I have been just over a year AF, a large part of me remaining AF is possible because I have finally accepted that i cannot moderate alcohol. I am now (after many decades) at peace with this.
However, I love coffee and chocolate. I have arthritis and thin bones and I know coffee is not advised for both conditions. Just like when I drunk alcohol I can have binges of coffee and sugar. Just spent a whole week eating loads of chocolate and feeling annoyed with myself for my lack of willpower. My arthritis has kicked off again, so I know what I have been doing is basically self harming.
I wish I could moderate with coffee and sugar, and sometimes I can but other times not.
Should I approach both substances the way I now do alcohol? None at all!
I think the answer is to stop, but to see this confirmed in print would help my resolve and my tendency to say 'f..k it when I come across temptation.
Also, with my health conditions it is vital that I preserve my joints and bones as much as I can. Sometimes though I choose to ignore this because I feel deprived if I cannot have coffee and cake. Of course I realise that this may all sound pathetic and not a real problem, but it taking up too much of my headspace at the moment.
Any advice appreciated.
Thanks
Caro
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