August Army Manoevres

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Arsey, that's one of the bravest posts I've ever seen, fella. How utterly awful, all of it.
I keep trying to get my young fella to counselling but he won't be in it. He needs it so badly.
What do you think about a male counselor? Someone more like you? Maybe even with a specialisation in that area.
Bless your parents for the way they handled it. We often don't give people credit for how strong they can be and feel as if we are the only ones who can cope.

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Sorry [MENTION=4030]sweetpea[/MENTION] I hadn't seen your question back there. I was a nurse for many years and also worked in the disability sector for many of them. I wanted a change and my back is buggered so now I work in research admin. It's as boring as batshit and pretty pointless work. I'm not used to working with privileged people. They honestly think that if they don't like their desk or don't like the sandwiches served at a training workshop it is a disaster. One of these days I'm going to explode and let them know what a real fucking disaster looks like out in the real world. Trouble is, they have never left the school yard. Many of them try working for a short time in the real world but they don't cope, so they come back to study something to avoid the workplace.
That's why I think kudos to you Arsey for your work decision.
Anyway, yesterday we went to see The Wife at the cinemas and it was truly brilliant. Glenn Close is amazing. We followed up with tapas and an afternoon in the garden. Lovely winter sun.
Today a bit of reading and some errands in town. I hate the city I live in. I've always hated it here. My master plan is to move out to a country town and start again once this latest nightmare is over.
Anyway, that's my babblefest for the day

[mollyka]

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Hey BB -- yup I too am sick of Dublin - sick to my tonsils of it - even tho we are on the outskirts - my long term plan is to move down the country - small town/village - near the sea and maybe an aul mountain or two ;-) |I get you for sure!!

Season 1 of the Handmaids Tale was fantastic Peapie hence my disappointment at Season 2 - but it's gone beyond the book so I think the ideas aren't there maybe - I'll soldier on!
\off to hospital to hopefully get this poxy cast off of me - I have full sympathy for ANYONE who hasn't full use of all their limbs - jeez |I've been one cranky mare for the last month.....
laters gaters

[RunningCourage]

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Morning troops.

Last day of freedom... :dread: back to school tomorrow...

:egad:


So, once arsey get's his arse in gear, he needs to look at his diary and give himself a routine - sure, school takes care of it, but it's good to plan ahead so not always chasing me proverbial tail. Directing a show over the next 10 weeks is going to take up a lot of time. Good that i'll be out and it's not school, but need to make sure i don't lose myself - get grumpy and resentful that I don't have enough down time. So gonna see what i can plan. That's this morning's work.

Then... dunno. Probably twiddle my thumbs until bedtime :haha: At least the kids aint back until Thursday.

Sweetpea - haven't thought about telling my brother. Dunno how he'd take it - probably shrug his shoulders?! Maybe in time. But the thing that was tearing me up inside was that my folks didn't know.

Bridge - thanks for your words, i'm trying to get in contact with a former flatmate of mine who was a counsellor to get advice. I don't actually know whether it's a counsellor i need, but i don't want to find the only thing that's changed/will change is that my folks know. I feel I have an opportunity now to change positively now that they know - relationships, food, drink, control etc...

Speaking of control, while out running yesterday i was running towards another runner, and he to me. And i was like, I'm on the right side of the path (there is no right side of the path) and I didn;t want to swing out, i.e. move so as he could run straight on. And clearly neither did he. I moved to the edge more. He wasn't budging. Eventually i moved to the centre of the path and as he passed I felt a wee bit angry. I mentally pushed him off the path, said under my breath "arrogant c***t" ...
and continued running...
and breathing...
and normally i would just feel angry, let it pass, move on...
and then i realised -
i was wanting to control him.
My anger was in part because i couldn't control him.
this wasn't about running, him against me, hatred, arrogance, being a dick.
this was about my need to control.
i think.

alternatively, it is me who is an arrogant c***t who thinks too much! :newhere:

happy monday troops!

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Season 1 of Handmaid's Tale was bizarre enough but as you say Molls they've gone off script with this season.I lasted for 2 episodes then gave up. Sometimes the producers think if they just do more of the same only even more out there that they'll keep the audience. I don't think so. When will they learn to just leave be? Big Little Lies is another one. Season 1 was unexpectedly excellent especially since Nicole Kidman was in it. Over-actor *cough* But apparently they are going in again.

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Arsey, surely it's understandable that when you've been put in a position where you've been out of control of your own life and body, as you have, that control might come to be an issue for you? The food and all that, a control issue maybe? Why wouldn't you want to control things so that the out of control can never happen to you again?
We all want to be in control of our own lives and yet, ironically, most of us aren't.

[satz123]

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Speaking of control, while out running yesterday i was running towards another runner, and he to me. And i was like, I'm on the right side of the path (there is no right side of the path) and I didn;t want to swing out, i.e. move so as he could run straight on. And clearly neither did he. I moved to the edge more. He wasn't budging. Eventually i moved to the centre of the path and as he passed I felt a wee bit angry. I mentally pushed him off the path, said under my breath "arrogant c***t" ...
and continued running...
and breathing...
and normally i would just feel angry, let it pass, move on...
and then i realised -
i was wanting to control him.
My anger was in part because i couldn't control him.
this wasn't about running, him against me, hatred, arrogance, being a dick.
this was about my need to control.
i think.

