AF Anyone??

[wakupmom]

AF Anyone??

Welcome Veronica,and Jewel!
Well done for making that first step,and i hope you feel some relief.We are all here for eachother,so you will be supported through thick and thin.As the others have said read the book.The suppliments are good,not just in helping with withdrawal but also healing.Most of all try to stay in touch.xx
I've been here since july and have had some increasing lengths of A/F days which feel wonderfull,and when i lapse give me insentive to get back on the horse.Because there is no comparison to being drunck and sober.
Hi Amelia,Cuckoo,Cindi,Prose hugs to you xx

[AMELIA]

AF Anyone??

Welcome Jewels!! Lovely to have you here. Yes I have done the same thing (ringing people when I am completely senseless) and it is awful waking up the next day and thinking - oh my god, what did I say??
Well done on doing 2 days AF. You are on your way!!!! Keep us posted.
x

[cuckoosnest83]

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Good morning, Cindi, Amelia, Wakeupmom, Prose, Veronica, and Jewels and anyone else I may have forgotten. I am in a course today and tomorrow so I look forward to learning something new and using my brain. Good luck to everyone on achieving whatever goal they have put in place for themselve today. Have a blessed day.

Cuckoo

[prose]

AF Anyone??

Good Morning all,
Nice to "meet" you Jewels and Veronica,
I am climbing back on, should have started with everyone else at the beginning of nov, but have always been a bit of a late sarter, so yesterday was my first af day of the month, I can't believe how much better I feel this morning.
I have decided that i need to go see our family doc and get some help with things on that end, been having days of non-stop-crying, so it is either that or buying stock in the kleenex company,
sounds like you are all doing well, thanks for being there everyone! I will check in tonight,
P

[AMELIA]

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Prose, are you OK? Non stop crying days don't sound good to me at all.
Are you lonely at the moment?? Or is it frustration with wanting to be AF?? I really hope you can find a way to feel better. We are all here - only a keyboard away.
:huggy

[prose]

AF Anyone??

Hi Amelia,
I am doing much better today, arranged an appt to talk to someone, it is amazing how doing one little thing can make you feel better! I am pretty sure the crying is hormonal, I do know that being af right now is not just an option, but a real necessity.
Thank you so much for your concern, it means so much to know you are all out there!
How are you doing? I am still seeing the little sad face by your mood, I hope you are doing ok.
have to go out for a bit but will check in when I get home, P

[jewels]

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Hi Amelia, Prose and Cooko, I just came home for my lunchbreak and got all of your messages. It sure does help knowing there are people out there who relate to what I'm going through. I feel really good today. I keep thinking "why would I want to feel hungover and crappy everyday when I feel as good as I do right now?" It is so weird that my human nature is to beat myself up with booze. I feel so much better sober I don't understand why I am so reluctant to stay this way. Anyway, I am running with that thought for as long as it will take me. I am also taking Campral which is really taking away the cravings. Thank God for that! I will check in later. Thanks everybody for your support!

[AMELIA]

AF Anyone??

Prose, I know what you mean about doing things for yourself....they nearly always make us feel better. I know its seems obvious to say it, but sometimes we look after everyone else but ourselves, so when we do look after ourselves it feels wonderful.

Thank you for asking how I am. I am OK. Today was my last day (finally) of working for other people so to speak. Tomorrow will be my first day of painting!!!!! Really excited. But feeling very needy tonight (asking for LOTS of hugs from boyfriend). I think I am really tired, plus I have my career change now finally happening and also the problems between my parents. I phoned my father last night. It was a very difficult conversation. Mostly because as soon as I confessed I knew what had happened he wanted to tell me EVERYTHING!!! Then at the end of the call when I challenged his behaviour, he basically hung up on me. Very distressing all round.
Will post more probably when I am not so exhausted.

Hey Jewels, so nice to see you back on the boards!! We all can relate in some way to what you are going through. I am so glad you feel good today. This place is such an amazing release. You mention 'beating yourself up with booze' and that is all about the double sided blade of alcohol. One side soothes and sedates you, the other (the next day) leaves you feeling tired, sick and isolated. Best left well alone (the booze that is).
Keep on posting Jewels. xx

Cuckoo, Wakeupmom, Veronica and EVERYONE ELSE....thinking of you all and would love to hear how you are doing.
x

[cuckoosnest83]

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Hi everyone, had a busy day today. Class until 5:00 pm, gym until 7:00 pm, and now 7:45 pm dr's appt. Will post when I get home. Hope everyone is doing well. Day 7 for me. I can't believe an entire week and my cravings haven't even been unbearable. One or two wobbly nights but that's it. You guys are the best.

