I've hit the bottm

[Benno]

I've hit the bottm

Hi mike205,

Welcome and I'm glad you've taken some good early steps, it's really worth sticking at and also posting and reading on this site.

Hi Janet ... we just had a normal weekend and I had a pretty quiet and relaxing time. The Naltrexone had tired me out a bit, but we had beautiful Spring weather here, so I went for a walk to a bakery I'd heard about, got the papers and some bread that seemed homebaked. I organised my room, put things into order and relaxed. On my walk though, I just enjoyed having all my senses in good health, I took my time and noticed different things, gardens and architecture. As people say, the fog had risen and I didnt feel so blinkered. People smiled. I had dinner with Dad. The meds made me feel a bit strange but overall I was fine and had no urges.

On Sunday I saw my football side win not hungover for the first time in ages, declined a beer at the game and an offer to go somewhere afterwards. I went for an easy jog and got things ready for work.

Just completed 10 AF days, feel good, but there's lots of challenges ahead, particularly in social situations.

INterested to hear what happened with you,

Take care,

Ben

[mike205]

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Hi guys,
Thanks for the comments. I got through my real 2nd night last night. I didn't eat much but drank a lot of fluids and an o'douls (n/a beer) which was awful. I had no real cravings for a beer and the thought of drinking one did not seem pleasant. My supportive friend came over to keep me company but I wasn't much of a conversationalist and the only thing to watch on TV was the Red-Sox game and she hates baseball.

I had a .5mg of Klomopone around 10pm and went to bed a little later. I slept good and woke up a little sweaty for work. I think I'm lucky with the sleeping thing. I'm ready for tonight, I have to go to a sports meeting tonight and I have my first soccer practice tomorrow night (I coach). I'm just hoping I can be upbeat for the kids I coach.

I seem to be doing fine and I'm looking forward to getting over day 3 but I'm getting nervous about the upcoming weekend. I'm just not sure how I'll handle all that time I have to myself.

Thank you for reading.
mike

[Chief]

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Mike, You're doing great! Stay focused on getting through Day 3. That's all, Day 3. Don't worry about tomorrow or the weekend. You will be so proud of yourself when you wake up tomorrow and there will be no way you would want to "waste" the first 3 days AF. If times get tough get on here and start talking. We will help you get through it. You're doing great...Don

[mike205]

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Thanks Chief,

I appreciate the response. I haven't been to AA yet but I know there motto is "one day at a time". I was thinking hard about that and it makes total sense. Why worry about getting through Sunday when it's only Wednesday afternoon. I'm just waiting to get home tonight. I'm not craving a drink and I've been drinking lots of antioxidant drinks like Arizona Green Tree. They are pretty good once you get used to the taste. I'm lucky that I gave up coffee and carbonated drinks over a year ago. I'm sure I'd be drinking a whole lot of dunkin donut coffee right about now.

I'm going to wrap up at the office and I'm sure I'll be checking back in tonight.

The Red-Sox are on again but I think we'll rent a movie tonight. It's only fair.

Good luck,
mike

[betty boop]

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Mike, so pleased to see that you are doing good .......... You CAN do this .....

I'm proud of you ........... keep it up ..............

[planetjanet]

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Hi Mike,

Glad to hear you are doing well. If you decide to drink a non-alcoholic beer, there are other ones that are much better than Odouls. Here are a few: St. Pauli's, Kalibur, Buckler and Klaushaler, check them out. Mixed Cranberry juice and water is the best antioxidant to drink, Arizona Green Tea is more commercial then really an antioxidant, but hey it's better than drinking alcohol, right? Keep up the good work and yeah renting a movie is a great idea.

Benno - sounds like you weekend went really well and that's great to hear. I had a very interesting weekend, which again I would love to write about but I am just really busy at work. I am taking tomorrow and Friday off, so I will post you a message, it really was a great weekend for me as well and a story that I can't wait to share.

Congrats on AF Day 10...we did it : )

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Big hugs,
Janet

[Guest]

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Well Mike, if you think Day 3 may be your hardest, we`re all here for you.
The first weekend is maybe a little lack-lustre without a drink, but that`s all in the mind...........being sober frees us up to do so many pleasant things that you`ll find there aren`t enough hours in the day...once you get used to being AF, you won`t have such a surplus of free time....you`ll be busy, busy, busy........promise!!!

