -

Right -

[mollyka]

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dunno what the 'right' was about --- was finished:hahaha:

[IamMary]

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..right so Molly.

Late check in. Great posts tonight. Stirly, you described my world - I didnt even realise thats how it was, until I started to read and post here a few year ago. Everyone had entirely different lives but had this parallel cycle of spending the day obsessing about 'wine o'clock' (shit phrase as its celebrated and encouraged) and how prepared I was for the hours ahead.
Onwards Bridge, any drifting thoughts can feck off today. There is no lovelier feeling than the moment before you open your eyes in the morning, trying to figure out dreams from reality and then how much you might have drank last night.. when you remember, you didnt - its going to be a good day.:happy2:

[byebyebridgetjones]

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@byebyebridgetjones............I wouldn't bother with the liver function for a good while. I know in my past escapades as soon as my liver was performing at full strength I'd be straight back on the bottle. In fact the doctor I saw nine years ago must have been a mind reader because he said he wasn't going to do one for at least a year.

@stirly-girly........I just didn't eat.......if I was feeling particularly argumentative.......I'd wave a bottle at himself and say I was getting all the nutrients from the wine........full of fruit you see.........hic.......and sugars......hic. God, I was a right cow of pomposity.

Got a call just as I came out of the shops from Mr JC to say another 3 of the wee Thai boys are out off caves.......one of them asked for chocolate. .............I promptly burst into tears. Got some strange looks but feck 'em. Oh he got his chocolate.

Oh bloody bloody hell that reminds me of myself - both examples. I was happily sober too...
I see all of the boys are out of the caves now. I don't even know how they found them.

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Because rich men like big boobs. Duh.

I keep trying to chat with my granddaughter, who lives with us these days, and realize she usually can't hear a thing I am saying because of the ear buds. sigh.

A big shout out to all. So many people here that I knew before. So much sobriety. It is wonderful.

Bridge, Just be good to yourself for a while. Gentle. Things get so much better.

Oh my good Lord, look who it is!!!! Lovely to see you, girl.

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Thanks [MENTION=15758]rustop59[/MENTION] I just feel like I've wriggled right back in here, actually. [MENTION=22411]IamMary[/MENTION] again, so true. And the drinking dreams that you wake up terrified from thinking you've blown it. And the strange feeling of double guessing yourself about what happened last night - then realising that there's no need, you didn't drink. What a peculiar habit drinking is.
As for that Liver Function Test, I'm too scared to go anyway. I plan not to drink, which is what they'll advise me to do anyway. Had to Laugh at your Dr's advise not to do a LFT for 12 months JC. He had your number, girl. :welldone: I have got a bizarre dialogue going on with my current GP where she has done a number of preliminary tests which point STRAIGHT to the truth. I keep playing dumb because I don't want to go on the record. She keeps ordering more tests. I keep using more medical language to passive aggressively warn her off from 'saying it'. I know exactly what the numbers mean.
People such as we need a good, strong no-bullshit GP to confront us. There aren't many out there.

[rustop59]

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.. There is no lovelier feeling than the moment before you open your eyes in the morning, trying to figure out dreams from reality and then how much you might have drank last night.. when you remember, you didnt - its going to be a good day.:happy2:

Good morning everyone. Best feeling in the world, it always seems to happen to me on Sunday mornings, not having to jump out of bed, just lying there and I love it. Up early to take the doggies for a walk before work. Looks a little cooler. Have any of you heard about storm Chris? My fear is that when it starts raining it won’t stop!

[mollyka]

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YAY!!!! STORM CHRIS????!!!! Sounds like music to my ears

Morning - rushing cos I'm still walking to work - 3 days to get a scratch fixed ffs!!!

Bridgie - I liked having my doc in the know - he was very supportive but then our medical records can't be disclosed to anyone - maybe it's different over there? He told me I was the only person he ever met who exaggerated my drinking I wanted him to believe me!

[RunningCourage]

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Morning troopers.

Really good hearing stories/memories of what it was like for individuals on the AL front. Bridge, good to have you here sharing. I think I mind you from when I was first here, about 5 year ago... ?

Just been for an early morning run, had a couple of very strong coffees and now was settling down to work on the dissertation... and all i feel like doing is sleeping :haha: Can too much coffee do that?!?! Run was fun as I discovered the causeway crossing the river here was NOT underwater (most of the time it is) so was able to run across the river to the island. Love little discoveries like that on me runs.

Right, on to dissertation...

(starts looking online at running races...)

[mollyka]

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Morning Arsey - dressed and ready to go - Jilly finished her dissertation - just an oral Irish exam to do then she's finished - will she be pleased????!!! ach it'll be worth it Arsey - you've a lovely career ahead of you now for a lovely long healthy life - don't let it bog you down....
can anyone explain why the british royals are all flooding over here? just saw another lot have arrived -- just wonderin?
Right off to work and may be watering the garden all evening to avoid the football!!!
oh shit - we have a hose-pipe ban!!

[JackieClaire]

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Morning,
Why are the Royals over there? They're hiding from Trump. The Queen's working incognito as a chambermaid at Premier Inn and they've hidden the keys to Prince Phillip's tank. The rest I think you've got.

They're off up the road to watch tonight's match. I can't bear the stress. Even Mr JC the man of law and sensibilty turns into a 5 year old on Chrimbo Eve............he is beyond excited. I will probably watch Paddington Bear 2.

Molly your Jilly's done so well. You've got a strong young woman there.

Jenny's got her timetable for the nest school year and it includes Chemistry for year 9 girls (14/15 years old) the other teachers have said they'd rather sit in a tank of vipers than teach that age.

Can you use a watering can if there's a hose-pipe ban???