I'm much more self-aware & assertive. Because I felt so guilty about drinking, I rarely spoke up for myself & over-compensated by being a doormat in the day(s) following a binge. Also, because I spent so much money on wine every week (I didn't drink jug or boxed), I rarely treated myself to the occasional treat that makes life pleasurable: new pair of sandals, purse, etc.
I can calmly say what I need to say now. My relationship w/others is stronger as a result. I'm not harboring resentments & hurts (which used to trigger further drinking bouts). While I'm not profligate w/money, I can treat myself &/or my loved ones to a little something wo/feeling like I'm taking excessive amounts out of the weekly budget.
I cannot express my gratitude for MWO enough. I love you all, Mary
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