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[rachel28]

right then, any suggestions, as few may know i have been dr, big step 4 me, 4 those who dont read my posts!!! only joking!!! anyway mon i have blood tests an after results will b starting some meds poss librium, i think thanks su 4 the name, im useless at all the names, im just used to shuving strange drugs down my neck, obviously unprescribed an 4 the unperscribed affects they have when u wash them down with beer, any way to get bk to my point, ITS FRI , i have moderatly moderated, ish in preparing, my bf is trying to get his head around the severity of what he s gonna have to deal with, i dont think he will untill i drag him to the drs to hear my results, partly so he can understand an partly cos i think im gonna b sat opened mouth jus saying a ha a ha wiv the shock, an not take any of it in, over the head kind a reaction,

would i b a complete looser if 2night i got slaughtered, bf will bring 32 tins bk instead of the usual 24 , i know i ccant sit an watch him get pissed an not my cravings r ridiculous at mo, im tempted to go get brandy 1 last time , its only 9 10 but i got 2 go an buy whiskey 4 a 70 yr old in a min, his wife died an he is ever so lonely an bored, an cant get out of house, i clean 4 him, it always makes me wonder , if i dont stop WHO WILL BUY MY BEER, or will i even get to that age , i doubt it very much,

any way gettin bk to the point, am i really bad 4 caving this early on, i cant go cold turkey, yesterday i had 3 pints , i shook all day, if i cave in am i a looser, or am i just waiting for the right ways to do this properly, i know i cant just stop, but its not mon yet, an i should give dr a true reading of a normal reading , blasted with beer is about normal 4 me, some advice, even if u dont make me feel better about bein quite weak, id like some HONEST oppinion PLEASE , ill shut up now, im going 4 a shower an b bk xx laters

[paula]

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Rachel you are not a loser, it's so difficult to come off booze. You have made a good
decision in seeing your gp, don't assume your tests will show up a lot of damage, I drank
for years and my liver function tests have never shown a problem. If you drink a lot of
beer you tend to pee a lot and its possibly less likely to cause severe damage such as
spirits cause. Your liver is also good at repairing itself, so if you try to stop drinking
it has a good chance of healing. Librium will help you with withdrawals, so take all the
help on offer from your gp. I would find it difficult to stop if my husband brought huge
amounts of drink into the house, so maybe your bf could be persuaded not to do this,
tell him he is risking your health as well as his own. Please try to avoid the temptation
to drink I know how hard it is but if you cave in you will feel even worse.
Keep posting we are all here for you. Love Paula xx

[rachel28]

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i have gad 1 high reading yr ago, an have drank lot an lots of spirits as well as beer, an dont p much thats y im worried, i think after nxt week bf will have to realise, i will try not to guzzle tonite, thanks 4 the response im gonna TRY xxxx

[paula]

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You can still get better if you stop drinking, I have known a lot of chronic alcoholics
who have lived to old age once they quit. You sound young so hopefully you can do
something about it now. Ask gp about counselling. I work in a place where there is
a drug/alcohol counselling unit, lots of young and not so young people attend on a
daily basis.You can do it with help. Try drinking more water, it will flush your toxins
out. x

[Guest]

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stay away from the brandy anyway ,by just cutting that out completly you are making big progress .Good luck over the weekend.

[Keepon!!!!]

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Hi Rachel,

My opinion would be to just drink beer to stop the shakes, not to get smashed, just take your time with and it and go about your everyday stuff etc until Monday then you can take it from there ( you know you dont want to get smashed thats why your getting your self help) so have a nice weekend wateva u decide!!!!!

Luv Keepon:h

[rachel28]

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SHIT SHIT SHIT, dr hyde took over as i was stood in shop, i had 2 buy whiskey 4 the old man who im cleaning 4, the piss head took over, 35cl a brandy, i have got some in coffee now, as soon as i got in the shop, i was sweatin , trembling and i guess reaction took over, dosent mean im not gonna do this, cos im kickin my self as im drinking it, feel a bit like a looser i ll admit but shit i will do this, an soon xx sorry , i feel like i let u down 2, i am listening to all said please belive me,xxx

[rachel28]

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im going work, an shit i done more than half the bottle, im a twat, but im sorry, didnt even realise id done it , brandy tastes like water xxxxxxxxxx

[Guest]

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your not a loser ,your a tryer! One day you will succeed , your still young enough to pull it all back and make it work for you.

[Guest]

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Rachel, NEVER EVER say you`re a loser. Sure, people who don`t drink think us that do are losers, as we can`t just "pull yourself together", but that is so unjust.

