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[diamond]

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Rachel,
we see the lovely person inside, and if you weren't trying to help yourself you wouldn't be on here.

Hugs
Diamond xx

[rachel28]

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police r calling to arrange interview, been long night of trying to get him bk on track, lots a tears but i think, he s getting it, he is good kid REALLY, i love him 2 bits, bad crowd trying to get him, he loves his sport and is brill at it, lots a drugs flying around, i know he has nt touched any, i know belive me xxxx

[paula]

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Hi Rachel, it's hard being 16, he's lucky to have you. Take care of yourself
xx

[rachel28]

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he s not even 15 till sept, his mum left him on doorstep with bags age 12, bless i hope 2 do better 4 him xxxx

[Guest]

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Thanks for sharing

[rachel28]

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thanks 4 caring x

[rachel28]

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night all im off 2 bed, thanks xx

[Guest]

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good night Rachel and try and arrange a chill out day for you ,you need it ,and stay away from es and wizz and brandy!

[IAD]

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Happy Trails ! Rachel........Good night ! IAD

[lilaclover]

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Sorry I am late with HUGS from Massachusetts. Just want to say I loved your poem and think you are very talented ! Without a doubt you have the will and the perseverance to get thru this. You are such an amazing person now...only wonderful things lie ahead for you.

[chrysa]

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Dear Rachel,

I have been following most of your posts. You are 28. I have a son that is 29 and a daughter who is 25.

Your poem was very good, shows you have a lot of talent and your posts show you are serious and have been really trying regarding your drinking.

LISTEN to me. Being on MWO is not going to help you with this at this point. You have a serious disease that has become advanced and chronic. YOU NEED to get yourself into a rehab. That is the only chance that you have. This is life or death now for you and you need to check into a hospital or facility or whatever you can arrange. Yes it is that serious.

LISTEN to me. You CANNOT do this by yourself. No one at this stage can. You need professional & medical help.

And then you will be fine for the rest of your life!. Go for it.

PM if you like.

Best wishes,
~C

[magic]

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I agree

Rachel,

I am new here and don't want to over step any boundries but I agree with Chrysa.

I don't have a 28 yr. old but could have. I was a chronic drunk for many, many years and seemed to be trying very hard to kill myself slowly when slitting my wrists would have been less painfull and quicker. Cheaper, too.

A month in rehab was what saved me. I am alive today, clean and sober, clear headed and happy because of rehab.

Getting away from the environment I was in was as important as anything else, I had time for me and others had time for me. It was a good place, rehab. I felt safe, not frightened and I learned a lot. I did not feel judged, I felt valued and welcome.

If your boyfriend is peeing the bed he has a problem too, sweetpea, a drug dealer next door and a troubled teenager....how many jobs do you have?

You need to take a break, for Rachel, dry out in rehab., learn how to live clean and sober and get yourself well. For your boy. I think he loves you.

LISTEN to Chrysa.

magic xx

[rachel28]

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hi a thanks magic ,chrysa, i got 5 cleaning jobs ! and my house!! not bad 4 a useless drunk ey!!! as 4 time off i got half a day off next tues day!!!! just got another job last mon, stupid really cos dr said whn he gives me thesee pills im gonna b a cabbage 4 a while!! more so than usual,, im not cryin today, got to much to sort out to cry!! but hey im on the 5th beer already, i cant wait to get up normaly an do normal things instead a sittin drinkin as much as i can b4 i go, im to scared to go rehab, an to scared to start goin over alll the fxxxed up things hat my life is about, surely im best forgetting it member, an b even worse,, well fri tommorow , hopefully tht willl scare me enough, xxxx

[Pisces]

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Another Poet!

That was amazing!

Poetry is a wonderful way of epressing the happiness, pain, learning and basically whatever you feel in your heart.

Poetry always touches my soul, and yours did especially cause I understand what your saying.

Thankyou, that was great, keep it up girl, it's inspiring to read.

Luv ya, xxx jas

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dearest rachel, what can I say? I agree with Chrysa and Magic --you need to do something drastic. Probably rehab would be the best for you. Definitely, you need to detox. The only thing is you have to want it yourself. It seems like you do, so if you are up to it, please perepare yourself to do it as soon as you can. But I want you to be prepared-- if you are not , it can end up being worse rather than better. You will have to be away from your family and work for a few weeks. Can you arrange that? You have to accept that other people will control every aspect of your life for a while. Can you handle that? They will decide when and what you eat, when you sleep, every waking moment, just about. You will probably have little ability to communicate with the outside world. This can be a good thing, but not everyone can handle it. I think it is the best thing for you, but you will be able to get the most from the experience if you are prepared for it. Anyway, you will be safe and away from alcohol and you will be given a new chance at starting your ilfe without dependence on alcohol. Isn't that worth it?
Just be like a scout- be prepared!