cheers darlin, im not gonna beat myself up, mayb its the bloody brandy i just finished THAT WILL BE LAST ! i can c a way out , my way out !! im realistic, but know bf wont b untill dr s tests an all that bf will have to b then , its weekend an he s been working hard, so guarantee 36 beers in fridge but BELIVE ME i WILL DRAG HIM DR S an he can hear what he has to say, if he cannot abstain, while i get myself together then its 1 of a few things,
1 he dosent care an dont mind if he has a drunk gf,
2 he has a bigger problem than he cares to admit
3 he thinks if i dont drink 4 a week or 2 everything will go away
the only worry i have wiv him is he dosent understand depression, self harm, suicidal tenndancies u get my drift, i have tried explaining, we r from very different bk grounds his father a P T I in army 4 22 yrs growin up wiv mum an dad, showing no fear, i mean he was boxing squaddies at 13/14 he has had his share of trauma, my mum an dad divorced at age 6, neither of us cud show the right emotions an think get each other that way, he just dont express it same way, he has seen his bf blow of his head wiv a shot un at 16, thats his way of dealin wiv suicidal thoughts if u dont want 2 live DONT, but under that he s a baby, i think im seeing so much more since i dared tell him my probs, although he thought he knew so much i think i ve shocked him an he dont want to loose me 1 way or 2 another, i think i completly lost the thread now !!!! AS WELL AS THE PLOT,, i can assure u all u aint hear the last of rach on the way to af free, did that rhyme!!! p.s where is kyle, i liked the littkle dude, an now hes buggered off come bk kyle, i want to c more pics of your pet otter!!!!!
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