August Army Manoevres

[satz123]

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found my copy of the Handmaid's Tale........thought I'd left in Scotland.

Is the book good Jacks ?- I enjoyed the first tv series but thought the second was kind of 'makey uppey'. Similar to when Game of Thrones ran out of book.

The handmaids suddenly all brave & chatty didn't sit well - but enjoyed it nonetheless.

[mollyka]

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Orf to work! Later gaters xxx

[brit]

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Lost my Anon -re Whizzy Lizzy due to internet stuff nor recognising me. Now Brit--Had a very difficult time due to Mr A (sorry now Mr B) being diagnosed with an an aggressive form of Cancer. Went back to drinking but decided that is the road to nowhere. Read back loads and pleased to see the progress of all you lot, Alcohol is a disease but have beaten it once and will do again--

[JackieClaire]

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[MENTION=22839]brit[/MENTION]

Oh god, Whizzy......... you'll always be that to us...... How is he now, darling?

[brit]

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Hi,Jackie He is on the couch next to me. He had two ops and all looks fairly ok. He is in loads of pain.My drinking started again when he was in hospital and I could not cope and we have a house full of posh wine.I do realise it is no help to me! Thanks for response X

[JackieClaire]

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You know, pet, I'm not sure I could handle something like you're going through.
I'm not going anywhere tomorrow if you fancy a wee phone call.

[satz123]

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Lost my Anon -re Whizzy Lizzy due to internet stuff nor recognising me. Now Brit--Had a very difficult time due to Mr A (sorry now Mr B) being diagnosed with an an aggressive form of Cancer. Went back to drinking but decided that is the road to nowhere. Read back loads and pleased to see the progress of all you lot, Alcohol is a disease but have beaten it once and will do again--

Oh GOD Ms A -:hug:
Not sure how any of us could handle that situation - you did what you thought best for you to feel better - probably worked for a long while but then the shit starts.
Please use this as a safe place to chat & vent and cry if you need to.

[brit]

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I know Satz! Oh God said it all--Anyway I am back, hoping that I can do it again I did think I was safe but pressure from everyone telling me to have a drink was so so seductive. Sorry to return here with my tail between my legs?

[brit]

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X Post on the safe place Satz.

[JackieClaire]

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Don't be worrying where your tail is, the good thing is you're back.

[starty]

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Oh Mrs A I am so very sorry. I am glad you are back though. You wont get better support than these lovely ladies and gents. Sending you and Mr A lots of loving healing thoughts

[starty]

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Bridgey, I am sorry too that you are struggling. It is a tough thing to do and with troubles as well doubly so. Hang on because as you well know, things will pass and change they always do.

Rusty, your safari sounds like absolute bliss. I am dead jealous of it.

[brit]

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Thanks Starty will stay close X

[mollyka]

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oh my lovely Whizzy - I'm so sorry you've been through all that - sometimes maybe we are tested beyond our abilities to cope... ffs darling - we are addicts - it's our go-to thing - each and everyone of us could raise that glass in the next 5 minutes -- how wonderful you are here - and hopefully MrA will recover - life really can be a bitch my love :hug:

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Ah Bridgey I'm sorry you are struggling... life is a bitch when it throws curve balls left right and centre all at one time and it can be just overwhelming... what can I say besides clichés - nothing and that's a fact -- but I CAN remind you of a couple of well worn clichés - both of which I brought into use in the last three days

I've been worrying about one of my sprogs - truly worrying - it's potentially pretty rotten tbh - and have found myself sleepless and tossing and turning etc etc.... but shit - I tapped back into what I learnt in the treatment centre - and funnily enough for this situation it wasn't anything from there that came to my mind but the Serenity Prayer - just the first 3 lines - the rest is a bit mumbo jumbo - and it truly helped -- what on this godforsaken earth use is it me worrying about something I can do fuck all about? It nearly absolved me if that makes any sense....

The other one was yesterday - I was getting the cast off in the hospital - so many old people in such states - bent over in wheelchairs with neck braces and wounds where they'd obviously fallen... and just seemed so sad... shuffle forward 3 hours - I'm out on my favourite 'toy' the bike - it's my peaceful time... it's meditation on wheels !!! BUT -- one of my intercom pads had wriggled itself out of position in my helmet and it was squashing my head - well - I was moaning like a good thing in my sore squashed head -- MISERY!!!! and then - I though about those poor old people... and I looked around me - driving along the estuary - the sea like a mill pond and swans sailing around serenely and the sun shining - and I just tapped back into gratitude -- we have to live in the moment more - and that moment could be about my squashed head or my beautiful situation - my squashed head truly seemed to fade away..... I am forgetting so many 'tools' tbh - I think one of Starty's retreats may be exactly what I need anyway - and maybe you too??

Mols, you are a real sweetie.
You are all a mob of sweeties.
I have woken up early after another dreadful dream about losing control. Happens a lot lately.
You are so right about brushing up on the tools, Mols. That may have been one of the problems, taking it all for granted and imagining that I was cured and could handle anything life threw at me. And for the most part I did. Doing it all alone is a big factor. Mostly I prefer to be by myself and self-reliant but that's a big part of our faulty thinking as boozehounds - not asking for help. Quite frankly, my family could be doing a shit ton more for me than they ever have, but I won't ask and they won't offer. Round and round we go.
This would be the perfect time to take things one day at a time and enjoy the swans in life rather than the squashed heid, as you say.
I'm sorry about the sproglette. It's bloody hard to separate from them and see yourself as a distinct person again with your own boundaries. Sometimes I wonder if I'd maintained those boundaries all through my parenting whether things might have turned out differently? We'll never know I suppose.