Where is Rachel?

[rachel28]

Where is Rachel?

holidays start 23rd, my boys b day, an the cats, both 10, i shud b looking forward 2 it, most of me is but there is still part of me dreading it, mainly as i ve had to sneak around before to get the drink in me, but this yr it s gonna b different, jus hope the sun comes out, i can b a good girl im sure, just never done it b4, i ve always been the bad 1, TROUBLE , i may change my middle name soon, !!! not sure what to tho, xxx glad u r well, xx

[Sweet Cheeks]

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Hi Rachel,

Glad you're OK - you've had alot of people worried - you sounded so down last week.

Hang in there - you CAN do it. Sounds as if you've got plenty going on to distract you. You should be so proud of yourself. Alcohol patches what a teriffic idea - maybe we should invent one and earn tons of money. I'll get the chemistry set out! Never smoked so don't have that problem; just the booze to contend with.

Have a fab day
Sweet:goodjob: :l

[rachel28]

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hi sweet cheeks, is it bedfordshire, uk, u live? i was conceived there, born in newport pagnell, nearly drowned in the canal in bedford, when i was little, ! alcohol patches do sound good, shame i was no good at science, i only learnt how to abuse chemicals{drugs} wish id paid attention at school now, id b a millionaire!

im definatly feelin better, and its mon, usually bad day, but i got new cleaning job last mon, didn t really want another job, but this week i just got bk, did ex 2 hrs, cleaning out cupboards an bleaching, an it feel s good, i got ex money in my pocket which i haven t gone pub or bought beer wiv, i can pay fine i forgot to pay (cos i was drunk) ,

all on 1 beer, 4 me getting out the house on 1 can is v rare, so im well chuffed, im shakin like a leaf but i blamed that on 2 much bleach 2 the lady, did have my head in the cupboard whils scrubbin wiv neat bleach, so i dont think she twigged, im sure bleach does funny things 2 u,

i guess cos i really reduced over the weekend im not feelin half as bad today, so i have proved i can bloody do it, i think the fall out from my drunk posts has give me a well needed kick in the arse, so thank u skendall, now i apprecite what u said, an thanks for the pm,x x

obviously reducing myself the withdrawels r gonna get worse, prob wed (roast day, gravy day in cafe) usually gets bad then, always day 3, as long as i dont buy brandy, just stick 2 under 4 cans is my aim, at least i aim 4 that, untill i see my alchol team,

i know rehab wud b the best option but it s very hard to get in , and half my battle is in my head, an the good girl side a me seems to b kicking trouble s ass at mo, im not gonna get to over confident but im gettin there, i just got bk from work an im gonna , go do some more at home in a min, take my mind of sitting drinking beer, i may go bleach my cupboards,

im gonna have to check if there s a web site anywhere 4 bleach addictions , i use so much of the stuff people joke i get bleach withdrawels!!!

[Guest]

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Rachel,I glad your making progress, You can do this. But please be extremly careful with bleach it is a lung irritant and you can become overwhelmed by the fumes. I have done this and it leaves your lungs very succeptable, Do you smoke? Protect your lungs girl! Also the liver as well, we love ya
Mar

[MDBiker]

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You sound like you are doing better rachel. I am glad to see things are looking up for you
bear

[rachel28]

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i think i ve been over whelmed more times y bleach fumes than i have by beer! oh i did not realise that it was dangerous, often i get palpitations, head rushes an more recently i have had some really strange problems wiv my vision which has quite worried me, i put it down to alcohol, mainly y i decided i had to go dr,(although i forgot to mention any of these things) my vision all of a sudden not nessacarily when im using bleach tho, will get hazy black fog, all round the edges of my eyes, so its like looking thru a misted up window if that makes any sense, an i feel quite unsteady, feels like im walking on shoes made from cotton wool, could this b more to do wiv bleach an cleaning products,

i do smoke an 4 hrs an hrs after i use bleach every fag i smoke tastes like chlorine, like u have been in swimming pool , i ve had this 4 yrs, oh i got to go bk dr, i worried my self now, an i was only joking about the bleach website but may check it out now,

how would i go about protecting my lungs from bleach, my poor hands have had it, i seen 70yr olds wiv better hands than mine, i really am an old scrubber !!!!

[Guest]

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Oh My sweet girl, you need a check up from top to bottom (no pun intended) Please get your eyes checked. Use bleach only in a room with plenty of ventilation and use the little masks over your nose and lips, you can pick them up in a gardening store, and use rubber gloves to protect thoes hands. Take care sweetie
Mar

[rachel28]

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oh i know, they might send me to the nackers yard tho, i think i may get a mask i could nik 1 of me bf, ! yes eyes have worried me, will get it checked, i ve started the ball rolling at dr s ,, they will wish i never come in very soon, lol bf calls me dot cotton, im always moaning bout something, but always something hurts,

cant wear gloves, i always end up with swimming pool a bleach in m, im gonna make my fortune inventing a cleaner friendly pair a rubber gloves ., xxx

[chrysa]

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Glad to hear you are doing a little better rachel. When are you going to hear from the alcohol team?. Can't you call them or your doctor again & gegt them to call you?

[diamond]

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After seeing the alcohol team and when u got a spare minute please send me your new invention of 'cleaner friendly rubber gloves' ?? LOL :H

Diamond x

[happycamper68]

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Better yet get someone else to do the cleaning if you can and just RELAX :h

[rachel28]

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1 day im gonna have a cleaner!!! id prob end up cleaning 1st tho, , habits !

[happycamper68]

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I am kinda worried about the bleach Rachel! Enough with the bleach! No more!

[morrison]

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Hey Rachel. You do sound like you are getting better. Also, your post are looking better too. What I mean is, a few times we were worried, cause it looked like you may be posting while loaded. How I know that feeling. I am so blown away by the way my post look when I'm drinking, or hungover. Then, when I get my head straight, my grammer and language is so superior. I can tell you got a great head on your shoulders, so you will get the life you want once you put down that bottle. You obviously have made a ton of friends here very quickly. Take care Rachel. You are loved.

PS - I love everybody on this board. :h

[bootcampbarbie]

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morrison you are just the cutest. i mean like a snuggly bug or something. and wow your other thread is so thought provoking my brain is still in a squeeze from it. i simply can't respond to it.
mayor morrison i think you are awesome. glad you are doing so well.