Hi Everyone -
Bet you thought I'd dropped off the face of the Earth. Well, I did, kind of. The last three and a half months have been absolute hell to live through, and I am far from done grieving for my losses. However, I found a bulletin board that has really helped me with the process of learning how to be a widow. It has been a very difficult road to travel and sad to say, I reverted to what has always comforted me the most; liquid anesthesia. :sigh:
I have finally reached a place where I am finally ready to take control over my drinking (again). I am also in the process of getting ready to make a road trip!! I will be driving from Alaska to Vermont and back again. I have a grandson that I've yet to meet who will be six months old by the time I get there. I am sorry that I haven't been posting, but it's very difficult for me to post when all I have to really talk about is how impossible it is to stay sober when every fiber of my being hurts beyond belief, so I just stayed away until I could get to a better place in my head. I know that a lot of you were thinking of me, I could feel it, and I thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers. If you're not tired of doing so, please continue to keep me in your thoughts and prayers; I am by no means done grieving, but I am ready to try to be done with the binge-drinking. I am hoping that this trip will allow my 'widda brain' to recoup and start being the useful thing that it always has been. Now that I am no longer a caregiver for family members dying of cancer, perhaps I can begin to have a life. I don't really know what that life will be, which is part of the reason for this journey. I will be keeping a blog of my trip and have included a link to it on my signature. Join me if you'd like to
Bet you thought I'd dropped off the face of the Earth. Well, I did, kind of. The last three and a half months have been absolute hell to live through, and I am far from done grieving for my losses. However, I found a bulletin board that has really helped me with the process of learning how to be a widow. It has been a very difficult road to travel and sad to say, I reverted to what has always comforted me the most; liquid anesthesia. :sigh:
I have finally reached a place where I am finally ready to take control over my drinking (again). I am also in the process of getting ready to make a road trip!! I will be driving from Alaska to Vermont and back again. I have a grandson that I've yet to meet who will be six months old by the time I get there. I am sorry that I haven't been posting, but it's very difficult for me to post when all I have to really talk about is how impossible it is to stay sober when every fiber of my being hurts beyond belief, so I just stayed away until I could get to a better place in my head. I know that a lot of you were thinking of me, I could feel it, and I thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers. If you're not tired of doing so, please continue to keep me in your thoughts and prayers; I am by no means done grieving, but I am ready to try to be done with the binge-drinking. I am hoping that this trip will allow my 'widda brain' to recoup and start being the useful thing that it always has been. Now that I am no longer a caregiver for family members dying of cancer, perhaps I can begin to have a life. I don't really know what that life will be, which is part of the reason for this journey. I will be keeping a blog of my trip and have included a link to it on my signature. Join me if you'd like to
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