As the alcoholic veil lifts, I learn more & more about myself. It's amazing how long it takes. One or two days isn't enough to feel the emotional & spiritual recovery of sobriety. One or two days is simple recovery from the physical effects. Now that I've managed 10 days, my life's lessons are becoming clearer.
Drinking stifles my ability to take responsibility for managing my relationships. For example, I was out w/my husband this week. He was tired & at one point, he spoke brusquely (bordering on rudely) to me. I just calmly said to him: "Don't talk to me like that." There were a few seconds of silence, & his attitude then took a 180. He didn't apologize (do men ever?), but I knew he recognized what had happened.
If I'd been in the middle of a drinking bout, I would have kept silent & fumed inside. When I got home, I probably would have gotten drunk. I can see that w/sobriety, I will have the responsibilities of managing life (which is what I tried to avoid through drinking).
Janice: I hope you are coming today. My thoughts are w/you & when I prayed before sleep last night, I included you. Again, we older folks sometimes don't realize that we are so very important to our very busy grown-up children.
Love you all, Mary
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