Cuckoo

[prose]

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Hi again,
home for a bit before I have to head out to do a bit of shopping, just wanted to say hello,
Jewels, you are so right about that feeling of wondering why we do this, when it feels so good not to,
I am on day 2 and have thought all day about how much better i feel,
Amelia, sorry to hear that the family situation is so stressful, there is nothing quite like family strife, but I am glad to hear you will start your painting!
Cuckoo, you had a busy day! how is the class? are you learning lots of new stuff?
have to go find some supper, take care everyone, P

[cuckoosnest83]

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Prose, Amelia, Jewels, what a day of ups and downs. The class was wonderful. It is a clinical chemistry class and I learned a lot. Tomorrow we tour the VA hospital clinical laboratory and the med tech lab at the college. It was such a rewarding day. After the class I went to the gym for over an hour and did a strenuous workout. Forty minutes on the treadmill at a sharp incline and then upper body and abs for about another 30 minutes. I have been walking ~ 2 miles a day everyday for at least 6 weeks and on alternating days I have been walking over 4 miles. Well I go to the dr. today thinking how proud he is going to be and what a picture of health I am going to be and my blood pressure was pretty high. I just went from this feeling of euphoria to why bother. I was feeling really down and then I logged onto this wonderful thread and read that Amelia is ready to start painting tomorrow, that Jewels is feeling really good and doing Campral which has minimized her cravings, and that Prose is on day 2 of AF and sounds so much more upbeat. Reading your posts allows me to take pleasure in your successes and minimizes my setback.

[cuckoosnest83]

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Wakeupmom, Cindi, Veronica, hope you are all doing well. Cindi, I tried to join a chat with you last night (I installed Java) but you had exited by time I logged on. Hope to see you all post soon.

[jewels]

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Hi Amelia and everyone. I am starting to look forward to coming here and seeing how everyone is doing. It is like a place I can crawl into and get out of my head for a while (hmmm....can you say substitute?). I had a good day today until I left work. I kept thinking about the weekend as I drove by all the bars and liquor stores I've frequented wondering what the heck I am going to do with myself this weekend. I definitely need a new hobby. Good for you Amelia with the painting! That sounds like fun. I think I am going to take up yoga. I need to meet some new people since the friends I have are pretty much just drinking buddies. I hate to say it but I think I am going to go to an AA meeting just to meet some sober people. The double edge sword thing really stumps me. Obviously I am trying to escape from myself with the booze. But that is how I started drinking. I was very insecure in my teens and I used alcohol to relax. Today I am a very confident person, so I guess it just became a bad habit over the years (ya think?!). Anyway, I could use your guys support for awhile. My boyfriend is going out of town for a week on Friday. I hope I make it.

Cuckoo you sound like you are doing good keeping busy. Amelia I hope you got a good night sleep. Maybe convo's with your Dad are not such a good idea right now. Talk to you all soon.

[cuckoosnest83]

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Jewels, I'm glad you look forward to coming to this thread. I do too. It is pretty much the regulars anymore and I feel very comfortable with them. I'll be around this weekend so if you feel like posting, pm, or chatting I should be here. You take care and you'll make it. As you said you are a very confident person.

Cuckoo.

P.S. I am trying to keep busy but the weekends are long.

[AMELIA]

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Cuckoo, congratulations on your week!!! Definately the hardest days. Keep on going, keep on going!! Did you know that just going to the doctor can raise your blood pressure?? If you haven't been drinking for a week and you're exercising, if it is high it should start to drop real soon. I haven't been to the gym in 3 long weeks. Ow, it is going to hurt when I go tomorrow.....

Prose, you are on day 3 (now) and hopefully going strong. Have you been to talk to someone yet?? I have been to counsellors before to talk about all sorts of things to do with my drinking and it really helped.

Jewels, yoga is one of the best things you could do to destress and stay calm and centred.
I bet you will feel great after just one session. If you do go to an AA session, I would be very interested in hearing how it goes for you. The last time I went to one was about 10 years ago. It was OK, but I did feel like I didn't have such a 'problem' as everyone else did. They were talking about downing whole bottles of spirits and I was on my bottle of wine......

Wakeupmom, I said in the 'Up for a UK meet' yesterday that I think I would like to come too. Should be interesting!

Veronica, How are you getting along?? Hope you are doing OK.

Hello to everyone else.
x