August Army Manoevres

[IamMary]

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Well said Ladies.
I remember feeling sick with nerves writing the first post, partly because I didnt know if anyone would respond and partly because I didn't really know how to do this.. live without alcohol.
I learned so much here.

Whens the OP rescheduled for Mrs A? That's very annoying. Well done on the Marathon entry! Ive signed up for my 1st one:egad:

Starty, the retreat sounds fabulous! On my bucket list...

[IamMary]

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You lucky lot the Pope in August and JC in October

:welldone:

[JackieClaire]

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Well said Ladies.
I remember feeling sick with nerves writing the first post, partly because I didnt know if anyone would respond and partly because I didn't really know how to do this.. live without alcohol.
I learned so much here..

If its any consolation it took me 9 months to make my first post...........joined Sept 2008..........posted July 2009...........I was two days into a medical de-tox......so a slightly out of my gourd post but I was still terrified no-one would answer.

The nine-month delay was my arrogant thinking I could still handle my drinking. It took a long time to get it into my thick skull that its a damned sight easier just to give alcohol the swerve with all its trials and tribulations. While I probably didn't drink as much as I had done.........I was a hiding bottles sneaky barefaced liar not only to my family but myself.

Meeting a pal tomorrow who sounds like he's at rock bottom. Suppose its a bit of a 12 step thing. Have to thump into him again he's a good man, a good father (he's a single father), a talented artist and get out of the fecking house.

Nighty night lovelies. Sleep well in your sobriety. :heartbeat:

[rustop59]

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Good morning everyone. Always sleep so well in my sobriety it’s one of the things I am most grateful for. Feel for you Mrs A, that’s a pain re the op, am sure you will be relieved when all over. Very busy day ahead, cars mainly. Daughter took wing mirror off my car while I was away so need to bring that in and now his is showing warning light re tire pressure so have to have that seen to. On a more positive note I’m off out with doggies for walk in the woods and went to Unislim for my weigh in at 7 this morning, gained 4lbs but given the amount of food I put away and no exercise I’m well 😃 pleased. Went into new place in town yesterday, Mixd or some such name, all healthy stuff you can get in lunch box or dinner box. I got it for lunch, very tasty. Have a great day everyone.

[mollyka]

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Morning Rusters -- sympathies re. the cars - I literally brushed off a pillar in the carpark where I work and it cost me 450 yoyo's only 2 months ago --- sodding shite!!!
Morning all else - just made the dinner for tonight - I'm on late shift so relaxing now for a few mins before the madness begins:congratulatory:

[mollyka]

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and as regards the first post here -- I remember tentatively and drunkenly at 3AM writing here and waking up the next morning and remembering - and the horror of what I had done!!!! and THEN -- worse still (in my anxious stress-ridden deeply depressed state of mind) when I eventually plucked up the courage to have a look - someone (still can't remember who it was - someone with an angel as their avatar I think) had sent me a PM -- and I thought I was being stalked - and was going to be exposed to the world - I remember slamming the laptop shut - and wouldn't look again for DAYS!!!! ffs -- pathetic or WHA????

[brit]

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Great posts as usual. I can remember that I always got what I needed here.
Mr A out this morning which is the first time for months he hasn't been 2 inches away from me.
While he has been out I have had my first crying session. I feel upset about everything big things and little things but mainly about the drinking and the Cancer.
I have decided today is the day I formulate a plan for myself which includes eating better food, NO alcohol and running again.
Mr A has already had 3 ops and this one that has been cancelled was a check that they had got all of the tumour last time. They have not given a rescheduling date.

[byebyebridgetjones]

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and as regards the first post here -- I remember tentatively and drunkenly at 3AM writing here and waking up the next morning and remembering - and the horror of what I had done!!!! and THEN -- worse still (in my anxious stress-ridden deeply depressed state of mind) when I eventually plucked up the courage to have a look - someone (still can't remember who it was - someone with an angel as their avatar I think) had sent me a PM -- and I thought I was being stalked - and was going to be exposed to the world - I remember slamming the laptop shut - and wouldn't look again for DAYS!!!! ffs -- pathetic or WHA????

Jesus that just made me laugh. I can just see it.

[brit]

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I have just looked at my join date. It says 2nd Feb 2016--Where did that come from??

[byebyebridgetjones]

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I hope we all do Starty. Welcome back Mrs A and sorry about your husband, there but for the grace of God go any of us. So glad you came back . You too Bridge, we all learn something from each other. I am another one guilty of trying to do everything on my own, thought it was part of being a stay at home Mom for so many years. Have to say I’ve gotten much better since I went back to work. Did not get near as stressed having a full house this summer. Wasn’t as hung up on having things perfect and made it as easy as possible for myself.

I'd have a quiet bet that 90% of people in treatment would say the same.

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Anon, great to see you and Im very sorry to ready about the shit time your having. Hows Mr A(b) doing (that name will stick :-)) New day tomorrow, will you get out for a bit of a run?



Guilty about not asking for help. Is it a control thing? Im really trying to change this. Well we all arrived here and hoped we would find help.. progress. My pact with myself was that Id join AA if it nothing panned out. Thank EVERYone it did!
Is there something getting at you Bridge? Why do you feel like your getting to the end? Did you ever get involved with AA?

I just got to this stage last time. All the arguments and excuses I was making in support of alcohol and my 'right' to drink started sounding hollow even to my ears.

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Late check- in tonight folks



Bridget I'm very sorry to hear you're struggling too but I want to thank you for sharing cos selfishly it is helping me in my own wee head battles. So glad you're back here again and know you have it in you to beat the fecker hands down! BTW Bridge we ain't all runners! Hell no!
And Molls your response to Bridge was just what I needed to read today x thank you too x





Night all x and morning Bridget

Got to say, I had also stopped talking about drinking because it didn't seem relevant to me any more. Wasn't part of my life any more. But it's still there sneaking around waiting for a vulnerable moment.

[brit]

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Got to say, I had also stopped talking about drinking because it didn't seem relevant to me any more. Wasn't part of my life any more. But it's still there sneaking around waiting for a vulnerable moment.

So true Bridge-- I suppose we will have be vigilant for the rest of our days. Hope you are feeling better?

[mollyka]

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Morning again --- ermmmm - to all the ladies.... where in the name of god are all the lads? Well I'll excuse Arsey from that - hope his first day back went well --
One of the biggest things I took out of AA was the fact that we can NEVER not be vigilant -- people relapse at 20-30 years sobriety - and unfortunately - it's not as simple as picking up where we left off - we all know that... one drinking session (as in - prolly bout 3 drinks at this stage !) would 100% set me back to my Day 1 - the years spent building my confidence - my happiness - my knowledge of who I am would be eliminated - maybe some can... I certainly can't - so no earthly chance can I ever forget that...

[abcowboy]

I read here everyday Molly, just never sure when to add my 2 cents lol.