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[Samstone]

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Eloise
day 10!

[Eloise]

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Yup, whoopie!
How r things with you?
Kind of tricky living abroad on Thanksgiving. Making the best of things here.
Cooking now... Just to be safe!!!

[Eloise]

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It's okay reading on my phone actually Sam. Mostly because I can pick it up whenever & wherever. Handy! It is small though, I still cannot rationalize an iPad. Maybe Santa will drop one by this year??

I am feeling SO much better these days & it helps me to put things in perspective being around people who are drinking. It makes me know I am making the sensible choice.

In the past year I started Really over doing it.
And it is so much harder if I let myself drink 'one nite.'
I quickly return to drinking too much (a bottle) 2-3 times a week. It's all going to snowball if address the problem.

I really trying to kick it once & for all.

[Samstone]

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Things are ok...every year my daughter has holiday meltdowns to the point where I love the idea of the season but positively want to move away, more like she needs to move away. She gets real high expectations, planning stuff that people aren't able to do, which always leads to total chaos. She can be extremely explosive with her temper. So please enjoy your nice relaxed time!!!

We had quite the storm system blow through here, lots of rain and now some snow showers. Some wind and then sunny tomorrow. How long are you staying in the Netherlands? You like it?

Have a good Thanksgiving Eloise, we all have much to be thankful for, being sober at the top of the list. (pay no attention to my bitching).
best to you
Sam

[Eloise]

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Just saw today will be day 200 for u Sam!!
That is soooo great! Dutch lesson this morning... Will be sure to check back in later in the day, just wanted to congratulate you on day 200! Pretty amazing.

[Samstone]

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Thanks... tis the season to stay sober!!

[Eloise]

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Hey- hope ur Thanksgiving went okay?
I drank some wine.
Was feeling rather sorry for myself.
Going to count today as a 2nd day 11.
I have read 70 percent of cCarrs book. Spent time on that today because of yesterday.
U doing ok Sam?

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Eloise
Doing alright, can't complain, nice cool day here and we're surveying a piece of property that is now all wooded and now is climbing up into the mountains. One holiday over and the next on the horizon. Got nesting boxes built yesterday for our newer chickens.

So you got any idea what caused you to have your wine? How are you feeling? Learn to recognize what your triggers may be so that once they're happening, you'll be able to deal with it. Does being away from the states bother you, especially holiday season? If you need to, you are always welcomed to PM me. I know the time difference can be an issue, though.

Hope you're doing well.
Sam

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well, thanks for asking Sam and for making me think this through. next time i will PM you before I jump ship. if you don't reply immediately it's fine. at least it will make me face my thoughts.

i didn't prepare myself. i thought i was doing perfectly fine. i forgot my supplements at my studio.
so no L-glut or anything else at home.
being alone during the holiday was the trigger for sure. and that we couldn't find a nice place to have turkey, so i made some but it was disgusting. without the proper festive setting. kind of like a Tiny Tim Thanksgiving. total bummer.

and then... well...things just kind of went down hill from there.

i am okay today and the good thing is i now know how much better i feel when i am AF. i think i will have made 26 days af for November. So, that is something to celebrate. I am going in the right direction, just not there yet. can't give up....
it is totally depressing not to celebrate thanksgiving, let's face it.
last year sucked as well. christmas will be okay i think but i mustn't take anything for granted.

so, no supplements for a couple of days and a lonely holiday. my husband was with me but he doesn't get it. he does his best, oh... and we are living in his bachelor pad still ( a studio apartment) which is slowing driving me entirely INSANE.
i am still adjusting to this move for sure. i wasn't living in the states when we moved here, by the way. i had been in the caribbean. big change in weather- i am always cold which doesn't make things easy either.

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oh no, it will be 24 days for November. still an enormous improvement though.

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Eloise
we did not celebrate T Day this year either, the drama produced by daughter is just over the top so my wife & I decided to say the heck with it. Way I see it, I should be thankful every day!

I can well imagine that it must be different being alone at festive times. And strangely enough, we've all been programed to celebrate by drinking. I was definitely thinking about how it was, caught it and distracted myself somehow.
You're doing ok Eloise, you're trying and that's most important. Keep your eye on the pie. You are doing well to recognize what your triggers are.
Sam

[Eloise]

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Thanks Sam, I am getting there. Looking to find that balance that makes life normal.
I am scared to think of what drama your daughter had come up with to make you & your wife to avoid Thanksgiving entirely?
One of my aunties in Texas routinely manages to ruin things too, usually invokes drinking & crying. The cheerful stuff.

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Nothing to do with alcohol, it is always setting up everybody doing everything and everyone being everywhere. No one can accomplish it and the meltdown begins. So we just don't play the game.

You'll find your normal yet!

[Eloise]

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hm, sorry but no idea what your are really saying there Sam.
I woke up feeling pretty good, off to gym now.
Going to be vigilant about my supplements and make sure to order more tomorrow. Maybe not all of them, gotta figure it out. it is so hard to get up and exercise at 8:45 on Sunday morning!!

[Eloise]

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I also have to keep in mind, and be thankful, for how much better I feel waking up with a clear mind.
And the longer this happens the better it feels... meaning the more normal and hungover feels worse and worse. Hm. December. Maybe we go to look for a holiday tree this afternoon? You enjoy your Sunday!