2023!!! Jan Army thread

[rustop59]

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Grr must be catching. Just lost long post from my phone.

Welcome Ne, good to have you on board. Glad you managed nap Battle. As Mary said you have achieved so much can you imagine what is ahead of you sober.

I am watching Yellowstone too, love it. Have any of you Irish ladies read Anna McPartlin? Just finished Under the big blue sky, gave me a few chuckles.

Off to get my eyes tested. Absolutely hate having to pick out frames.

[Battle_for_the_sun]

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Morning all,

Back to work today, working from home so at least i could sleep in, another late night but thank god minus the hot/cold/shivering situation that kept me up until 6 the night before. Progress I guess. Work officially sucks haha - I've come back to an average of a dozen e-mails per day, and for people who love e-mailing me these folks sure are terrible at communicating with each other - so many things could be solved if they just asked the person sat next to them at a desk what the situation is. Anyway I've my camera off in a meeting and I'm here and then I'm job hunting because yikes, since coming back to work clean in January I've realised this is actually a terrible place to work haha.

Anyway, day 3, historically the worst for me but not letting that put me off, as you said Molly no chance of serious withdrawals thankfully, honestly I hate to say it but splitting between pills in the day and AL at night probably saved things from getting too bad with either one - means two sets of minor withdrawals rather than dealing with anything more serious. Just grateful my anxiety wouldn't let me do both at the same time or this situation could have turned out very different.

[Battle_for_the_sun]

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Me all morning: Why do I usually hate day 3? Day 3 is fine.

Me, late afternoon: OHHHHH that's when the depression and self-loathing kick in, gotcha xD

On the positive side, I can at least laugh at the fact that this was so so predictable and yet I somehow failed to predict it.

[mollyka]

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Me all morning: Why do I usually hate day 3? Day 3 is fine.

Me, late afternoon: OHHHHH that's when the depression and self-loathing kick in, gotcha xD

On the positive side, I can at least laugh at the fact that this was so so predictable and yet I somehow failed to predict it.

Well I hope day 3 is done and dusted?? I loved getting those first days out of the way and being able to start making sense of my feelings....maybe don't dwell on feelings too much for a while either....distraction was the key for me at the beginning xx

[Battle_for_the_sun]

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One Hour and 35 minutes to go Molly, but who's counting eh? haha. Honestly I'll feel better when I'm working on my actual research, my only distraction for the last few days has been a very stressful funding application and its definitely not the kind of distraction I need haha. Deadline is Friday so it'll be a relief when its done but until then I'm all of a panic, and then there's the wait to here back...

[satz123]

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Morning all !
Inchy

Anyway I've my camera off in a meeting and I'm here and then I'm job hunting because yikes, since coming back to work clean in January I've realised this is actually a terrible place to work haha.

That is exactly what happened with me - even down to "camera on my laptop is broken" :haha:

I think I put up with a lot of crap in work while still drinking every night. I wouldn't have a hangover as such but I couldn't have been firing on all cylinders.......so was focused on not messing up and just went through the motions
When I got sober I lost all interest in the job - couldn't care less about the weekly Indicators !
They were a company manufacturing computer chips to make shareholders rich not to save the world like they'd have us believe. Our team was being used to to pay and administer benefits to the worker bees, keep them happy and listen to their gripes.
I dragged myself in there for the next 3 years then scarpered with a wedge of money in my back pocket.

Now I'm in the Nursing Home and love it. (unless I look too closely at my payslip) !
In the firing line meeting people, yapping all day, with the odd bit of Admin thrown in to keep the 'ol brain ticking over
Another plus is - in a house full of 80-90 year olds - I'm a youngone :haha:

[rustop59]

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In the firing line meeting people, yapping all day, with the odd bit of Admin thrown in to keep the 'ol brain ticking over
Another plus is - in a house full of 80-90 year olds - I'm a youngone :haha:

Morning everyone

That’s my two days to a T. Well it’s not full of 80/90 years olds but the postman told me one day I was a grand young one, always in good humour, made my day.

Went for my eye test yesterday. First time since 2018! I am shortsighted and it seems my left eye stayed the same and my right eye has improved. About the only thing that has improved with age. I had damaged the glasses I had for watching tv so was not using them as much as they did not sit comfortably. Eye must have improved as a result. They are still using ppe at opticians so trying on frames with a mask was not fun. I like my sunglasses so just getting new lenses in those and picked another frame roughly same shape.

That’s my good news for the day. Glad you have those first three days over Battle. Must be nearly a month with the other? Where is JC? She has not been around in a few days. Hope all your appointments going ok Starty?

Off to do my grocery shop and then getting my hair done.

[mollyka]

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Morning! I am lazy as sin and just leave my specs on all the time....definitely don't need them when out and about...long vision nigh on perfect ffs!
Yes Starty...hope the visits and tests going okay for you? Nearly time for MrS to get going as well? How is he in himself?
Jackie...all okay at home? MrJC okay?

Having a lazy day today...I've planted up carrots onions garlic celery beetroot lettuce and started lots of flowers...now to sit and watch them!
Joe has gone swanning off to some music thing....better social life down here than in Dublin.

So now I have to reconstruct my imagined view of you Rusters....a young'un now!!! It's so funny when we imagine our virtual friends and then the reality is something else altogether!!

