Disappointed in Myself, But Lesson Learned

[julie001]

Hi all,

Well, I really disappointed myself last night. I have been doing really well on not drinking alone at home. I have occasionally, but I haven't gone overboard and have cut way back as far as how often. But last night I really outdid myself. Today I woke up with all of those anxiety-ridden feelings that I haven't felt in a long time--not to mention, a horrible hangover. Thank god my husband didn't express his disappointment because I was already so angry with myself. In the past, I probably would have resorted to drinking again tonight to alleviate all of the rotten feelings I am having today, but I think that my thought process in regards to my alcohol addiction is finally beginning to change. (Thanks to MWO.) I hated waking up this morning feeling so awful both physically and emotionally. In the past few months I have gradually been able to wake up feeling healthy and happy more often than not. Will I drink tonight? Absolutely not. Anyway, I just needed to unload. I'm feeling pretty awful today, and I suppose in an odd way that is a good thing. I don't want to allow myself to become ambivalent about my drinking. Thanks for listening.

Julie

[hart]

Disappointed in Myself, But Lesson Learned

Welcome to the club. I did the same thing about a week ago, after 30 some days. I do think because you have that mindset of you are not going to drink to alleviate the GUILT you feel, that IS an important change:goodjob: Don't beat yourself up today. Consider it a lesson learned and move on, your husband didn't say anything because these things happen. Take gentle care of yourself, drink lots of fluids to rehydrate and forget the guilt remember the lesson.:l

[lushy]

Disappointed in Myself, But Lesson Learned

Hi Julie, been there, done that. Be proud of the fact that your mindset is changing and you know you do not want to drink tonight. It is that shift in changing your relationship with alcohol that will keep you going in the forward direction. I am sorry you feel crappy today but it sounds like you are making really great strides.....

[Guest]

Disappointed in Myself, But Lesson Learned

It's over! A new day starts a new chance to reach your goals. try to focus on your success not your failure. Your doing great. Chin up Jules!
Smiles
Mar

[Saint Jude]

Disappointed in Myself, But Lesson Learned

Julie, Sorry you're feeling bad. (Been there myself wayy too many times )
But like others have already said, don't beat yourself up. It won't do any good. Just get back on that horse, and move on.
You haven't lost what you already have as far as progress. Maybe just lost a little bit of "footing".
Definately look at your successes, there's many more to come!
:l
Judie

[diamond]

Disappointed in Myself, But Lesson Learned

hi julie, its ok. you are allowed to slip you know, just remember you are doing well.

[sujul]

Disappointed in Myself, But Lesson Learned

Hey Julie--
I agree with the others--look at the positives, feel good about what you've accomplised and remember how great you felt all those mornings waking up without a hangover! And, just think, if you don't drink today, you will feel like that again tomorrow!

A pat on the back for all the AF days, a hug for last night.

Be kind to yourself--

[Guest]

Disappointed in Myself, But Lesson Learned

No worries Julie. Am only 2nd wk. moderating, but already have a self-forgiving attitude. Am learning to chill - sure, I want to be soooooooo good, but if I`m bad, I will just try and be better the following day. I ABSOLUTELY ADORE wine, so can expect to be bad from time to time!!! lol

Chin up,

Starlight Impress

[Kitty]

Disappointed in Myself, But Lesson Learned

Julie,

Everyone has given you some great advise. I particularly like what Hart said about not aleviating the guilt with more drink. Sounds like your mindset is changing which is great. It's scary isn't it how we get traped in cycles.

Take care,

Kitty