Re: August Army Thread 2019
Morning and Evening All,
Big wave to Mr G.
By sheer coincidence I just got off the phone with the very same cousin. She has never phoned on Wednesday night, only Sunday arvo when she's not working and very drunk. That was sincerely the most laborious phone call I've had in a long time. I have no right to judge but I would just like to issue an unconditional and heart felt apology to anyone I've ever bored sh*tless with my drunken, borish, argumentative, obnoxious, bombastic, repetitive, pissed conversation. Conversation karma indeed.
It's really driven home to me how satisfied I am to be sober and not back in that hell. I do feel as if I've hit my sober stride again but can't let myself forget how early on it is as you say JC. If that means just staying in my safe little comfort zone for a while, that's what will have to happen.
And Satzy, you are so right. She doesn't give a rats arse about my welfare. She just wants a drinking partner. As a matter of fact, I've always known that she is a diabolically selfish person. She was actually bemoaning the fact that her best friend has just given up all substances. I asked her if she's not proud of her friend and pleased that she's happy and content with herself, but no 'she's boring'.
I think you are all correct. I can't go and I don't want to waste my precious time that way. It's hard to give up a lifetime of doing what suits everyone else and never what's good for me. About time I learned.
You know, if we could all see a video of ourselves in action as drunks, I wonder if we would have drunk for as long as we did? Some of us have had the redoubtable pleasure of seeing wedding videos with our drunken nemesis' staggering around the dance floor. Maybe a spot of CCTV from around the home 'midnight gardening' as I used to do, enthusiastically shredding the flower beds and laying on the path with a sports bottle full of vodka, talking to myself. Addiction is really the thief of dignity, isn't it?
Morning and Evening All,
Big wave to Mr G.
By sheer coincidence I just got off the phone with the very same cousin. She has never phoned on Wednesday night, only Sunday arvo when she's not working and very drunk. That was sincerely the most laborious phone call I've had in a long time. I have no right to judge but I would just like to issue an unconditional and heart felt apology to anyone I've ever bored sh*tless with my drunken, borish, argumentative, obnoxious, bombastic, repetitive, pissed conversation. Conversation karma indeed.
It's really driven home to me how satisfied I am to be sober and not back in that hell. I do feel as if I've hit my sober stride again but can't let myself forget how early on it is as you say JC. If that means just staying in my safe little comfort zone for a while, that's what will have to happen.
And Satzy, you are so right. She doesn't give a rats arse about my welfare. She just wants a drinking partner. As a matter of fact, I've always known that she is a diabolically selfish person. She was actually bemoaning the fact that her best friend has just given up all substances. I asked her if she's not proud of her friend and pleased that she's happy and content with herself, but no 'she's boring'.
I think you are all correct. I can't go and I don't want to waste my precious time that way. It's hard to give up a lifetime of doing what suits everyone else and never what's good for me. About time I learned.
You know, if we could all see a video of ourselves in action as drunks, I wonder if we would have drunk for as long as we did? Some of us have had the redoubtable pleasure of seeing wedding videos with our drunken nemesis' staggering around the dance floor. Maybe a spot of CCTV from around the home 'midnight gardening' as I used to do, enthusiastically shredding the flower beds and laying on the path with a sports bottle full of vodka, talking to myself. Addiction is really the thief of dignity, isn't it?
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