You came here for help, and that alone shows you got guts. You`re gonna win the booze battle, just as we all are-RIGHT!!!!!!!You got all us here, the true friends who want to help you, and you got your doc.

I know yesterday was real tough for you, having very little to drink compared to your usual - showed you have self-control, which ain`t always easy to find. But, the key to your freedom from alcohol lies within yourself, and you possess that key, as wanting something hard enough is half the battle and you`ve proved to yourself how badly you want this.

I understand the `last blast` idea. Think we all at some point say that if we`ve gotta give up the booze, we`re seeing it out with a bang. So, be kind to yourself until you get tangible help from your doc.-go on and have a drink over the weekend to calm your physical cravings, but please!!!!!, try to get off the brandy and stick to beer, and try to reduce just a little.

My heart goes out to you. But stay near, because we really all want to help you.

Much love,

Starlight Impress

[betty boop]

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Rachel, you are not a loser, compare today to how you were a month ago ......

You're a winner in the making ......

BB xx

[Cinders]

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Librium and Alcohol is a big No NO

Rachel,

I know it is hard. However, Librium is to help you withdraw from alcohol.

Librium is a Central Nervous System Depressant and so is alcohol. Mixing them can depress your central nervous system to a serious point. In other words, DANGER!!

PLEASE be careful. I am so worried about you!!!

You are NOT a loser. You are like ALL of us, an addict to a drug. It happens to be alcohol, a very attractive, enjoyable, legal drug.

I seldom give advice (who the hell am I to give advice??) and know your situation is not ideal but wonder if there is ANY WAY you could check in for detox?? 3 - 5 days? Under controlled medical supervision? This will NOT, I repeat, NOT get rid of your addiction, however, it will get rid of the physical situation you find yourself in right now under much safer circumstances.

I am so truly concerned about your welfare and safety.

If I was in UK, I would come and take care of your little ones for you while you did this but I live across the big pond.

I care so much and want you to be safe.

Cindi

[InnerStrength]

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Rachel
Hope you are okay. You are not a loser - we are here for you and understand all too well what you are going through.
Jen

[rachel28]

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hi a im home from work, thanks betty, cindi thanks darlin 4 your concern, i know i have mixed various barbs,trancs, uppers downers all with varying effects and mixers, but i have never really kmown what they were or were doin to me, i was on anti deppressants 4 years but they made me worse, i used to ask y? dhh obvious alcohol, an as 4 trancs well stupidly that was for a high, now im at the wise old age of 28, hearing the word, problem, librium, detox, all in a sentance have made me basically think SHIT, i think my body is tellin me that, b4 my brain, i messed up this morning, with the brandy, i just want to assure u, im not sorted wiv, doc, that wont b untill next wekend after my partners kids have gone home, then it will b me my bf my son an his, an i wont b drinking on tabllets then i can assure u, ,, it was scary how easy i picked up the brandy bottle this morning , ex scary when i realised how much id drank, ex ex scary that i didn t taste it in a ratio of !/2 mug coffee 1/2 mug brandy an ex ex ex ex scary how funny alert, un shy, funny, etc i was today, still only 3 in pm an i got dribble of brandy left, i guess thats the feeling thats gonna b hardest is being me, letting me decide if i like myself an then letting others decide 4 themselves, i did do some thinking when i was nt joking with the customers , im gonna write my boss a letter, well appology, i have worked in my cafe 10 yrs , since i was a kid really, 3 bosses later an i been sold with the furniture an fittings, the customers made sure, its a proper local cafe, this boss has lasted 4 yrs an she is only 1 who has noticed my PATTERNS, head ache at 12, sudden, hangover, she knows i ve just sobered up!! she has smelt the beer on my breath at 1o in morn, SHE KNOWS, but im good at my job, i want to explain a little an let her kno, i value her patience wiv me an I AM GONNA MAKE HER PROUD, well just remember what she told me 10 secs before i nthink will do her, any way i ve gone on an on, dont worry bout me , if bf wont accept i need close supervision after WE have seen dr, i think im gonna suggest, a dark cave an some bondage gear to keep me away from the shop untill the withdrawels go a bit xxxx

[beatle]

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Rachel, all that's been said here is just so absolutely right.
You want to do this. It is so so so so hard. but you want to.
You have to find out how is best for you, but you cannot give up.
You have to accept that it won't be easy (I think you know that already from all you have accomplished so far)-- BUT it does not have to be hell either. You have friends here. Just get through the detox and you will see how much better your future looks. So, stop beating yourself up. You are on the road come monday. And we're with you.
and, yes, as Starlight says, drop the brandy, stick to the beer till monday.