!

Jesus Arsey he WAS being a dick ....... but didn't know it - or if he did - fuck him. Saddo really.
It's our reaction to situations that cause upset - not the actual event.
Myself and my sister get it all the time on Howth Head. Young whippersnappers who don't even see us. Take over the whole path. My sister goes BANANAS and barges through them.
The way I see it is who gets to feel 'bad' by the encounter - her. She gets angry - in a bad humour - feels slighted - they haven't a clue and carry on their merry way.

I used to do the same but now I just say ah feck it - I can't stop them - they are consumed with hormones etc. - can't see past their own little world - laugh and let it go.


Alternatively - shout after him :cuss:

[RunningCourage]

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It's our reaction to situations that cause upset - not the actual event.
Myself and my sister get it all the time on Howth Head. Young whippersnappers who don't even see us. Take over the whole path. My sister goes BANANAS and barges through them.
The way I see it is who gets to feel 'bad' by the encounter - her. She gets angry - in a bad humour - feels slighted - they haven't a clue and carry on their merry way.

I used to do the same but now I just say ah feck it - I can't stop them - they are consumed with hormones etc. - can't see past their own little world - laugh and let it go.

Uhhh... were you like a Buddha in a previous life Doc?

The example you give basically exemplifies how I want to be more like (your reaction nae yer sis's!)

If ever i'm in search of a guru, i'm getting the next Ryanair flight out to see you for a blessing :haha:

[RunningCourage]

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Arsey, surely it's understandable that when you've been put in a position where you've been out of control of your own life and body, as you have, that control might come to be an issue for you? The food and all that, a control issue maybe? Why wouldn't you want to control things so that the out of control can never happen to you again?
We all want to be in control of our own lives and yet, ironically, most of us aren't.

Defo, Bridgey - food is a total control issue. It's a right f***er tbh, cos it can, at times, cos me total anxiety - i.e. when i'm not in control. An example being see my dad cook, splashing oil into a pan to fry bacon and tatties to add to some cream-based concoction he has on the go. Don't get me wrong - it tastes great (he's a dab hand in the 'ol kit hen), but inside I'm just like... :rant: when i really wan to just be eaceful:

Funny tho, I'm ok if out at a restaurant... most of the time.

AL's not so much about control, I don't think, but about soothing. Soothing that something i can't put my finger on; a feeling inside which is a kind of emptiness; sort of like my innards need a warm hug! And AL gave me that. It hugged me from the inside. But it also made me avoid what that true feeling was. And now I have to work on that. And make me able to hug myself from the inside.

[which is a tad difficult cos me arms are on the outside :eek-new:

And you're right - we all to some degree want control of our own lives... and i dare say that even when we think we have 'control', life is such a massive mystery and an unknown that we in fact don't. Not even them powerful peeps who supposedly run countries.

[NoSugar]

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Uhhh... were you like a Buddha in a previous life Doc?
The example you give basically exemplifies how I want to be more like (your reaction nae yer sis's!)
If ever i'm in search of a guru, i'm getting the next Ryanair flight out to see you for a blessing :haha:

I was really taken by [MENTION=9094]satz123[/MENTION]'s response to you, too, Running Courage. I'm learning more and more about Buddhism these days (listening to Allan Watts) but it was exploring The 3 Principles that put me on this path. There is a thread about it you might be interested in: https://www.mywayout.org/community/g...on-thread.html.
I wish you peace and contentment. :hug: NS

[satz123]

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Uhhh... were you like a Buddha in a previous life Doc?

The example you give basically exemplifies how I want to be more like (your reaction nae yer sis's!)

If ever i'm in search of a guru, i'm getting the next Ryanair flight out to see you for a blessing :haha:

:hahaha:

[satz123]

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I was really taken by [MENTION=9094]satz123[/MENTION]'s response to you, too, Running Courage. I'm learning more and more about Buddhism these days (listening to Allan Watts) but it was exploring The 3 Principles that put me on this path. There is a thread about it you might be interested in: https://www.mywayout.org/community/g...on-thread.html.
I wish you peace and contentment. :hug: NS

Namaste Ms Sugarless :namaste:

[rustop59]

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Greetings all. Back from safari and omg what an amazing experience, trip of a lifetime. Up every morning at 6 and full days. No way could I have experienced it or enjoyed it the way I did if I were drinking. Just in from work so need to get some food and have a read back. Hope all well.

[satz123]

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Just listened to a few of his recordings NS - lovely - and kinda how my mind has come to think in recent years. Life is too short for constant struggle - and to what end?
I could listen to his voice for hours makes you feel 'safe'.

Alan Watts ~ Let Go Of Attachment ~ featuring U.G. Krishnamurti/Terence McKenna - YouTube

[mollyka]

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Welcome back rusters!!!!
Delighted you enjoyed and well done re. the not drinking not always easy but makes every subsequent one so much easier xxx tell us about the highlights when you come back from feeding your face