You`ve jumped in at the deep end and are doing great.........be rightly proud!!!

Love and continued strength to you,

Starlight Impress x

[mike205]

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Hello, just checking in. This is my third night and I'm feeling fine just a bit down in the dumps tonight. I think this is the most tired I've been this early at night (9pm) in a long time. I'm really looking forward to going to bed and walking up to day 4. I'll try to get back on-line and to come say hi in the chat room tomorrow night.

Take Care,
mike

[Breez]

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Hi Mike-

You're doing so good. Be proud to be taking these steps. It's those first few days that are the hardest. Another hard part are when the pains of withdrawal are gone & you're feeling better and the creepy voice in your head says "you did good-have one it'll be ok". That's the utlimate test. You've got the right attitude, determination and focus-never lose sight of your goal. And above all never give up. The more days you have AF under your belt, the more empowered you become. You can do this. Congrats on 3 days!


Go Sox! We're a die-hard Sox family. We live on the cut-off line in CT between the Yank & the Sox fans.

Have a good night.

[mike205]

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Breez,
Thank you so much for the note it's so encouraging. The great thing about this is that I dont want to let myself down but in the past I tried to do this by myself and when I couldn't do it I'd think "well, no-one knew I was trying to stop anyway". This time not only will I let myself down but the friends I've confided in and the people who support each other on this web-site. It really is a pillar of strengh. I will be expecting that creepy voice at some point so I'll try to prepare. Knowing that you guys have experienced it will provide some comfort that it's not just me.

Last night was a pretty weird night. I was restless, sweaty and didn't sleep well. My friend stayed with me until around 2:30. She was awesome, kept asking me if I wanted to change my sweaty t-shirt was kind of funny. I had a couple of weird dreams and couldn't get out of bed this morning. The great thing about that though is that it wasn't 'cause of the beer but just catching up on sleep.

I feel ok today, a little tired but looking forward to face the day. I have to run a soccer clinic tonight so we'll see how that goes.

Best Regards everyone.
mike

[Guest]

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You`re doing good Mike...so pleased for you.Great that you have such a caring friend. Hope you cope O.K. with the soccer clinic tonight.......should do since you slept late.

Starlight Impress x

[Breez]

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Yup-I remember the sweats & boy were my dreams crazy-almost frighful. I think mine were because after my binge drinking my brain was trying to cope with reality & drunk induced sleep.

Have a good clinic & be good to yourself. Know that the suffering is temporary & for a better & greater thing that awaits you. Keep up the good work!

[mike205]

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Had a pretty good day today (day 5). I usually go for lunch on Friday's with a co-worker. Quite often we'd have a beer or two. We went today, he ordered a pale ale, I ordered a club soda. I didn't have that beer craving and it just did not look appealing to me. I had an appetite that I haven't had for a long time and ate a pretty big lunch - Fish & Chips. I was in a really good mood when I got back to work because I had abstained.

This evening at work I was wrapping up a few things and chatting in the room for a bit and my boss/friend came down and asked if I wanted to grab dinner while traffic died down. We went to Joes American Bar and Grill sat and talked about how I was doing and feeling. I told him what was helping my specifically MYO and my ex GF. We both just had iced water with dinner. I had a cup of clam chowder and roast beef and mashed potato. The big deal here for me is that today is the most food I've had in I don't know how long. I had been eating one meal a day.

I'm looking forward to day 6 and have enough things to do I won't be sitting and dwelling.

I'm not sure what the weekend will bring feeling wise but I can feel that distance between me and that beer moving further away.

Good luck to all

[Guest]

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Hi Mike,
So glad you`ve had a good day and enjoyed an AF lunch and dinner.

I think of not drinking as an estrangement, simply because I revered wine and called it my beloved.........am now happily estranged from my beloved. I hope my beloved and I will get divorced through time!!! lol

Am delighted to hear that you`re already experiencing a sense of estrangement from alcohol.

Starlight Impress x

[Chief]

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You're doing great Mike. 5 days is awsome! You are getting used to being sober and you like the feeling. Look at the weekend as just another day, that's all it is really. It's the Beast that puts it into our head that the weekend is something different and will be harder. Our body doesn't know what day it is. It's a trick by the Beast. You are doing fine, stay strong and focused... Don