January 2019 Army Manoeuvres

[rustop59]

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[satz123]

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My boys are my absolute reason for keeping going, their need and their love and acceptance is all I really need.....and a bit of money for food and petrol :haha:

:hug: Starts. you have it in one there [MENTION=22456]starty[/MENTION]
You sound like you need a boost.
In fact you sound like I did a few years back. Your serotonin levels are low and that can be fixed. I went to the doctor and cried my heart out & I don't cry easily. She gave me Sertraline and they were brilliant. Took it going to bed & slept like a log ! They take up to 6 weeks to kick in and bring levels to normal but were worth the wait.

I agree on the lads being a comfort. Our world revolves around Rosie - we love her to pieces - pity I didn't have her way back then .......
Dogs live in the moment and are always happy - no baggage - no analysing everything - that is why we love them .....

[satz123]

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Off to work :llama:
Till 8pm tonight

[JackieClaire]

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Morning,
It must be Baltic out there. Just had a look out the window and the school kids trooping up to the Metro have got their big coats on and some are even wearing wooly hats :egad:
I've been recording a load of old Law and Order and Law and Order SVU. And got a backlog of Vikings to watch

The one thing that kept me going in my darkest days was the fact that the dog needed to be fed, needed to be let out or walked. The times you're crying your heart out and nudge of a wet nose or a paw on your knee to let you know its going to be okay.

There's some complicated science about how wolves came to the humans and how they tamed us not the other way round. I'll have a look later to find a link.

[JackieClaire]

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A little light reading..........

It is dogs who trained humans, not the other way round

We Didn’t Domesticate Dogs. They Domesticated Us.

[MENTION=15758]rustop59[/MENTION]........beautiful was that this morning.

[MENTION=9094]satz123[/MENTION].........

[starty]

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Thanks Ladies. You are right, I do need a boost. I am running on empty and the cravings today have been brutal and more than just a passing thought. Not keen on going on ADs again just yet but would never rule them out as they are helpful.

Had convo with one of bosses today to find out what score is. Mat woman has put in appeal and they have to deal with that (I am very pissed off as she put it in on the last day she could thus holding up matters more than necessary) I have said I do not want to work with someone who is not happy in their role as I will be left holding the baby. I have stressed I am flexible and just want to know what I am doing so I can plan my life. They have thanked me for my patience and appreciate my flexibility blah blah. They have assured me I will get an answer next Friday as to what will happen next. I have queried if it may be a no but they implied that would not happen. Jayzus

[starty]

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Exactly my dear but at least you realise and are working a plan for it. I still make the mistake of thinking that everything will work out when you give up the substances. But it doesn't . Not all by itself anyway. It's just the way that you respond that changes dramatically.

Been there and tried that for YEARS. 2019 is time to take a diff approach. Being an impatient so and so I am finding the waiting game extremely hard.

[IamMary]

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Hang in there [MENTION=22456]starty[/MENTION], next Friday is also the end of the January ink: You'll have another week in the bag and you can start to properly plan. Its like breaking up with the boyfriend, once youve made the decision, it cant happen quick enough!

Agree, giving up the substance abuse doesnt fix everything, but it gets the mojp back and leaves a bit of space in the previously obsessed brain, to think. Although the obsession about not drinks lingers for a while, the fecker.

[starty]

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Morning all. Very quiet round these parts. Is everyone having january blues? You are right Mary, soon will be the end of Jan. Cannot bloody wait. Do you still obsess about it?

[rustop59]

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Good morning everyone. As Mary says hang in there Starty and hopefully all will work out. I find the longer I’m af the less I even think about it, just a fleeting thought every once in a while. Do need to keep being alcohol free to the forefront of my mind and that’s why I read and check in every day.

Another cold one here. About to walk the doggies and then going into city to meet two friends for lunch. Satz, where are you watching silent witness,? Could not find on Netflix last night.

[satz123]

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Satz, where are you watching silent witness,? Could not find on Netflix last night.

The really old series are on one of those 'Drama' channels or something. I just series linked them.
Lovely & gorey ....
I'll check later which channel.

[IamMary]

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Evening,

Morning all. Very quiet round these parts. Is everyone having january blues? You are right Mary, soon will be the end of Jan. Cannot bloody wait. Do you still obsess about it?

No, I dont obsess now, but like Rustop, keep AF up there in my mind, my badge of honor. I do of course get romantic notions of a glass of white wine looking out over the sea etc etc, so checking in here every day is my reality check.

No JC today??

[byebyebridgetjones]

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Morning all. Trying madly to post from phone to keep up. What an exercise in madness is it typing on this tiny thing?

[rustop59]

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Morning all. Trying madly to post from phone to keep up. What an exercise in madness is it typing on this tiny thing?

Good morning Bridget and everyone else. I cannot do it Bridget, have to wait until I get on the iPad. Yea where is JC? :hug::hug:hope you ok. Busy day ahead, lots of running and racing and the fellas still on the roof. Catch you all later.

[starty]

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Hi Rusty and Bridge. Yes I hope you are OK jax.

Rushing out myself. Have a good one all