just found this site and I have been reading some of the posts. I get a very clear message abotu the goodness of this community, and teh help I hope is here.
As for me; I know that I have to serioulsy curtail my drinking as i am sure it is affecting me in all sorts of ways. i hope my health is okay but the amount of booze- mostly wine but after i've had a few i am not particular! that I get through most days can't be good for my liver, my skin, my weight, my stomach and my brain! let alone what it is doing to my ability to do a demanding job effctively and most of all to look after my family.
But I am grown up - nealy 50_ enough to know that it is in the end down to me; i don't want to stop drinnking but I do want to stop drinking so much. when i am away from home it is not a problem- i can go a coupel of weeks- or all the time I am away without feeling any craving or even mild desire; so i hope i am not addicted. Maybe I am fooling myself on that as well.
But at home, its the habit. Gettign home from work,,opening the fridge, opening the wine, making dinner, relaxing, all with a glass nearby. And i am gettign so fat i am sure my husband is finding me increasingly unattractive; it can't be nice being with someone who is drunk every night either. he is very good and i adore him but i do notiec sometimes that he gets fed up. who can blame him.
i have so much that is so very positive in my life- i have been so lucky; i have will power and ambition, fro all sorts of things but this doesn't seem to matter, because i suppose, in reality i really don't believe in myself about this at all.
So folks, what i am really saying, i suppose, is that i know that i haev to do it by myself; that all the tricks and pills in the world can't work unless i give it the climate to succeed. So I know that , but all the same, if its out there, some help would be very very very good.
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Must try harder x
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