Conscious Living after Four Long Years

[free at last]

Conscious Living after Four Long Years

Dear Sober Soul,
So glad you enjoyed her talk -- self-forgiveness is so important for those of us with addiction issues.

I have made a point of no more self-flagellation. I do my best, every day. That's all I can hope for.

[SoberSoul]

Conscious Living after Four Long Years

Hmm maybe that's what brought me to that thread I started about letting go of the chains of guilt and forgiving myself for past mistakes. Every little bit helps. Thanks again.

[MossRose]

Conscious Living after Four Long Years

My friend, are you still here with us? I sure do miss talking with you. Where have you landed for the time being? Hope the move is going well.

[meggie]

Conscious Living after Four Long Years

Interesting thread, I just read the whole thread.
Soul, I find we have so much in common, and not. We both are the same age and are looking for a spiritual well-being. I have followed all the spiritual writers, Bene Brown being one. She speaks so well at letting yourself open to being vulnerable.
I also watch Soulful Sunday on the Own station on Sundays. Try watching from 10 to noon. She has all the best spiritual speakers.
I am married to a bipolar sick man. He reminds me of my father and everything I hate about my father. He used to make a good living but his health has put him on disability. He has never physically hurt me but has hurt me emotionally. I know I have done the same to him. I would have left so many times but didn't because of my daughter.
She now will be out of college and starting a life of her own. But he has been diagnosed with cancer, an non-treatable cancer. I blame him for my drinking.
Sometimes I can't wait until he is gone so I can start living. I wish I could live with someone who respects and loves me. I long for a hug, kiss and a "love you"
Your struggle over the years remind me of myself. I have quit and gone back again. Now, it has been 3 years of gin, daily. I need to quit or I will be killing myself.

[Orimus]

Conscious Living after Four Long Years

Hey Meggie. I'm not married but I understand about the temptation to blame someone else for our drinking. For me if I do that I put the power in their hands, if I do that I put my power to change in their hands. I wouldn't do that to myself because I refuse to live the life they want me to lead. Giving that up is what led me to where I am with AL today. Tackling my third day after multiple attempts to get the first.

[SoberSoul]

Conscious Living after Four Long Years

Hi Everyone, I just noticed that this thread has been resurrected. Thanks. I am back into my conscious journey as I've been sober for close to a month.

I will have to take the time to re-read all the posts and comments because my conscious life is the most important part of recovery.

Meggie, I sent you a private message. Moss Rose, I know you are struggling right now too and I hope to be a better friend than I've been. I've been pretty wrapped up in my own dysfunction up until now.

Back on track and moving forward.