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Hi again and thanks again for all of your thoughts. Well he did give me "the papers" and some ado ensued then for a short while. THEN, he broke down and cried, hasn't done that since college. he said I told him to do it (I did ... but I meant n.ot now, when things stabilized). That I "conned him" into believing I would not drink, and he believed me. that he's already 50 years old and probably only has 8-10 years left (his father died at 58) and he doesn't want to have a heart attack or be "destitute." That he should be making more money than he is because he cannot concentrate because of me. He cannot forgive the 5 years of abuse he has suffered. he says he was a good husband and never azbused or neglected me, unless I had been drinking.... BUT I can have the kids, and I must stay sober so I could take good care of them. Maybe he shouldn't be married to anybody and live alone. That we do not have to do anything about this now or ever, although he thinks we should. He cried so hard he probably scared himself, but I think it was good for him and I was kind.
Well, I am 7 days AF and plan to be until tomorrow. I am shaken, but at the same time hope some kind of good will come out of this, at least some understanding. I understand he is petrified of alcohol, but the beer IS just the tip of the iceburg. There is and has been much more stewing here for not 5 years but 20. He cannot see that. He says he never forced me to drink -- of course, that's true, but he never really listened to the things I had to say, how lonely I was, with my thoughts bouncing off the walls. He was crying so hard, said he was afraid of a stroke. This was about 1:30 this afternoon; he has his own accounting practice, but is also a very talented guitarist, and now has a gig in a nice, local restaurant, so I know I am h ome alone. I can go to the pakky and not get found out, but I really do not feel like for whatever reason. Would love to hear your thoughts and hang out here tonight, me
Hi again and thanks again for all of your thoughts. Well he did give me "the papers" and some ado ensued then for a short while. THEN, he broke down and cried, hasn't done that since college. he said I told him to do it (I did ... but I meant n.ot now, when things stabilized). That I "conned him" into believing I would not drink, and he believed me. that he's already 50 years old and probably only has 8-10 years left (his father died at 58) and he doesn't want to have a heart attack or be "destitute." That he should be making more money than he is because he cannot concentrate because of me. He cannot forgive the 5 years of abuse he has suffered. he says he was a good husband and never azbused or neglected me, unless I had been drinking.... BUT I can have the kids, and I must stay sober so I could take good care of them. Maybe he shouldn't be married to anybody and live alone. That we do not have to do anything about this now or ever, although he thinks we should. He cried so hard he probably scared himself, but I think it was good for him and I was kind.
Well, I am 7 days AF and plan to be until tomorrow. I am shaken, but at the same time hope some kind of good will come out of this, at least some understanding. I understand he is petrified of alcohol, but the beer IS just the tip of the iceburg. There is and has been much more stewing here for not 5 years but 20. He cannot see that. He says he never forced me to drink -- of course, that's true, but he never really listened to the things I had to say, how lonely I was, with my thoughts bouncing off the walls. He was crying so hard, said he was afraid of a stroke. This was about 1:30 this afternoon; he has his own accounting practice, but is also a very talented guitarist, and now has a gig in a nice, local restaurant, so I know I am h ome alone. I can go to the pakky and not get found out, but I really do not feel like for whatever reason. Would love to hear your thoughts and hang out here tonight, me
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