[JackieClaire]

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Afternoon,
I'm still alive and so is Mr. JC. In my humble opinion I think that Mr JC and his sister sat by his Dad's bed while he was dying made it easier for them now he's at peace. We scattered his ashes under one of his favourite trees in their garden. Ma-in-law is in a nursing home (she's 98 next month and chose it herself)............we went up to see her and she's very bitter but thanks to google its not uncommon after loosing a loved one. We got shoved out because it was lunch time.

My Aunt's death sent me into a bit of a spin. She was one of the six sisters my Dad had. Only two left unfortunately one has dementia but the other is still as bright on the button.

I've finally stopped laying face down on the settee............... well I had to as the woman who does my nails came today and we've got a quiz night at my pal's gym.

[starty]

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Hi all, Thanks for asking. I have to say this week I feel a tad broken. Its been hospital every day although just for blood tests, it still feels stressy. I have a problem with my eye and was given an urgent referral to the hospital before xmas and I called them today to find out what's happening and they tell me they've not received it. Pissed off doesn't cover it. Anyway, big appt for Mr S tomorrow with the bowel thing. We will have to leave about 7am and it will be. along wait. He cant eat anything now until its over so I have bought some choccy biscuits to eat upstairs. Next Friday is the consultant for the cancer and CT results. It all just seems a bit much at the moment.

Rustop I think that can happen that vision improves. Mr S has great vision. I dont unfortunately.

Great stuff on the 3 days Inchy. I am sure you will start to see some benefits especially as you are a good way away from the painkillers.

Someone from my team got the sack yesterday. No idea why, but it was a shock. I guess if you dont fit the company for any reason, its best for all to cut ties.

My first stint of sobriety saw me leave my job of 13 years too. Took the wedge and scarpered. Dont regret it but if I had stayed, I would be looking at a very good pension and high wages. But cant complain really, I do OK money wise considering I work only 3 days.

Right, time to get the boys out for a walk. Thats probably why I feel out of sorts. Missed the early morning walk for the last 2 days!

[rustop59]

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So now I have to reconstruct my imagined view of you Rusters....a young'un now!!! It's so funny when we imagine our virtual friends and then the reality is something else altogether!!

I’m not a young one Molly, 61 except in my head I’m only 25! That is why it was such a compliment.

Glad you ok JC, enjoy your quiz and getting your nails done. Hospital visits are stressful at the best of times Starty and you are having an overdose. Get out on those walks. I swear it is the only thing that has kept me sane.

[Battle_for_the_sun]

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Evening all,

Day 28 clean, day 4 AF. A lot of stress today, finally dealt with the backlog of e-mails but I'm sure come Tuesday it'll be right back to where I started. Finished up finance application and submitted only to notice a typo after. Nothing major but definitely a rough one, a lot of temptation to hide in old habits. I have a couple of sobriety-related apps on my phone and I'm finding one of them kind of helpful - sends me motivational quotes and check in reminders about every hour - even if they're not always helpful to read it puts me back in the right mindset that I want to do this.

Satz - job satisfaction is definitely more important than the take home, at least if/when you can afford it. I only took the job I have now because I couldn't afford my rent working at the last place, but I was definitely happier there. From what I gather management changed and its miserable there now too so no going back. Least if I get this scholarship I'm after I can quit all together.

rustop - I hate glasses shopping too, especially since the pandemic with all the PPE. Doesn't help last time I went in I was browsing frames and a guy working there decided to inform me i should be looking at the women's frames - I've never had women's in my life I'm not about to start now.

Molly - I'll send my guinea pigs round for a taste test of the carrots - they won't stand a chance haha.

JC - hope getting your nails done and going to the quiz can help brighten the day for you

Starty - sounds like you've an awful lot on, wishing you the best with it it can't be easy. I'll be honest I opted out of my work's pension - I just can't afford to be losing any money now and in fairness I got a bit nihilistic with the pills and the drinking and didn't think I'd be making use of it. I wouldn't be staying much longer anyway with any luck - hoping to land a lecturing/research role at the university once I'm settled into my course more.

[satz123]

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the postman told me one day I was a grand young one, always in good humour, made my day.

And why not Rusters ...... I'd be exactly the same.
Ah sure God love us. We have to take anything we can get these days :haha:

[mollyka]

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And why not Rusters ...... I'd be exactly the same.
Ah sure God love us. We have to take anything we can get these days :haha:

Dead right! Oh and I did know what age you are Rusters...but as my mum used to say ' you must look good for it' if the postman is impressed:welldone:
Just saying goodnight....had a lovely afternoon hike out around the lake...heading off to the Burren tomorrow.
Thinking of you Starty....that's an awful lot going on for both of you....just try and take it one day at a time...Thinking of it altogether could be overwhelming....xxx

Night all!

[IamMary]

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I like your postman Rusters! We are exactly a decade apart. He'd probably think me a small child

My long sight is also improving! But I'm getting worse for reading. I don't need glasses yet, but its close.

Battle, your doing so well. And best of all, your determined.

Thinking about you [MENTION=22456]starty[/MENTION] xxx

Night all.

Oh ps. You know when you think you lost a post, even on your phone. Click the back button, slowly, a few times. As it's saved/cached, it usually does reappear. 9/10 times anyway.